note included at the end!
thank you <3

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Congratulations.

You are a complete fuck-up, Gilbert Snickett. You had to go ahead and ruin something nice. I think solemnly, letting myself sit down on a rock. I will not equivocate on my opinion. I will not mask my thoughts with a fake, plastic front.

I. Fucked. Up.

I stand by what I say, every bit of it; and you know what? I'm, surprisingly, not that fucking proud of it. I stare up at the sky of stars, silently pondering on and on relentlessly. A sky of stars... I look back down and take a quick glance over to the partially lit house. Do I go to him? Do I leave now?

Oh god... A dilemma, a predicament! I chuckle to myself.

"Ha. Ha. Ha..." I stop laughing, my face now blank. "See, Blake? I learned so many new things from you..." I'm just trying to do my best here. I quickly make up my mind. I inhale before exhaling the cold, dead air. I pocket my phone carefully, slipping it into a pouch sewn on my pants.

"Let's go," I say to — really — no one in particular, wordlessly making my way closer to his place. I stare up, audibly gulping. Pacing around in circles momentarily, a wave of responses cross my mind, frustrating me. Questions like, "is this the right place?", "why am I here?", or "has he moved?". Scaling the wall gingerly, I snap open the window lock before pushing myself onto the windowsill. Careful not to let anyone else other than him, I lightly tap the windowsill to alert him of my presence. I hear things shuffling and moving around.

This is the worst idea ever. Well, it is far too late to go back now... I feel like a complete and utter fool. A fool that was madly in love.

I didn't feel ready. However, when was I ever ready? Was now the right time now? Was it not? My heart acts as if it's about to leap out of my chest cavity and hurt itself. It was so soundless, to the point where I could literally hear the pounding and beating of my heart that was jumping all over the place.

My train of thoughts is thrown off track, causing me to almost let go of the ledge. Then a croaky voice pipes up, much to my surprise.

"Gilbert?"

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thank you so very much for reading this page today, at whatever time of the day you see this!! you have no idea how much I seriously appreciate everyone who is reading or has read this <33 however, sadly I believe that STARS AND FIREWORKS will have to be put on-hold for a little while. not for too long though, I hope!

it's only because of school, but I should be able to post within a short time. either way, I really do hope that you will understand, but I'll try and fit in some time for this and/or even plan and draft some pages during the school day.

thank you for understanding and I hope that you have a fantastic day/night<3

xo, b.