Ezra P.O.V
"I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay".
That's what I keep repeating to myself. I repeat it all the time. That's all I can say to myself to keep me sain. The reason I repeating those words because if I stop, I feel like everything will go bad or worse.

Right now, I just awoke from a nightmare. I was taken by the Empire and was tortured for information.  When I didn't speak, they got the crew and killed each of them, one by one. I begged for them to stop, but they didn't. That's when I woke and to now.

"I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay" I keep telling myself. I whispered it so I didn't wake up Zeb and annoy him. I looked at the clock and seen it was 3:30. I know I'm not going back to sleep, so I got up quietly and made my way to the cockpit.

When I entered, I seen that we were in hyperspace. I made my way to the co-pilot seat and sat down and just watched the stars zoom by in hyperspace. I sat there and repeated those words.

"I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay". I don't know how long I was sitting there, but I herd the door open behind me.

"Ezra? What are you doing up so late. It's nearly four in the morning?" I herd someone ask me. I knew who it was. It was Hera. "I just wanted to see the stars that's all" I lied. I herd Hera make her way over and sit in her seat next to me.

"Are you sure" Hera asked me, sounding unconvinced. "It didn't sound like that. I herd you mumbling from the other side of the door" Hera told me. "What were you saying?" Hera asked me.

I stayed quiet for a moment. "I'm okay" I mumbled to myself. "What was that" Hera asked, not hearing what I said. "I'm okay" I told her. "That's what you were mumbling" Hera asked me.

I nodded.

"Why were you saying that?" She asked. "I don't know. Well I do know but I don't know how to explain it" I told her. I do know why I always say that to myself, but to put it into words is difficult.

"Well if you know how to tell me, will you" Hera asked me with a smile. I only nodded. "Now you should be going back to bed. You look exhausted and I don't think Kanan will want his Padawan falling asleep in class" Hera told me, joking a bit at the end making me smile a bit.

I only nodded again and got up and to my room. For that night, I didn't sleep, I couldn't, wouldn't go to sleep. I was to terrified to. To scared to have that nightmare again. Instead, I stayed up thinking on how to tell Hera why I repeat those words.

It's nothing new to me. I've always been saying those words to myself, ever since I lived on the streets. It was the only thing that,t reassured me.

An example of that would be when I got bitten by a Lothcat. It hurt alot but I keep repeating those words as I tried to fix it up.

After a few hours, I was able to write something on paper and I read over it. I was quite happy with myself because it was exactly how I felt about repeating those words.

I looked at the clock. 8:30. Hera is usually up at this time. I hopped out of bed quietly and walked to the cockpit. When I entered, Hera was still in her seat and I seen that the ship was out of hyperspace.

Hera must have herd me because she turned around to see me. "Hey Ezra. Why are you up this early. You aren't up until 9:30" Hera asked me. I was silent for a moment and just handed the pice of paper to her and kept silent.

Hera read it and looked at me. I kept my head down. What I wasn't expecting was for her to hug me.

Hera P.O.V
I was in my seat as always and was just pressing some things when I herd the door opened. I spun around to see Ezra. He looked a bit nervous for some reason. "Hey Ezra. Why are you up this early. You aren't up until 9:30" I asked him.

He didn't say anything but passed me a pice of paper. I was a bit confused but I read it anyways.

Some times I tell myself I'm okay

I repeat it like a mantra

I'm okay

I'm okay

I'm okay

Because I'm afraid if I stop, even for a moment

I will drown in all the reasons

I am not

When I read it, I was quite upset. I remember that I asked Ezra why he always spoke those words to himself for he always said it. Now I understand. He repeats it because he feels if he doesn't, he won't feel like he is okay.

Now I get why he said it was hard to put it all into words. I'm even have a bit of trouble explaining it myself.

I look at Ezra and he had his head down. I don't know why but I just hugged him. I could tell he was surprised by this, but he didn't mind.

"Ezra why didn't you tell me you felt like this" I asked him.

"...I don't know...I guess because I just wasn't okay".

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Sorry it's crap and sh*ty