guys i literally hate myself wtf

i always tell stories that are not interesting or funny and i just keep going until someone stops me because i get so uncomfortable.

i can't stand my own personality fml

i just get so nervous talking to some people because i feel like whatever i have to say is not important.

i need to chill and just talk to people like a normal human being.

like sometimes i get so jacked up on adrenaline and i'm so loud and annoying.

but sometimes i'm just weird.

it's not good. why can't i just be calm and chill and like confident and shit??