I am writing this because i have no will at all to do anything aside from crying my eyes out...

As update to why...  For some annoying reason,  my mother blames me for it...

I guess that's how stupid my life is...  All i did was tell her how i feel and try to make her understand my position yet all she hears is me being rude to her.. 

What have I done to deserve this??  I never really understood my life... Never really had a drive to continue since before...  Heck,  i even thought of quitting school and life many times...  But i chose not to...  For the people i will meet and the people i treasure...

Yet, all i feel is headache and sore eyes...  I try to think positively but i guess telling might ease some of my pains...

She said starting now,  i have no mother...  When all through the years,  i saw her as a figure to always please...

I hate myself...  Why can't they just stop being so selfish...  Im so tired...  So so tired..