**Sorry for mistakes, I'm laying down and writing it on my phone without glasses on.. Yeah**

Vulcans have emotion. It was something not a lot of people knew. They felt pain, anger, sadness, heartbreak... Yet they wouldn't admit it.

Your boyfriend's mother had just died. Her name was Amanda, she was human. Your boyfriend, Spock, was half Vulcan and half human.

Spock sat on the king sized bed in your shared quarters. The mattress sunk a little due to his weight. The blankets crinkled from him balling up the fabric in his hands before releasing it.

Emotion swelled through Spock like a geyser. Only the geyser was being compressed back into the Earth's core, unable to spew hot water everywhere. He wished to express every emotion he was feeling, the anger and heartbreak were the main two.

Spock wanted to lash out, he wanted to punch. He wanted to kick. He wanted to scream until he lost his voice. He wanted to cry until he was gasping for air like a fish out of water, yet he couldn't. It would be illogical.

You ran to the quarters as soon as you heard what happened to his mother and the incident on the bridge with Kirk. "Spock." You said, standing just in the doorframe as the door closed behind you.

"Y/N." He answered, his face stone cold and emotionless. Spock barely flinched as you sat beside him on the bed and wrapped your arms around him.

"I'm soo sorry for what happened... Just know.. You don't need to be tough around me. It's just us. You can cry if you have to." You tell him, never letting go. As if you broke down a wall, Spock sobbed. He cried. He humanly cried.

"I didn't get to say a proper goodbye..." He choked out, his voice cracking and hoarse. You just kept hugging him, kissing his temple and rubbing his back. Any soothing gesture.

"I know Spock, I know." You say, continuing to attempt to soothe him. Eventually it worked and Spock fell asleep, cocooned in a mass of blankets with you. The entire time, you two stayed close and kept each other company while Spock was actually having emotion he never wished to feel again. The emotion of sadness and heartbreak...