I've been working on the next vol chapter, and I'm sorry it's not up yet, and that I haven't updated my one shots or random book like I usually do, I will in a few weeks.

I've been stuck in the hardest period of my life since July, in literally a one day snapping my anxiety disorder went from moderate to severe, and has only been getting worse.

Yesterday I accidentally hurt someone, then found out some friends are moving away, then a pastor gave a sermon that shocked me (in a bad way), and it's flipped my moral compass, future plans, and all my writing upside down.
I'm more confused and lost than ever, and the only pastor I know has a habit of leaving me on read for weeks.

Right now I feel so impossibly overwhelmed, there's so much on my mind all the time and every day only adds to it, I feel like I need to sit alone for hours thinking through everything and yet when I have a solution I feel no satisfaction, just the same fear.
I'm exhausted.

Like I said, it's been getting worse over time, the last week I've had no 'good' days, and today and yesterday I've felt like I literally can't think about anything but my fears -and there are hundreds of constant screaming fears.

Before you ask I do have a therapist and have started taking medication but they aren't having any effect on me, I guess this is just a personal journey or whatever, maybe.
I'm scared the medication is making me worse, as I started on two days ago -right before things crumbled even more.

I don't mean to sound like I'm begging for attention, I just wanted to get it out and let everyone know why I'm not posting as often on any of my social media. I'm really really confused and all my energy is spent worrying or crying, unfortunately that's why.
If anyone has any advice I'd appreciate that a lot.