i guess you have problems trusting people. i guess i knew that. but to be honest it didn't even cross my mind. i'm a reliable person. seriously. the last thing i would want to do is hurt you.

i guess i have problems reading people. i guess i should've known. but when you develop feelings for someone—strong feelings—it is necessary to take precautionary measures so that you don't get hurt. so you take everything at face value. you don't jump to conclusions. you are unaffected. you are guarded. you assume the worst just to prepare yourself for the moment it happens.

i guess i just thought you didn't want that. i guess i overcompensated. my friends have been saying i did nothing wrong. there is some validity to that. but even so i feel guilty. what i did wasn't fair to you, and it wasn't fair to him. i care for you both so much that i can't help but see things from your perspective, and that's what makes this all so difficult.

i guess i need to take a step back. i guess this is where we are now. but that's what mistakes are for, right? it's time to reassess and to reimagine myself. it's time to analyze the situation from an objective point of view. empathy aside, what exactly is going on here? are there winners? are there losers?

i guess i don't want to be the reason for your trust issues. i guess i'm afraid of that. some part of me worries that i will become a story you tell your friends when you justify your commitment complex. but i don't want to be an example of someone who got you wrong. i want to be the one that got you all right. i want to be the one person that understood.