AU Obi-Wan still alive but not for long

Ezra arms were around Leia who was sleeping on his chest happily that is until Ezra alarm beeped 

"SHUT UP!!!" Leia shouted smashing the alarm into pieces with the force remembering Ezra test if a mental state and it was a nightmare

"Did you pass the nightmare I gave to you." Ezra asked as Leia remembered it

Ezra had grabbed his safety blanket from his room, his cure all, his drug that he had been relying on for the last month and a half. It was the only thing that he had that made the pain and the mistakes disappear for a small amount of time.

Leia began to feel worry even if it a dream that her boyfriend in Danger

The teen reached the fresher, going in, letting the door shut behind him. It was better here. Easier cleaning up and he could hide the evidence better. If the others knew, they would just say he was a coward for not going all the way. They would be mad. Ezra had been a coward, he was too scared of dying, of losing his family.

Today was different. Ezra was going to show them he could complete a mission perfectly with no mistakes. He had waited for the day that he would be alone for a week now. In that time, he had convinced himself that he didn't have a family; the others didn't care about him. Maybe they would if he wasn't such a screw up.

He left no note, they wouldn't care. The others would be glad to be rid of him. Kanan wouldn't have to deal with him anymore. No more disappointments or failed missions. Everyone would be glad he was gone. No one would miss him. His parents were gone. He was alone in this world and always would be.

Ezra removed the top half of his jump suit down to his waist. He looked in the mirror at his body. It was littered in red cuts of varying shapes and sizes as well as different depths and ages. Some were infected from lack of care while others he took vigilant care of when he felt the need to. It had become a routine after every mission, after every mistake and flaw his mind discovered. Each time, the padawan would stare in the mirror at himself as a reminder of how worthless he was.

Ezra knew each series of self-inflicted wounds by their reasoning. The ones on his shoulder were because he forgot to put his blaster on safety; two under his ribcage was from forgetting to adjust the height of his lightsaber. The youth knew there were more inflictions that couldn't be seen, hidden under the remaining clothing, they didn't matter this time.

He unconsciously allowed the razor to travel where it wanted. Where ever he needed it most to release the agonizing pain inside. He could go deeper on his thighs than his arms and even deeper on his stomach. He looked away from the mirror at all his "failed" attempts of making his team mates happy, of making his master proud of him.

Ezra would weigh how bad of a mistake he had made and slice into his skin accordingly. As time progressed, the cuts continued to become deeper each session he had. As time progressed, his mind continued to believe that each error was worse than the last. This ritual had been going on since that first night after Kanan yelled at him.

Leia gasped touching Ezra but he did see it or felt it

He turned the water on not caring that it was scalding hot. It wouldn't matter soon anyway. Just another thing to make Hera glad that he was gone; no more water being wasted on a worthless creation. The boy sat down, still half clothed, in the shower stall. He leaned against the wall looking at his right arm. It was the limb that had taken the worst abuse. His long sleeves covered everything, so no one knew, not even his force sensitive master. Unless Kanan did know, and didn't bother with him. The teen had convinced himself that no one would care even if they did see.

Leia begin to yell "No Ezra Don't do it. ...PLEASE"

He started out slow, drawing out his secret directive. When the others got back it would be complete and everyone could be happy. Ezra made small, shallow marks on his left arm, slowly making his way down before continuing on the right. The burning made the rest of his pain disappear. It eased his mind. All the thoughts and mistakes continued fading into the physical pain. It made him numb to everything.

He watched as his arms turned red as blood trickled delicately from the fresh marks. When the burning water hit, it would cause the crimson fluid to splash slightly, leaving little red splatters on the wall before running down the drain. Art; art that was only appreciated by the artist.

Ezra felt a tear slip from left eye, falling and mixing with the red. He ignored the rest that followed and slowly fell. It was weakness. Kanan hated weakness. His master hated him, he was too weak to be a Jedi. The padawan stared at the razor in his hand. It had been his only friend, comforting him and accepting him despite all his flaws. It would help him finally complete a perfect mission. Kanan would finally be proud.

Leia watches as she couldn't do anything but she realize its her mental test

As the razor slid across his wrist, Ezra made sure to add pressure. It didn't hurt, it was too deep. He felt the pressure and release. Through the force he could almost feel every cell and tissue what was severed. The blood was pooling fast; Ezra watched as it gracefully seeped from the wound and mixed with the water swirling and spinning until it got sucked down the drain disappearing from view forever.

"Yes I did and I swear if you do that thing real life you have to worry about me." Leia said angrily much to her dismay Ezra chuckled

"You more then welcome to do it. You know I will enjoy it and I will let you." Ezra said as Leia rolled her eyes as Ahsoka came in

"If I am bothering you just tell me...I don't want to be force pushed into a wall repeatedly. Btw its was Anakin idea not mine." Ahsoka said as Ezra gave a smirk as she realized she is in big trouble with Anakin

"Ezra please stop beating our father let it go. I accepted your feeling so what the point hurting him." Leia said putting her head on his chest as Ezra sighed as Ahsoka notice Kanan lightsaber and DarkSaber

"Did they board this ship?" Ahsoka asked seeing the weapon as Leia poke her head noticing the weapons

"Yes, I killed Kanan but the crew were killed by the troopers. Vader Clone troopers" Ezra said as Leia looked shocked with Ahsoka

"Relax we removed inhibitor chips and they are loyal to us...This is a secret we have 20,000,000,000 Clones in a secret location that is under my control and only Vader and his troops know. When the time is right we strike" Ezra said as Leia widen her eyes as Vader came in 

"Ezra...Can you scare Sidious please he knows my kids are here." Vader asked as Leia groaned and whined and glare at Vader whispering to Ezra who decided to give a glare to Vader for fun

"Leia I swear it not my fault.. Please I swear you can take a day off with Ezra next month." Vader said as Leia and Ezra gave a smirk as Vader realized and surprisingly laughed 

"Alright give me a minute." Ezra said walking out

Minute Later 

Ezra walked back smirking as Vader poke his head to see his master in holo gram looking fear

"Lord Vader I hope you have a good day and please make sure Ezra is on our side." Sidious said ending the call before Vader could respond as he heard a surprise yelp and turned to see Ezra on the floor Leia on top of him

"They are so much in love." Vader thought as he nodded to Ahsoka to leave now as force lighting was forming in Ezra hand

"RUNNNN!!!!" Vader screamed as he and Ahsoka ran as Leia and Ezra looked confused with a laugh as they stopped in turn

"Why are you running." Ezra asked as he unleashed small lighting onto the alarm clock making it fried knowing he cannot fix it now

"Oh that why he got force lighting." Ahsoka said as she sigh in relief as Ezra looked at Vader

"You see...we thought you were going to hit us." Vader said honestly as Ezra nodded understanding

"Leia over here doesn't call me Master so she asked me to show her lighting." Ezra said as Leia blushed as Vader looked at Leia who smirked

"I.....Don't want to know..." Vader said as Leia smiled nuzzling her boyfriend cheek

"Apparently she got my side of showing affection towards a lover." Vader said with a laugh as Ezra sighed

"Come we need to train...Where is Luke.." Ezra asked as Ahsoka and Vader looked at each other whether to tell or not

"I see that look tell me." Ezra said seriously as Ahsoka sighed explaining everything that let just say Mara and Luke are in one room as they wait the response from Ezra

"As long as he doesn't get her pregnant he fine having her in his room." Ezra said as Vader and Ahsoka sigh in relief "But get his asses ready for training."

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"Sorry Master. I am here for mental training" Luke said running in as he tried not to laugh when he saw his Sister on his master back

"Laugh all you want farm boy. Start your training on your mental state Leia has beaten you in that. Leia is the one going to do this. I got a mission to take out Chopper Base and leave soon if Leia could kindly get off me" Ezra said as Luke looked shocked as Ezra walked away when Leia let go

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Ezra walked with 501st  as they checked Chopper base as Ezra smirked seeing the shocked faces on some rebel trooper's as he noticed a Jedi Padawan as he heard some of his troops scream 

"I am afraid I cannot allow you to do that Ezra Bridger." Obi-Wan said as Ezra laughed at Obi-Wan knowing he did not know that he is the son of Revan and Bastila Shan

"I have waited many years to find you again Obi-Wan Kenobi." Ezra said his lightsaber ignited as both rushed at each other

The duel was fast for Obi-Wan he could not keep up as Ezra literally grabbed Obi-Wan lightsaber and pointed at him 

"You are beaten don't make me go mad and kill you." Ezra said as Obi-Wan looked surprised and sighed 

"Stun him." Ezra ordered as the trooper did