Copyright © 2011 Kirsty Moseley

Chapter 19

Aaliyah's POV

By the time we were done I was exhausted. That honestly was the best thing that ever happened to me, feeling that close to him, almost like he was part of me. He seemed to have the ability to make me feel clean and whole, he made me forget everything bad that had ever happened to me. That was better than I ever dreamed it would be, than I ever thought it could be. I had never felt anything like that, not just the physical pleasure but how tender and caring he was, every touch and kiss filled with passion and love. It made my heart ache. It was more than $ex, it was everything to me.

He was breathing heavy, I lifted my head from his chest to look at his handsome face. He was asleep and snoring lightly. Ethan had always snored a little, I giggled at the sound of it, I used to tease him about it something chronic, but actually I loved the sound of it. It was calming somehow, reassuring and comforting. He had a hicky on the top of his chest where I had kissed all over his chest and stomach making up for lost time.

I pulled myself up the bed a little and brushed his hair off of his forehead lightly. He was so incredible, I can't believe he would do something like this for me, raise a child that's not his. Not only that, but he wanted to pretend it was his. That was complete and utter devotion and I honestly didn't know how to feel about it. I didn't deserve this boy and his love, he was too good for me but for some reason unbeknown to me he wanted me. He wanted me and the baby.

I felt a little guilty, if we did this then the baby would never know its real father, not that it would really be losing out on anything. Johnny wasn't really fit to be a father at all, so raising a baby with him would be a disaster, not to mention the fact that I didn't love him like that. Raising a child in a loveless broken home just wasn't fair on the child.

Johnny had always wanted a baby, he said so himself earlier tonight. If I went to him now and told him I was pregnant he would be ecstatic and I was taking that away from him. I was depriving him of something that was rightfully his, and I don't think I would ever forgive myself for that.

There was no doubt in my mind that Ethan would be an amazing father, I just wasn't totally convinced that this was a good idea. I wanted to do it more than anything for me and the baby, being with Ethan would be the best thing that would ever happen to us. But how could this be right for Ethan? Surely being twenty two and stuck with another man's child would be a nightmare after a little while, then he might regret it and feel trapped. I couldn't bear the thought of him being unhappy.

My stomach growled angrily and I laughed, in my haste to get out of Johnny's house I hadn't eaten dinner and I was now starving hungry. I pushed myself up out of the bed and grabbed Ethan's shirt slipping it over my head and padding quietly to the kitchen. There had to be something to eat in this place, a bowl of cereal or something.

I looked in the fridge and in every cupboard and all I could come up with was an almost stale loaf of bread and some butter. Toast it is then! Seriously we needed to get some food in, this was terrible, how the hell could he live like this? I put some bread under the grill looking in the last cupboard hopefully, but nothing.

I sighed and leant against the counter. I could go now while he was asleep, nip to the nearest convenience store and buy something for dinner. He wouldn't even know. I was contemplating my chances of sneaking into the bedroom and grabbing my clothes before he woke up, the chances seemed pretty slim to me. If he woke up and I wasn't there he would probably worry himself to death.

I turned the toast over just as two arms wrapped around me from behind making me jump and squeal a little. He laughed and kissed the side of my head, his hands resting on my stomach stroking his thumb on it lightly. I smiled at how adorable he was, I was so lucky to have this boy love me so much.

"Sorry, did I wake you up?" I asked tilting my head as he kissed down my neck.

"No it's fine. If you're hungry I can order a pizza or something." he mumbled against my neck. His lips didn't leave my skin once making my whole body thrum with excitement as his breath blew across my neck and shoulders.

I closed my eyes and moved one hand behind my back brushing it against him lightly. He was already ar0used and I felt my heart skip a beat. I turned round to face him, looking into his eyes as I ran my hands up his sculpted chest slipping them around his neck pulling him down to kiss me again. He moaned in the back of his throat and took hold of my hips lifting me onto the counter pressing his body against mine. He kissed me so passionately that it almost made me dizzy.

I slipped my hand into his boxers wrapping my hand around his shaft making him grunt quietly, I wrapped my legs around his waist just as the smoke started to come from the grill. Without even breaking the kiss he turned off the grill and moved the pan out putting it on the side, it was still smoking with the charred remains of the toast. I giggled against his lips and squeezed my legs around his waist tighter eager for his body again.

"I love you Ethan." I said breathlessly as he pulled back to look at me. He had an adorable smile on his face and nothing had ever looked more beautiful to me.

"I love you more." he whispered kissing me again.

That wasn't true though, he couldn't love me more than I loved him, no one had ever loved anyone as much as I love Ethan, it just wasn't possible.

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When I woke up in the morning I was literally laying on top of him, my whole body on top of his, he had his arms wrapped around me tightly. I shifted quickly and moved off of him, damn I probably hurt him or something doing that!

He stirred in his sleep and pressed himself closer to me his arms tightening around my waist. His body heat was crashing into me making me almost vibrate with need. I just couldn't get enough of him. The desire for his body was almost killing me, I had never felt anything like it. Johnny had never turned me on like this, not even close and Ethan wasn't even trying. Damn I was in real trouble with this boy, if he decided to hurt me again I would have a real problem letting go this time.

I glanced over to the clock to see it was just after six, I don't know what time he woke up usually but he started his day at seven thirty so I would guess soon.

I closed my eyes and tried not to think about what I had to do today. I needed to break up with Johnny, and not only that, I needed to tell him how I knew Ethan and that I was moving in with him. He had convinced me last night that it needed to happen that way, with me being three or four weeks pregnant I needed to get things moving with Ethan pretty quick. People needed to know we were together so that when we announced I was pregnant there would be no doubt that it was Ethan's. Wow this was going to be so hard.

I laid there looking at his handsome face trailing my fingers over his body just marveling over him, did he really want me? How the hell did I get so lucky? I was never lucky, if there was something bad to happen to someone it was always me, but maybe my luck had changed now. With Ethan's arms wrapped around me tightly I couldn't help but hope that was true.

At six thirty his alarm went off, he pulled away from me quickly silencing it before turning back to me looking a little shocked. Crap did he forget I was here?

"Hey you. What are you doing awake and why are you smiling?" he asked giving me his $exy smile as he pressed his naked body to mine.

I grinned and ran my hand down his back gripping his ass, "Well I've been perving on you for the last half an hour and I'm smiling for the exact same reason." I teased.

He laughed and rolled on top of me narrowing his eyes at me. "Ok who the hell are you and what have you done with my Lia?"

I grinned, "What does that mean tough guy? I'm confused." I said pouting slightly trying to look $exy.

"Well my Lia hates the mornings, hates to be woken up and definitely doesn't wake up before the alarm." he said bending his head and kissing my cheek lightly trailing little kisses across my jaw to the corner of my mouth leaving me almost panting for more.

"Well maybe I'm the new improved version." I mumbled against his lips.

"You can't be, you can't improve on perfection." he whispered. Damn that's sweet! He kissed me tangling his fingers in my hair, I could feel him getting ar0used against my thigh and I almost whimpered with need.

"Wow Ethan you're pretty excitable this time of the morning." I bit my lip with anticipation.

He grinned, "Sorry but it's your fault for being so damn $exy." he said apologetically as he kissed down my neck.

"I wasn't complaining tough guy." I said breathlessly making him chuckle against my skin.

His cell phone rang he groaned and pulled away from me frowning looking really disappointed. I gripped my hands round the back of his head and pulled him down to kiss me again, "Don't worry, there's plenty of time for that." I whispered. 

He grabbed his phone from the side and put one hand on my stomach stroking it lightly with his thumb. I put my hand on top of his and interlaced our fingers, I couldn't keep the happy smile from my face.

"Hey Trent, did you sort my replacement?" he asked as soon as he answered. "Yeah I know but I told you last night I couldn't work this case anymore." his frown got a little deeper. "Trent seriously, he's not gonna still want me there after this morning, I told you that."

Trent was Ethan's boss at the agency he worked for and he had spent a long time on the phone with him last night after we had eaten. He told him about us and our past and how I was leaving Johnny, he obviously didn't tell him I was pregnant though. I wasn't even allowed to tell Becca, Ethan was adamant that the only people who should know were me and him and I actually agreed with him completely.

It would be awful if this came out ten years down the line that Ethan wasn't the baby's father, how on earth would that make the child feel knowing that we'd lied to him or her for all those years. Ethan said we didn't need to keep talking about it, as far as he was concerned he was the father and that would never change.

"Trent I told you, we're doing it today. No we can't leave it for a couple of days, you need to sort someone to come in and replace me." he said sternly.

His voice was so incredibly $exy when he was being all masterful, it was turning me on even more. I really needed a cold shower. I pushed myself up out of the bed and walked round the other side heading towards the bathroom.

As I got round his side he grabbed my wrist and made me stop, "Trent just hold on one minute." Ethan said. He put the phone on the side and pulled me down to him kissing me so passionately that it made my heart race. "Love you." he whispered as he pulled away, pushing me back to my feet again.

"Love you too." I said breathlessly, my hormones were going crazy and I could barely stop myself from jumping on him and ravaging him again. Damn I was not used to feeling like this at all. I was like some horny she devil or something. I forced myself to go in the shower while he spoke on the phone some more.

I was happily singing under the spray loving the sound of the echo in the shower as probably happens with all girls. Why does singing in the shower always sound better than singing anywhere else? I was deep in thought about that as I rinsed the shampoo from my hair. Suddenly two arms wrapped around my making me scream and almost have a heart attack.

"It's just me, jeez Lia who were you expecting?" Ethan asked laughing his ass off.

I turned and slapped his shoulder lightly, "Ethan Scott that scared the crap out of me." I said trying to sound stern even though all of my anger and shock disappeared immediately as soon as I saw him.

"Sorry, I would have spoken to you and asked if I could share your shower but you wouldn't have heard me over the sound of the cats being strangled in here somewhere." he said playfully as he looked around the bathroom pretending to look for the cats.

I rolled my eyes, Ethan always thought I was a terrible singer. "Shut up dufuss." I said sticking my tongue out at him.

He laughed, "You haven't called me that for years, I missed that." he shook his head amused.

"You missed being called a dufuss?" I asked teasingly as I wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him under the spray of the shower too.

"From your $exy voice, hell yeah." he said grabbing a wash cloth and squeezing on some of his shower gel. "You're going to smell like me today." he said grinning wickedly as he washed my body.

"Ok well it just so happens I like how you smell, maybe when we go shopping I'll buy some of my shower gel and you can smell like a girl tomorrow." I teased.

He shrugged, "Whatever makes you happy princess." he said clearly enjoying washing my body as he was lingering on my breasts and ass with a small satisfied smile on his face.

"So what did Trent say?" I asked changing the subject.

His body stiffened slightly, "We can't do it this morning, they can't replace me until tomorrow so we'll have to wait until Max get's there tonight then do it. Is that ok with you?" he asked looking uncomfortable.

"Well if I have a guard that's supposed to be following me around today why can't that guy just replace you?" I asked confused.

He shook his head, "It doesn't work like that, he's not the right grade."

"What do you mean the right grade?" I asked confused.

"Well, we get graded according to our abilities and then assigned to the target as needed. Johnny's a grade one celeb so he got me, Max is grade one too but it works slightly different with night guards as their grades are more surveillance based instead of protection based." he said pulling me closer to him letting the water rinse my soapy body.

"So what grade is the guy following me? He can't take over from you because he's not high enough?"

He shook his head, "Andrew is a grade three, you were lucky to get him I had to pull some strings, usually a girlfriend would be grade eight or nine. Trent said they can't get another grade one here until tomorrow." he said looking at me apologetically.

I nodded a little disappointed, we were planning on spending the day together today. We were going to tell Johnny then go shopping and hang out after, I guess that would have to wait until tomorrow now.

"Ok well I don't want to spend time with Johnny today so I'm going to go to college, then get some food for your place, and then I'll come over there at seven thirty when your shift finishes and we'll do it then yeah?"

"Ok well first off it's our place not mine, and yeah ok just stay with your guard though and don't go in any shady areas or anything, stay where there are a lot of people, so go to a big supermarket or something." he said looking like he really didn't want me to do that at all.

"Will you stop stressing tough guy? Everything's fine now." I said sighing contentedly tracing my fingers down his body making him shiver slightly.

He groaned as my hand brushed over his shaft. "Lia I need to go, I'm so sorry." he said breathlessly as he pressed into me putting his forehead to mine looking me right in the eyes.

"Ok tough guy, I'll let you make it up to me later." I said winking at him teasingly before turning my back on him and letting the water blast over my shoulders and neck.

He slapped my ass lightly as he got out of the shower wrapping a towel around himself water dripping down his body making my mouth water. Damn I was so freaking hot for him right now! I turned the shower off and got out towel drying my hair lightly before wrapping it in a towel, I headed to the bedroom.

He was just finishing getting dressed and looked smokin hot in jeans and a black t-shirt with a grey hoodie over the top. His hair was messier than usual and looked sexy as hell. I decided to make leaving a little harder for him, give him something to think about today. As he turned back from the closet I dropped my towel on the floor standing there naked, taking the one from my hair towel drying it gently.

He groaned, "$hit." he said breathlessly. The next thing I knew I was on the bed with him on top of me, I barely even saw him move. I giggled as he kissed my neck his hand roaming down my body.

"I thought you had to go." I gasped as he kissed down my neck.

"Mmm I do, but I can be late." he mumbled.

I giggled excitedly and wrapped my legs around his waist my hands going straight for the buttons of his jeans.        

Someone knocked on the front door and he put his head on my shoulder and groaned. "Damn it! Can't a guy catch a break?" he whined making me laugh.

He sighed and pulled away from me, "That wasn't fair Lia you know I have to go." he said narrowing his eyes at me teasingly.

My whole body was thrumming with excitement, I was so disappointed, I was going to be thinking about him all damn day now. "I'm sorry tough guy, won't happen again." I said smiling sweetly.

He shook his head grinning wickedly, "No it won't because as of tonight we," he started but someone knocked on the front door again, louder this time. He sighed and pulled away from me, "That's Andrew, I'd better go and let him in." he said pulling up his jeans that I had managed to get down past his hips but no further before we had to stop, stupid damn stalker's ruining my $ex life!

He winked at me as he walked out of the bedroom door. I sighed happily and went to the closet pulling on underwear and looking at what I had to wear today. I pulled out jeans and a pale pink fitted t-shirt pulling them on and running a comb through my wet hair twisting it up into a bun. I would be dancing a lot today so I didn't need to dry it or anything, it would look a mess by the time I finished anyway.

$hit dancing! Was I allowed to still do it now that I was pregnant? Would I have to drop out of my college course? Damn it! I'd have to go and speak to someone about it and see when I had to stop dancing. Maybe Daniel my instructor would know, but I couldn't tell anyone yet, I wasn't supposed to be pregnant for another month! Does that mean I couldn't dance for a month in the mean time? I had my dance exam next week.

Wow the timing of this baby sucked big time. I rubbed my hand over my flat tummy and couldn't help but smile. I'd never thought about having kids but now that I was pregnant and Ethan was going to raise the baby with me I was actually really happy about it. My dancing career was probably over now, but it didn't matter anymore. The only things that mattered were Ethan and the little baby in my tummy.

I'd have to get to college early and try and look on the internet or something, maybe there was a website I could look on for some advice.

I walked out into the kitchen to see the guy that had been following me around yesterday, I hadn't officially met him just saw him from a far. He was about twenty five I guess, he was quite good looking but pretty cocky with it by the look of it. He had sandy blonde hair and brown eyes.

He was leaning against the counter drinking coffee. "And here's the source of all the trouble." he said smirking at me.

Ethan punched him in the arm lightly, "Hey, less of the trouble. That's my girl you're talking about." he said slipping his arm around my shoulder grinning proudly as he handed me a cup of coffee.

"Exactly, that's the trouble. She's the target's girl not yours Ethan." he said laughing.

"Yeah well she was mine first." he answered grinning.

I elbowed him in the ribs gently, "I'm not a possession." I said rolling my eyes making him laugh. "You must be Andrew right? I'm Ali." I said holding out a hand to him.

"Nice to meet you Ali, I'll be your personal shadow for the day." he said winking at me.

"I gotta go," Ethan said his whole posture showing me he didn't want to leave. He pulled me close to him, "Stay with Andrew, do as you're told and call me whenever you're free." he said looking at me sternly.

I nodded and did a little salute, "Yes Sir." making him laugh.

He cupped my face in his hands and kissed me gently, so softly that it made my heart race. "Love you." he whispered.

"You too. Go, I'll see you at seven thirty." I said pushing him away from me. If he didn't go right now I might not be able to let him leave.

He groaned, "Right ok." he bent close to my ear, "Don't carry anything heavy at the supermarket, get Andrew to help you." he whispered sounding like a worried mother hen. Well actually he sounded more like a concerned soon to be father which made my heart ache. I nodded and he kissed my forehead before turning back to Andrew. "If you let anything happen to my girl I'll kill you." he said actually sounding scary.

The guy held up his hands, "Chill dude, go take over from Max or he'll kick your ass." he said grinning.

Ethan snorted and shook his head lightly, he didn't need to say what he was thinking. He was thinking that this Max guy would have no chance at kicking his ass, I could tell by the amused little smile on his lips.

He kissed my forehead again, "See you later on." he said before turning and walking out.

As soon as the front door closed Andrew turned to me cocking his head to the side looking at me curiously. "So what's really the deal with you two? All I got told was to come here instead of Johnny's this morning and that there's been a change of plan. Trent said you two knew each other as kids or something?" he asked. He obviously didn't feel like he could ask Ethan.

"How about we go get something to eat and I'll tell you? I'm starving and I have to be in college in an hour." I said turning my nose up slightly. I would much rather just curl up in bed or something.

"Deal." he grinned and rubbing his stomach absentmindedly. We took his car, there was no point in taking two cars to college and stuff and he said he needed to stay within reach at all times apparently, Ethan's orders. Silly overprotective boy.

We drove to a little café and while we ate I told him about mine and Ethan's parents being friends, how I had known him all of my life and how we had gone out before but then he had to move away and we lost touch. I skimmed over the details of how his parents died and how he ignored me for six years, those weren't the kind of things one tells a stranger over breakfast.

After we'd eaten I went to college, I didn't get a chance to see Becca as I went straight to the college library to use the internet to see if I could read up on dancing whilst pregnant, but surprise surprise there wasn't much there.

In my dance classes I faked a leg injury which worked out pretty well and was allowed to sit out of a lot of the day which made me bored out of my brain. I was itching to get up and join in but I couldn't take the risk, I needed to get a doctors appointment as soon as possible.

Andrew hovered around me attracting stares and whispers from the students, but Ethan's agency had informed the college yesterday of their involvement so the teachers didn't bat an eyelid. I discretely text Ethan back and forth throughout the day.

After college I went to the grocery store. Andrew was actually a pretty nice guy and was really easy to talk to. He was married and had a one year old baby boy that I kept making him talk about, trying to learn things without actually giving anything away.

I learnt about morning sickness and cravings, a little about the birth but I made him stop before he went into too many details as he was actually scaring the crap out of me. I learnt about feeding and changing nappies, I leant never to jiggle a baby around after it had just eaten as there were 'dire puke consequences' as he called them. Never leave a baby's nappy off as boys like to pee when nappy-less, and I learnt about sleepless nights and teething. Damn this baby thing sounded like hard work, I hope I was ready for this!

He helped me put all of the groceries away and even helped me make a pie for dinner. I left a huge plate of it on the side, Ethan would probably be starving when we got home after Johnny's as he wouldn't have me at Johnny's to cook for him. He usually ate dinner with me as Johnny was usually eating something more powdery and a lot more expensive.

I sat there watching the clock on edge the whole time. At quarter past seven I looked at Andrew and he smiled reassuringly. He knew we were telling Johnny tonight, he'd let me talk his ear off all evening about it. Apparently Andrew had worked with Ethan before and the two got on well, there was a healthy respect between them from what I could tell.

"Right then Ali, we'd better head out." he said looking at me sympathetically. Oh crap I can't do this can I? I nodded and pulled on a pair of sneakers following him to the front door. I grabbed my purse making sure Johnny's engagement ring was still in the little pocket where I had stored it this morning.         

I felt sick, with every minute that passed my nerves got worse and worse. What if he went crazy and hurt Ethan? What if he started to cry and beg me to stay? I closed my eyes and rested my head against the headrest of the seat while Andrew drove us there. Max's car was already in the drive, Andrew got out and went to lean on the side of Max's car watching the house.

"Good luck." he said wincing slightly.

"Yeah, thanks for today and if I don't see you again it was nice to meet you." I said honestly.

"I'll wait until you two are out make sure everything goes ok, and today was my pleasure. You treat Ethan right, he's a good guy." he said smiling. Wow good guy didn't cover Ethan, not even close.

I walked up to the door and took a deep breath before letting myself in. As soon as I was through the door I spotted Ethan, he was smiling at me lovingly from across the hall. "Hi." he mouthed.

I smiled "Hi." I mouthed back.

He walked up to me quickly and kissed me gently. He pulled away and put his forehead to mine, "You ready to do this?" he whispered.

I swallowed the lump in my throat. "Not even nearly ready, but let's get this done." I whispered back. He kissed me again and took my hand leading me towards the lounge where Johnny obviously was.