This idea is from REBELGIRL0309
A/N dugs cutting and suicide
just a warning for those how don't like to read things with any of the three in it

During season 1 2

Ezra P.O.V

I was sitting in mine and zeb's room in the dark as I look at the tub of pills in front of me, I wasn't sure if I could have any more as I have already gone through 5 tubs today and it all has been to stop the pain from the cancer that has been starting, I haven't told the crew yet as I don't want treatment and that is what there going to give me.

But I can't stand it to be in a hospital room confined to a bed, I already hate hospitals as when I was younger I was in and out of one for my heart disease, even after my parents passed I was still in and out of the hospital until I decided to not go after I was with the crew as I didn't want then to think that I was and am weak.

I choose to have to tub and have them all at once. After I have it I look at the time to see that it is 9 at night and Zeb would be in soon so I quickly clean up the mess and go on my bed and fall asleep.

(The next day)

I woke up felling worse then I did yesterday and it wasn't just the pain from the cancer it was also from my heart, to tell you the truth I don't know how much longer I can actually last with all this pain ether way it will kill me and it will be painful.

But what if I kill myself if would be quick and it won't be as painful as it is now, or I can get treatment, but one I hate hospitals and two I can't make the crew do it for me, they don't care for me anyway, all I am to them is how small and sneaky and can get what they want if I kill myself they wouldn't care they all hate me. I start to walk around the base to decide to kill myself I go to an area with no one around and stand there.

I pull out my light sabre and turn it to my heart as I was about to turn it on something took it from my hands and I fell to the ground crying, I sense Kanan come up and sit next to me and I tell him everything, then I continued to cry myself to sleep.

Over the next week I explained everything to the crew and they have been a big help and they even offered to do the treatment for my cancer and heart disease.

It's been a couple of months and I have had all the treatments done for heart disease and cancer and I am felling so much better and I haven't tried to hurt myself ether and life has been great.

A/N
Sorry it toke so long to get done and sorry if the ending is a bit rashed wanted to get it up. Hope you like it please comment vote and share.

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