"Babe, just open the door!" Sam tried from the front door, Sadie not showing up for practice the next day making them all head over. "Look, I know you're upset about the All Valley."

"Fangs!" Johnny beat on the door. "Open this door!"

"Sadie!" Demetri knocked on the living room window. "I brought you that gumbo my mom makes you!"

"You can bite me if you wanna." Eli added alongside him.

"Maybe she needs time to process it all." Miguel tried to reason with the four, being the only one that was really seeing it from Sadie perspective. "I mean, i'm sure this is really hurting her feelings."

"And leave her in there?" Sam shook her head, knocking on the door. "Sadie, i'm serious! Now i'm getting really worried."

"I wanna be alone!" she yelled from inside, and it provided them some form of comfort to at least know she was okay.

"Too bad!" Johnny yelled at her. "Open this door right now!"

"No!" Sadie yelled back, and there was a shatter.

"Oh, god. She's throwing stuff." Sam exhaled with a shake of her head. "It must be bad. I will bust down this door, Sadie! Don't think I won't!"

"Miguel." Hawk grabbed his hand, pulling him toward the window. "She leaves her bedroom window unlocked."

"What?" he looked in confusion.

"She started to leave it unlocked for me and Demetri if we needed to come stay with her. You're the quietest." Eli went on, keeping his voice in a whisper.

"Why can't we just give her space?" Miguel gave a look of disbelief.

"Because." Sam cut in on the conversation. "Sadie isn't like you. She can't just have space and get over things. She's needs something to ground her."

"You don't think she's gonna get mad that we are breaking into her house?" Demetri sided with Miguel.

"I'll do it." Sam looked to Eli with a nod. "I just pull it upwards?"

"Yeah, but don't go all the way up or it'll squeak really loud." he nodded. The LaRusso girl crept toward the back of the house where Sadie's room was, listening to the boys continue at the front door. Sam found Sadie's window, walking over as she lifted it just enough to pull herself through, not all the way. Sadie wasn't in her room, Sam slowly climbing in as she stepped quietly onto the fluffy rug on the floor. Sams eyes looked around her girlfriends room, realizing she threw the majority of her things on the floor, a small hole in the wall, two empty bottles on the nightstand.

She pulled the bedroom door open, realizing if she wasn't in her room, she must be in the living room. Sam didn't realize how lonely and depressing Sadie's house seemed until right now. It hadn't been remodeled since the seventies, the wooden walls, with zero family photos on them. There wasn't too many windows, not allowing much light to come in. Even the small, boxy tv was depressing, only playing in black and white. Sam didn't recognize the movie on the screen, eyes too busy looking around for any sight of Sadie.

She started to consider that she snuck out when she heard them here, that thought falling out of her head when she heard a squeak from down the hallway. Sam turned, looking toward the other bedroom down the hallway. The small girl walked down the hallway, keeping her feet silent to avoid Sadie taking off. Coming from the corner, her eyes fell onto Sadie sat on her parents bed, a shoe box infront of her. "Sadie."

The Vesper girls eyes looked up at her, blinking in disbelief. "Did you actually break down the door?"

"Snuck in through the window." Sam answered, shutting the door to silence the boys at the front door. "What are you looking at?"

Sadie gave a sad smile, pulling a photo from the box. Sam sat on the large bed with her, taking the photograph. She looked at a christmas card, the curly haired blonde woman on one side, a handsome, neat looking man by her side, a little asian girl, not even considered a toddler yet, in the middle of them. "That's when they adopted me."

Sam gave a small smile, taking it from her hands. "You were so tiny."

"And they were so happy." Sadie nodded, looking at more photos, flipping through them. "But the photos stop when I reached middle school."

The shoe box was empty, Sadie realizing they hadn't taken a family photo, nor have they been happy, since sixth grade. Sam placed the photo back inside. "Are you missing your dad?"

"No." Sadie exhaled, she wanted to tell Sam about how her mom wasn't here, wanted to tell her how lonely the house was, wanted to tell her everything that was going on in her body, but couldn't find the right words. "Just, back when things were ease."

Sam scooted closer, grasping her hands and placing them on her knees. Sadie met her eye, the dark circles staring back at the blue ones. "I know, with your dad, things have been hard for you, and your family. It isn't fair, and i'm sorry that he isn't how he use to be, because you deserve to have a support dad in your life. But I think you're missing something right infront of you."

"You're right infront of me." Sadie gave a knowing look.

"Sadie, Johnny cared and loves you so much. Even if he doesn't want to say it out loud." Sam shook her head, explaining what she meant. "And I know it's different, because he isn't your dad. But, you need him just as much as he needs you. And that's a lot."

Sadie wanted to tell her that it didn't feel that way, that it didn't feel like, even though she knew she did, she had anyone that actually loved her enough. She wanted to tell her how she blamed herself for so much pain and suffering in her life, because of how much she messed things up. But Sam wouldn't understand, because she was perfect, because she had good parents, because she didn't mess things up the same way Sadie did, because she didn't change who she was and scare everyone away. She knew no one that wouldn't truly understand all of it, not even Eli, who had similar pain, but not enough for her to be able to confine in him and not feel so alone.

"I know that. And I know all of you care, and I appreciate that so much." Sadie admitted, her eyes meeting Sams. "I just feel like I need to, just, stop for a second."

"Stop karate? But, you love it." Sam said, and Sadie thought that was probably a better example.

"What does it matter? It's not like I'll get to compete." Sadie looked at her honestly. "That's the entire point."

"Is isn't." Sam squeezed her hands. "The All Valley, yeah, it matters, but that's not the reason you do karate. I know you love it, I know you love it because I see the way you smile when you get something right and how confident you feel in yourself. You can't throw all that away because you can't compete in a stupid tournament that you already left a major mark on."

It made Sadie laugh slightly, looking down. "They definitely remember me, don't they?"

"I mean, it's hard to forget the girl that took a chunk out of a boys shoulder, had blood all over her face, and was yelling into the crowd." Sam laughed alongside her, Sadie twisting her fingers.

"You know i'm sorry for all I did to you, right?" Sadie met her eye, pool of guilt circling her own. "I mean, I did so much to you, Sam."

"I know that isn't who you are." the blue eyed girl shook her head.

"Doesn't change the fact that I still did it." Sadie met her eye, blinking. "And now, I think about how angry I would be if anyone did any of that to you. I mean, i'd kill someone if they ever hurt you the same way I did. Me. I did so much."

"Sadie." Sam grabbed her face with a knowing look in her eye. "We can't change the past, neither of us. But we do get to control our future, and I know that if you're in mine, everything that happened between us before will be worth it."

Sadie gave a sad smile, laughing slightly. "I'll try my hardest to keep that dream of yours alive."

Sam pulled her in, hugging her tightly as she planted a kiss to Sadie's head, keeping her held for a moment longer.

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