Takes place a couple months after Battle for Batuu, so still early 37ABY

"Poe, I want kids."

Finn had been trying to tell Poe this for months, but they hadn't been on the same planet together for what seemed like forever and this didn't seem like the thing to discuss over hologram. So the first second they had some downtime after a strategy meeting on Parnassos Finn sat Poe down in a nearby empty room. Poe looked shocked when those four words came out of his mouth.

"Poe, I love you so much, but for a while now I have yearned for more. I would like us to share our love with a life we get to shape. We-"

"No."

"What?"

"I said no Finn, I don't want to have a baby."

In shock, Finn responded with the first thing on his mind. He gently took Poe's hands into his. His partner was looking straight into his eyes.

"It doesn't have to be a baby, we could adopt a toddler or young child. Poe I think-"

Poe pulled his hands away.

"No. I said no. I don't want to have a baby, a toddler, a child, or a teen, biological or adopted. I can not raise a child."

"Well, you don't know you can do it until you try? I would be there by your side, we would do it together, we will learn as we go along. Let's just talk."

"Finn, you aren't understanding! I don't want to have a kid with you!"

Poe shouted, Finn stepped back in shock, than reached out to his lover.

"Poe-"

"Finn, you aren't getting it through your thick head, I don't want a baby, end of discussion! If you want to raise a kid so bad go baby BB-8! I thought he was our baby! I thought I was enough! I am not raising a child, not now, not ever! I need a drink."

Poe than stormed out, leaving Finn hurt and in shock. He collapsed to his knees and started crying into his hands. He and Poe had been in arguments before, that came with being a couple for three years, but not like this. Poe had never used that tone at Finn before except during battles when an order had to be made, and it felt like someone stabbed his chest.

He remained crying alone until Connix came wondering in. She looked lost, than concerned as she walked over to him and kneeled to his level.

"Captain Shot? What happened?"

Finn rubbed his eyes, and through gasps he tried to tell her what happened.

"I told Poe I wanted kids, and he lashed out at me. He screamed and insulted me and said he never wanted to have a baby with me."

"The General said that? Oh my are you ok?"

"No, no I am not. We have had discussions on what we want our lives to be after the war before, but this time it ended in a whole screaming match. What did I do wrong Connix?"

"Finn, listen to me right now, whatever just happened it is not your fault. If Poe truly doesn't want kids than that is a discussion you will have to have as a couple, but what Poe just did was not normal and sounded like it might have come from a place of pain. So right now you got to decide if you are giving him space, or going to talk to him."

"I want to talk it out, but he seemed-"

"Than go talk to him. The one thing I got from this war is the wisdom that you can't wait to do what you want, if you do it could be gone. Go talk to the General while you are both still here."

She held out a hand and Finn took it. She helped him up.

"Thanks Connix."

"Anytime Captain."

With that he went to find Poe. It wasn't hard, Finn's force specialty seemed to be tracking, he just knew where things and people were. Poe was in there shared quarters. He got there and the door was locked. He had the codes to unlock it, but he didn't want to make Poe feel like he was intruding so he would leave the decision up to him.

"Poe," he said softly into the com, "can I come in?"

No response.

"Poe, please."

The door slid open and there was Poe, leaning against the wall next to the door. The rooms lights were on low but Finn could see how puffy red his eyes here, and how miserable he looked, but most obviously he could seem the liquor.

"Are you drunk?"

Poe just turned and sat at the small table and chairs. "No, haven't even taken a drink yet."

Finn went and sat at the other chair, the bottle of Lum between them and two glasses, one full the other empty. They just sat in silence for a couple minutes, Poe took a sip of his drink but didn't continue. Finn was surprised he had a bottle out at all, Poe just wasn't a drinker, Finn suspected it stemmed from his childhood as his father's drinking lead to his death. Poe sought alternative sources if he wanted a buzz, adrenaline from flying, sugar high from sweets, and oxytocin from the nights he and Finn shared. The bottle he currently had open was Finn's.

"Sorry for yelling at you," he finally said. "You did not deserve that at all. I have no excuse."

Finn took one of Poe's hands.

"What is this really about Poe, what's going on."

"I don't want to bring a child into this world when we are still fighting a war. I still remember what it was like as a young child and my parents were fighting the Empire. They were almost never around, and so for months at a time I constantly feared that one or both of them wasn't going to come home."

"But they did come home Poe-"

"But we may not Finn. Near the end of the last war the Rebellion's navy had grown exponentially, but it still took all of them to win. The First Order has even more planets and infinitely more ships than the Empire and definitely more than us. I think he still have a chance, but I don't know if we'll live to see the end."

"Well if you don't want to have a kid now, we could wait until we win."

Poe went silent again, putting his hand through his brown and grey hair. He took another sip, than finally with a couple tears in his eyes he spoke.

"Maybe you should try finding someone else besides me-"

"What! Poe what are you even talking about now, I want kids but I want you more. Why would I leave you?"

"Because I am old Finn!"

This was something Finn didn't consider, he knew his partner was nine years older, but he never saw that as a problem, he loved Poe dearly and his age had never been a problem before.

Poe took a big sigh.

"Finn, listen, I am almost forty, you aren't even thirty yet. If we had a kid now it might be ok, but if we have to wait one, two, five, ten years, how old will I be when they are growing up? I was scarred by both my parents and parental figures all dying when I was young, I don't want to risk subjecting my kids to that, I want to see them grow up, I want to watch them find there passions, find someone they love, get to meet my grandkids, but I might not get to do all that if I am to old. If you really want kids you should find someone closer in age to you, who will guarantied be there for you and your kids."

Poe was really crying now, but Finn just took his hands and squeezed them tight, Poe looked up and saw that Finn was looking at him sweetly, although concern was still on his face.

"Poe, no ones life is guarantied. Anything could happen, but that doesn't mean we shouldn't try and do what makes us happy. And besides, I want it to be OUR children, not mine and someone else's."

Finn stood up and pulled his fiancée out of his chair and pulled him into a hug, squeezing him tightly. They just stayed like that, holding each other, for what seemed like forever. Finally they separated and sat on there bed. Now much calmer, Finn decided to ask one more time.

"So Poe, when the war is over, and if we are both in good health, do you want to have a baby with me?"

His eyes still puffy, Poe smiled. "Yes, lets have a baby."

Finn have over the stars happy, he pulled Poe into a kiss.