Before last chapter guys, it's a long 8000 words. I thought it would be nicer not to split it and leave you waiting again. 

I really hope you enjoy it and get the mood exactly how I pictured it.

Feel free to leave your comments while you're reading the chapter! It's always nice to see what people's reaction are.

Smut in the second half of the chapter! Read at your own risk. 

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With a buzz in his head, Jimin woke up. He looked around, all memories prior to his deep slumber seemed to blend into a fuzzy mess. The last thing he could recall was a yellow notebook, the same one on which he inscribed some of his darkest and brightest thoughts. The one encapsulating both extremes, his madness and rationality, in its pages. He didn't forget whatsoever what else he stored in that little object, and he knew, he fucked up. 

He had promised himself not to go near those pills after what happened, because he was in a good place now and needed nothing more than his friends, his fans, and his job. That is a lie. He was aware that his happiness lied somewhere beyond that, and that's probably why he resorted to substance use. At that point, Jimin just didn't know what to do anymore. He had nobody to confide in, and no one to give him the affection he needed.

Taking his head in his hands, withdrawal yet again. He felt his eyes tear up thinking about all of it again, feeling lost and misunderstood. He let himself slip and for a brief moment, just a fraction of second he was seeing a blade in his hand. He quickly shook his head and decided he was going down that path, not again. He got up, despite feeling like he world was all too dim and crumbling, and washed his face.

Thinking going on social media would be a great distraction for the time being, he unlocked his phone and opened the Twitter app. Scrolling through, and reading tweets from fans and others from celebrities, he smiled and realized he loved what he did in life. He didn't want to let everything go because it as worth it. Suddenly, a notification dropped down from the top of the screen, making him absentmindedly look at it, glazing his lazy eyes over the writing.

He dropped his phone. 

He felt his heart buzz in his chest and thrum in his ears. His stomach dropped and breath got caught up in his throat. He got out of bed and walked around, trying to wrap his mind over what he saw, running a hand in his hair, he angled his neck slowly to where the phone was settled on the mattress and almost wondered if what he saw was real, or if some remnants of the drug were still affecting him.

He reached with slightly shaky hands to the lit up screen, and lowered the notification bar, letting out a gasp when the contact name actually showed up, typed clearly black on white. Jungkook texted him? Out of nowhere? Something must be wrong, but why was the text so light? He knit his eyebrows and gathered all of his courage to open the chat, color draining out of his face upon seeing it.

Me: 

Jungkookie  0:47am

My Biggest Fan:

Jimin-ssi?  10:29am

So he went and did something he'd regret when he wasn't himself. How should he answer now, how would he be able to exchange pleasantries with the cause of his torments. Should he just straight up tell him he was on drugs while he texted him, or maybe just ignore it at all.

He decided to do the latter. 

Exiting the chat, he went out of the room to get breakfast and found the other members sitting together, silently, going through their schedules or too sleepy to do anything. He greeted them and carried on to grab himself some cereals. 

" Hobi last night went into the room and found you passed out, it's good that you're getting some sleep " namjoon pointed out and jimin smiled, shoot a grateful look to hoseok. While regaining some of his memories, he could see hoseok trying to talk him into going to sleep because he was too high. The older just nodded and motioned for him to talk later privately, making jimin sigh.

Breakfast was over, and jimin was soon dragged to his shared room with hoseok. the other was not happy with jimin's trip last night and was sure to say it loud and clear. He stayed silent, as if waiting for the him to start explaining himself.

" what, I was high. Happens " Jimin instead simply says.

" Happens? that's all you're gonna say? I thought you were over that, I thought when I saw you almost overdosing last year you wouldn't be stupid enough to take that shit again! " Hoseok snapped, clearly worried and most of all outraged with jimin's casual response.

" well I'm sorry I have issues! I'm sorry nothing I do to cope pleases anybody. Fucking around disgusts tae of me, did you know that? In your eyes I'm this dumb addict, and who knows, next I'll have namjoon on my back for alcoholism! I'm tired of having to please everybody at the expense of my own sanity. I'm not okay, and I don't wanna act as if I am! " jimin bursted, unable to filter what he says, he'd rather explode than implode just like he did many times. Hoseok's anger and disappointment morphed into some kind of empathy, reaching with his arms to take the younger in a hug.

" Jimini, it's true that I would love for you to get back to the sweet boy you were. I understand that you have some problems of your own, but using substances and sex isn't going to solve anything. It's just going to help you forget for a limited amount of time, and I'm sure you've realized that already " hoseok breathed as jimin reciprocated the gesture, curving his arms tighter around the bigger frame.

" I'm so lost hyung, I don't know what to do, I just want to make it stop " he admitted with a shaky voice.

" what you have to do is face those problems. You have to face them head on, or else they won't resolve or go away. If these issues are within yourself, I advise you to go talk to somebody about them, to let them out and maybe get some valuable advice. Otherwise, go to the source of these issues, and confront it. Jimini, I know it's a person, I know you're like this because of someone and it hurts me to see you unravel just because you didn't let anyone in. " hoseok preached, filling jimin's heart with hope and fright at the same time. 

" you don't understand hyung, it's complicated " jimin replied and felt hoseok shake his head.

" I don't have to understand anything more than I do. You fell in love with someone during that break three years ago and they hurt you deeply, but your heart still doesn't want to let them go. I don't think it ever will at this point little one. I suggest you go to them and tell them just how you feel, who knows, maybe you'll find each other again " hoseok said, looking pulling away and looking right into his eyes.

" what if he doesn't love me anymore. You should see him hyung, his life is so much better now. He must have moved on, he should, he deserves so much better than the mess I am " jimin said half-heartedly, letting himself shed tears again. 

" You are a mess, that is true, but you should give yourself a chance. If he truly did move on, it will at least give your mind some peace. You won't have to keep wondering about him or thinking what could've happened if you talked to him, you'll know, and you'll start pushing the turmoil out of your system until you finally move on. Does that sound good? "  hoseok smiled, searching for the sweet passionate boy in jimin's eyes, and getting just the bright smile he wanted.

" It does. Thank you so much hyung, this means the world to me. I really needed someone to talk to without being judged for once. I love you " he said, hugging him again, this time with no negative emotions at bay.

Leaving the room, Hoseok left Jimin inside thinking of how to tackle this matter. He looked back at his phone and decided he had the perfect opportunity to make things right and especially make it up to his members. He was convinced by Hobi's words and thought he actually wanted closure, honest closure this time. He didn't want to meet Jungkook just to tell him they shouldn't see each other again and nonsense like that again, he loved him with all his heart and couldn't bear being apart any longer, he just hoped the other felt the same.

Me: 

How are you?

Jimin didn't have to wait long for his reply, a few seconds after his text, the notification tone rang and he hurriedly unlocked his phone again. 

My Biggest Fan:

Pretty good, you?

Me:

Just great!

Jimin paced around, not satisfied with how awkward and fake things are. He wanted to have a real conversation and he was sure to be honest this time around.

Me: 

I was wondering, could we possibly meet up, somewhere private? I've been missing you, maybe we could talk?

My biggest Fan:

Yes. <Address>. 8pm?

Me:

I'll see you there.

Time never passed so fast. Between jimin attending his business and choosing a perfect look for the rendez-vous, the few hours had ended and it was already 7:43pm. He knew he had to get going if he wanted to arrive on time, with something in his hands. He called the car in the garage and drove to a local bakery, picking out some sweets and heading to his destination. 

The building was grand, but the inside was even more. Jimin tried to stay on the low as he took the elevator to the indicated floor, and the higher they were, the harder his heart beat. He walked to the door on which the number in his text figured, and took a deep breath before ringing the bell. Ramming his mind over the few possible outcomes of this meeting, he didn't realize he was stressing until Jungkook opened the door and he almost dropped the nice box.

" Hi "

" Hi " 

They said to each other, their stomachs in their throats at this point, both looked like the air was knocked out of their lungs at the sight of each other and none failed to express it.

Jimin let his eyes roam over Jungkook's figure, his large shoulders and thin waist, his big doe eyes and thin lips, his chiselled jaw and toned figure. He was wearing a black shirt and black slacks, with a leather belt and his expensive designer watch. He looked stunning and changed, strong and mature, and jimin was swooning yet again.

Jungkook however, felt a small smile graze his lips as he took in the softness of the shorter. Face full and lips plump just as he remembered them, his wide eyes twinkling and his long purple hair almost covering them. He was dangerously attractive, especially in those tight pants and V neck black shirt. Something about him though set Jungkook off, he didn't look well, or at least not like he knew him to.

" can I come in? " Jimin asked, pulling him out of his trance.

" of course " he replied, stepping aside to let the shorter in and close the door. He stayed behind him until they reached the couches ahead.

" nice place " Jimin said, breaking the heavy silence, and putting the box on the low table.

" thank you, one of my father's properties " Jungkook replied, not wanting to elaborate on how it was his before his dad took everything he owned. 

" figured we wouldn't be meeting at your place since you're so important now, huh? " Jimin smiled and finally turned to look at jungkook in the eyes. 

" I'm getting by, but I'm no socialite " he modestly rejected the compliment. He walked closer to Jimin, but stopped shortly, not wanting to overstep any boundaries.

" It's good to see you, in real life, again " jungkook breathed, getting lost in the chestnut eyes ahead of him.

Jimin smiled, but it didn't reach his eyes. It all felt distant, the situation was almost sad, and jimin's face expressed his sorrow. He decided to reduce the space between them and lifted his arms from his sides.

" can I?" he asked.

Getting a nod from the taller, he wrapped them around his thin waist and let himself rest against his toned chest. jimin closed his eyes at the feeling of jungkook holding him tight with an arm around him and a hand on the back of his head, pressing them together as if he never wanted to let go. 

" I missed you so much " Jimin breathed out, content filling his heart when jungkook replied " me too ". They pulled away and jungkook led him to the couch, where they sat facing each other.

" It's been so long, how have these three years been to you " jungkook asked, a gentle voice flowing in the air.

" well, bangtan is bigger now, we have more work and responsibilities, events and tours and comebacks " he replied curtly, not really knowing if jungkook asked him about his personal life or in general " how about you? " 

" oh! excuse my questionable hospitality, would you like anything to drink? I'll answer your question right after " jungkook apologized, getting up and waiting for jimin's answer. The latter chuckled.

" water will be fine " he replied, knitting his eyebrows slightly when jungkook turned his back to go to the open kitchen. He appreciated how jungkook treated him, but all of this, the clean penthouse, the classy demeanour, and the lush kind of life jungkook displayed pissed him off. He couldn't put his finger on it, but it bothered him. Handing him the tall glass, jungkook sat back down and started talking about his last three years.

" well after your surgery, I went to my parents, even thought they explicitly told me they'll take everything I had if I did. I begged my father to take me back in and give me a normal job at his company. I studied a bit of business at the same time and kept going up in positions. Hyung was ever so supportive and when my dad told me to go public, he told me to go for it, so here I am. " he elaborated, smiling softly and speaking as if it wasn't a big deal. Jimin nodded letting out a little uncomfortable laugh. 

He knew what was bothering him now, he was jealous. Jungkook had his life together, he seemed gathered and healthy, like he needs nothing else and especially not the drama around jimin. He hated it. A frown appeared faster than jungkook could add anything else, and the whole atmosphere turned chillier. Jimin fiddled as if uncertain of how to behave anymore, he wanted out of there, but then again he didn't want to leave jungkook's side anymore. He finally decided he'd go home for now and think things through, he had to clear his mind before making a scene and embarrassing himself in front of jungkook who apparently couldn't relate anymore.

" is something wrong jimin? " jungkook asked and jimin darted his eyes around, smiling shakily one last time and turning to the taller.

" I have to go, I forgot I had this... thing " he simply said and jungkook for sure knew better than to believe those words.

" did I say anything? Believe me I never meant to sound offensive or overstep any boundaries, I hope I didn't make you uncomfortable " jungkook formally apologized, making jimin huff in annoyance.

" yeah this was clearly a mistake. I'm going, don't know if I'll be seeing you again jungkook-ssi " He said rolling his eyes at the last part, and it would be safe to say the other was nothing less than confused.

" jimin, please what's going on? you were fine just a few minutes ago, why is this a mistake? I was looking forward to meet you, perhaps did it not live up to your expectation if you had any? I don't understand. " Jungkook spoke as his eyebrows knit and fists clenched in frustration. Jimin scoffed yet again and swore his eyes could get stuck if he rolled them any harder. He wasn't sure he could keep his cool, but it didn't take him long to find out.

" See? This is exactly what's wrong. Acting so posh and civilized, apologizing like I'm one of your business partners, like we didn't share everything once. Looking so fancy and making feel like this meeting is about you displaying how good of a place you're in right now. I don't need any of this bullshit, I came to talk to jungkook, the man I feel in love with once, not this chic persona of his " jimin said before he could stop himself. He ran a hand through his hair and watched the hurt flash in jungkook's beautiful doe eyes.

" jimin you know I'd never do that. I'm not trying to show off- hell why would I show my life off to Park Jimin himself, South Korea's heart throb. The young man who has the fame, the fans, the money- " jungkook replied, taking a step closer to jimin by each of those three words until standing right before him "- the beauty " he said before lifting his arm up, wanting to touch jimin's hair or face, but ending up on his shoulder instead.

Jimin hoped jungkook would touch him like he used to, give him affection and make him feel special, but it was again too distant. The fact that jungkook seemed to hold back only fuelled his frustration more. He pushed the hand away and locked a strong gaze on jungkook's soft one, pushing him a step back.

" you know what, fuck you jungkook." at this point Jimin knew he wasn't making any sense, he just had to let his unorganized thoughts out. " You say that, but it's exactly what you're doing by acting so cautious around me. What is it, afraid I'm gonna try to kill myself because of you again? Maybe you wouldn't care if you didn't have a public image to protect. "

" what- "

" You're talking to me in a way that you're not taking any risks, and if that isn't a way to distance yourself I don't know what is. You don't wanna be close to someone as fucked up as me, isn't that right? After second thought maybe you'd actually want me to kill myself this time around- "

" Jimin shut up! " jungkook shouted seeming outraged by the spoken words. " I can't believe you're saying this, I don't know what I'd do if you left me again. You know how much you meant to me" jimin tried not to be phased with the use of past tense, but it was harder than he thought. 

" You're not fucked up, you're you and I'm totally fine with it, why do you have such assumptions about me? I wish I could take back what gave away that impression. You're the sweetest, prettiest, kindest boy I know, you're perfect in my eyes " jungkook smiled, grabbing jimin's forearms.

The latter detected nothing but honesty in those words, but they didn't settle right within him. He realized something else amidst the turmoil, he actually didn't deserve the way jungkook was treating him. He wanted to go on about jungkook being too formal and distant with him, but in reality he knew that jungkook was trying to show kindness and respect, two things he didn't deserve. He didn't deserve his trust of anything at all, he wasn't good for him and had to make it explicit.

" you know what I've been doing these past years? " jimin started, aware that he was going to regret it later, but he had to say it so that he wouldn't be fooling jungkook into anything. He freed his arms and walked ahead, backing jungkook against the floor-to-ceiling window of the penthouse. Upon seeing jungkook's questioning look, he continued " I've been sleeping around, I've been going around for sex from random people. So much sex jungkook, I've fucked so many boys and girls around Seoul, I'm pretty much a slut now " he blurted, watching jungkook's gaze morph into something he didn't understand, and feeling the words wound him as well.

" I've been drinking, getting hammered, sometimes getting picked up by one of the hyungs from the bar cause I couldn't even walk properly anymore. Being an embarrassing mess for anybody who went drinking with me " he added, slowly soaking up the fact that it was the truth he never wanted to admit, and starting to tear up. Jungkook's eyebrows knit, showing concern, but never tried to interrupt the other.

" The best part is that I've been doing drugs. That's right, I've been taking these hardcore anti-depressors and other stuff to get me high, fucked out of my mind that I could barely remember who I was while being high. I even almost OD-ed last year if not for hoseok, can you believe it? I stopped for a while for him, but then relapsed exactly last night. I was fucked up when I texted you to show you how I met the idol Park Jimin and took a selfie with him. " this time the frown was an angry one, and jimin couldn't blame him for he felt the same way. He let a tear drop and his voice was getting shakier as he finished his speech.

" I am fucked up jungkook. I'm no longer who I used to be and that's a final. These dark thoughts keep roaming in my mind and I might give in jungkook, I might fucking give in again no matter how hard I try to convince myself that my life is worth living, even if not me then for my loved ones at least, but it's too hard. I'm sure you'd want nothing to do with this, not now that you're building an empire of your own " jimin said, a sob leaving his throat. Jungkook grabbed jimin's head in both his hands, and bumped their foreheads together, letting his angry eyes peer at jimin's glassy ones.

" just why- what made you go find... pleasure in people and substances...I don't understand " jungkook asked, trying really hard not to have an outburst. Jimin's look was broken, helpless as he let warm drops roll down his cheeks.

" why? because you wouldn't leave me alone. You were the only thing I thought about Jungkook-ssi. Your face was the only thing I saw when I closed my eyes and youe voice was the only thing I remembered from my dreams. My heart beat faster when I thought of you and tears welled when I realized I lost you. " jimin confessed, slowly reaching to touch jungkook's long black hair.

" I hooked up hoping someone would make me feel like you did, or at least give myself an opportunity to let my imagination run wild. I drank to forget the pain of not having you by my side, and got high to push the obsessiveness away. " regaining his composure, jimin dried his tears and continued. What he would be saying next was creepy and he knew it, but he couldn't help but want jungkook to know just how crazy for him he was.

" When you went public, I couldn't stop you from haunting my every thought, you were growing more and more perfect in my eyes, making it much more difficult to ignore you. I wanted to know of everything related to you, saved pictures of you, wrote lyrics about you, I wanted you more than anything jungkook-ssi " jimin spoke.

A husky- almost sultry voice came out as he said the last parts, thinking about getting off to him multiple times and fantasizing over him in the most inappropriate way. Although, jungkook was too abashed to pay attention to it. He was taken aback because he saw this craze in jimin's eyes, the craze he recognized from when he used to stalk jimin back three years ago.

" but, you said we couldn't be together didn't you " jungkook asked, trying not to be distracted by their proximity and how jimin would look as his lips while licking his own.

" And you don't know how much I regret that " jimin quickly said, feeling himself get hotter and leaning closer to jungkook's lips, but not enough to kiss. He felt jungkook's grab him by the waist to try and keep a certain distance between them, but it only made jimin lay his hands against his chest and leg between jungkook's. 

" You said... you said you couldn't risk being with me not to end up getting hurt. You ended up hurting yourself... you ended up ruining yourself with your own small hands Jimini " jungkook's voice was quiet, intimate. He was looking at Jimin's eyes, quickly getting swayed by Jimin's plump glistening lips, as he rubbed his thumbs on jimin's waist.

" I did, didn't I... I've punished myself through your hands before, I wouldn't mind having you punish me yourself this time. I've been so... bad " Jimin sensually replied, not able to resist the temptation and attaching his lips to jungkook's briefly, just the time of getting a first taste of his full bottom lip and pulling back slightly. How he missed this, he felt a fire burn inside him again.

" I thought of you as well, a lot, sometimes in my shower or on my bed... recalling how you fit perfectly against me, your little body writhing under me... you mouth falling slack when I fucked you just right... " jungkook breathed, all to jimin's satisfaction, then tightened his big hands around jimin and pressed him ever closer. He bend down and captured his lips, grazing them with his teeth, then moved to press soft wet kisses on his neck. jimin bared it for him and closed his eyes, feeling himself get hard. He moved his hands up to his hair and held him in place to ravish his skin. 

Jungkook pulled back and pecked jimin's lips slowly before letting his hands go under jimin's shirt and run over the soft skin at his sides. Jimin gasped at the feeling of cold hands but loved it nonetheless. His expression showed pure bliss as he took his turn in kissing up the taller's neck and leaving a couple of hickies here and there. He bit his lips when jungkook thumbed at his hard nipple, then groaned breathily when he squeezed it between his fingers.

" jimin... baby... I can't wrap my mind around other people having you like this for themselves "  Jungkook spoke softly as he dragged his hand up  to jimin's neck and kept it there for a moment, not applying any force, just letting it rest and shape itself against jimin's delicate skin. " I want you to be mine only from now on, can you do that for me? " he asked, raspy voice hitting jimin's ears like the sweetest melody.

" I want to be yours only " he replied, letting his desires guide him as he made more soft sounds at the feeling of their hard lengths rubbing together. Jungkook watched as jimin slowly unraveled under his touch, looking so obscene for him. He reached with his hand to grope his ass, feeling it and making their crotches press even closer, creating a delicious friction between them.

" have you had sex while high before? " jungkook asked softly, nibbling on jimin's ear, him who was starting to get impatient with the foreplay. He shuddered and nodded against jungkook's cheek, nosing at his skin and taking in the masculine cologne the younger wore. " yes " he insisted using words, every touch coming from the taller burning him in more ways that one.

" did you think of me? " jimin nodded again " How did it feel?" Jungkook asked looking right through his eyes and searching for the absolute truth. Jimin gulped at the idea of telling him about his sexual experiences, but soon gave up that hesitation when jungkook made it a point for him to talk by grinding on him. Jimin moaned a little louder and let out a shaky breath before speaking.

" It felt great, I loved it. The pleasure was all more intense than normal sex. Although, I only saw you in those nights, all those nights, I came with your name on my tongue and barely even remembered what the other men even were like " He replied as asked, reassuring the younger with the last part when he saw a frown start to form. The said young man's frown eased as he moved his hands to jimin's inner thighs while he kissed him inserting his tongue and establishing dominance. 

" what if I say I can make you feel just as good without having you take any of that shit " Jungkook suggested huskily, making jimin's heart skip a beat. He then proceeded to drag his hand to the front of jimin's pants and gently palmed him. Jimin let out a strangled sound and pressed himself against the strong chest in pleasure. He buried his face in jungkook's neck who just continued working on him, agonizingly slow, but jimin didn't mind it. The whole mood tunred him on, from how they were communicating so intimately and sensually, to how jungkook was touching him and how he kissed up to his jawline in a way that it made lewd kissing sounds. 

Everything was happening between them in the little space they stood in, and all the touches were dedicated to one another only. Jungkook could tell that the way jimin showed him affection was for him alone and the other way around. He then decided he wanted to take it to the bed where it would be more comfortable to do other things. He squeezed jimin's thighs and neared his ear, whispering " jump " before jimin did as told and circled his legs around jungkook's waist.

The younger held him up and took his time walking and making out with his lover in his arms, until they reached the dimly lit room. It was night already, and the atmosphere couldn't have been better for the current events. Jungkook moved his arms to support jimin's body with only one, while the other lifted to brush jimin's hair out of his eyes. They stared at each other for a couple of second, jimin biting his lip and jungkook thumbing at it to make him release it from between his teeth.

" I'll do that for you " he breathed with a small smirk. He smoothly settled him on the mattress and gave him a wet kiss, barely pulling back and whispering " you're beautiful " to the other who felt himself get dizzy with the amount of care and affection he was getting from the love of his life.

" tell me more " jimin said, getting on his knees and starting to take off his cotton shirt. Jungkook's roamed his eyes over his bare skin, hissing at how soft it looked. The muscles flexing as he moved to throw it on the floor. " breathtaking. You're perfect jimin " Jungkook honestly said, watching the smaller pull his pants down, revealing toned thighs and jungkook already saw himself doing many things to those. He reached with his ringed fingers to brush through his long black hair and went closer to jimin like he was prey. 

With one knee on the bed, jungkook captured jimin's lips, running his hand over the length of his body and kneading the flesh in a way that made jimin sigh in his mouth. He leaned further in until jimin's back was pressed against the sheets and jungkook was holding on hand above his head, releasing it and cupping jimin's face.

" I want you jungkook " jimin let out, the temperature in the room rising as he reached with his dainty fingers and undid the buttons of jungkook's shirt, sliding it off of his wide shoulders and letting jungkook dismiss it somewhere. He next straightened to unbuckle his fancy belt and help remove his pants.

" and me more jimin-ssi... I completely shattered once I last left that hospital room, you know... I knew I would never be able to get over my love for you " Jungkook confessed, grabbing jimin's thigh to pull his leg to his side and get more contact. He was nibbling on jimin's jaw when he heard his reply.

" I was a fool not to realize the same sooner. I never did either and never will. I love you Jeon Jungkook. " Jimin wasn't afraid to admit it anymore, He was confident and nothing in the whole wide world would change that. He felt Jungkook let out a shaky sigh at the words and turned to speak against his lips.

" I love you too baby... I thought I'd never hear you say that again " He said and ravished Jimin's lips, kissing him passionately and putting all the needed emotion into it. Jungkook swiftly reached to the bedside table, from where he pulled the lube and kept it in his fist until they broke apart.

" I'll make you feel amazing tonight " Jungkook promised, wiping the single tear that fell to the side of jimin's face and reaching to pull his underwear down. He put small kisses on his lower belly as he pulled jimin's legs over his shoulders and opened the lube bottle. He applied a good amount and worked jimin out properly, almost making him cum with just his fingers. 

The latter swore he saw little sparks every time Jungkook curved his fingers just the right way. If not for him telling the other to stop, he surely would've came hard before doing anything. Jungkook smirked and decided he wanted to play a little more as he took jimin's length in his hot mouth without warning, making him let out the lewdest sounds, followed with a mantra of his name. 

Jungkook loved what he was watching. Seeing jimin like that because of him made him feel powerful, and he loved that. He wouldn't stop, not even after jimin begging him to. He promised jimin something and he was sure to make it happen. He sucked faster as he felt jimin's climax nearing, and swallowed every drop of his cum as he drowned in pleasure. He was panting, displeased that he came at that stage, but too tired to say anything. Jungkook leaned down, kissing jimin all over and stopping at his ear where he muttered " We're only getting started babyboy " 

Jimin gasped and watched jungkook take off his own underwear, revealing his hard length and applying a bit of lube on it as well. A couple of strokes later, jungkook began pushing in, and how jimin had missed this indeed. Jungkook filled him up so well and made him feel some things he couldn't explain. 

" I can't stop fantasizing about you even when I'm having sex with you. That's how dangerous you are for me " Jimin said, adjusting around his bigger manhood. Jungkook smirked, going a little bit faster and leaning down to hear what jimin has to say. " share them with me, tell me how you want it and I'll give it to you. I'll give you whatever you want " Jungkook spoke in his sexy low voice.

" I like sensual, it makes me feel so special, but I also want rough. I want you to take me from behind and fuck me hard... I want to explore everything because I can't get enough of you even when you're inside me... Don't stop loving me Jungkook... Just keep loving me " jimin replied between moans, making jungkook nod and attack his nipples, licking and sucking then going back up to tell his answer. Finding the same craze as earlier glazing jimin's beautiful eyes, he felt his own darken.

" you're crazy about me Park Jimin. Good, because I am about you " he breathed, thrusting harder " I'll do anything for you, I'll love you, fuck you up, get you out of your damn mind then love you some more. You're mine to please tonight, and every other night " jungkook promised once more and didn't fail to keep it.

" alright babyboy, ass up face down " jungkook announced, pulling out and making jimin whine at the loss. He quickly obeyed and felt his eyes roll to the back fo his head at the feeling of jungkook again. The taller groped his ass as he pounded into him, slapping him as he moaned senselessly, clutching at the sheets and drooling with intense pleasure. His hard member was already leaking again and he would've loved to touch himself if not for the warning jungkook gave him.

" I told you baby, it's either you come untouched or you don't come at all, your decision " jungkook spoke huskily in his ear, not once slowing his rhythm but only wrecking him more. He loved the feeling, how he had to beg if he wanted jungkook to go easy on him, or how he turned into a complete mess under him, searching for release but not wanting it to end at the same time. He felt jungkook's hand on his head, pushing it further into the mattress, the pressure making him dizzy just the right amount. 

He called out jungkook's name so many times it was the only thing he knew at that moment. He knew Jungkook and him alone, no one dared rival or stand even close to him. Jimin pushed against him and arched his back even more, feeling himself about to climax. Jungkook's hand had bunched his hair and pulled on it slightly, jimin was crying with bliss and jungkook decided he wanted all of that to be his alone.

" You went and gave your ass to other men? You wanted to get pounded that bad? " jungkook hissed in his ear, making jimin let out a messy string of apologies. " You imagined me while you fucked other men, huh? You dared associate me to that petty sex you got from drunk men? " He accused, turning jimin's face with a hand on his jaw, thrusting continuously. " They were bad, so- bad, no one can compare to you " Jimin quickly replied, his mind a chaotic mesh of thoughts about jungkook voice, words, touches, thrusts. He didn't know what to do with them he just wanted and needed more.

" correct, I'm the only one who can give you what you want. Only come to me, and no one else. I fucking own you and everything about you, do you understand? " Jungkook growled, himself close to his release. He slid a hand under jimin's neck and pulled him up such that jimin's back was pressed against his chest and nape leaned on his shoulder. Jimin put his hands on the headboard to support himself with jungkook's thrusts, and gasped when he felt jungkook reach for his leaking length.

" Jungko- I can't " he barely made out, consumed by his desires and devoid of rationality. 

" I know baby, you've been so good to me, looking so beautiful while you took my cock deep up inside you " Jungkook said, purposefully sounding so obscene because he knew jimin liked it, along with being praised. Jimin whined in response nodding against him and biting his lips " I've been a good boy haven't I, you'll fuck me again right? " He desperately asked. 

Jungkook realized jimin was too far gone right now, and would do anything because of the waves of pleasure he was receiving. They were both so close and jungkook decided to reply in a way that'll trigger Jimin " I will if you put you face back down and moan like the big whore you are for my dick " He said before he harshly pushed his back down, watching jimin arch it and let out sweet sounds at every movement he made. Jungkook kept working on jimin's member, making him come with a loud cry and a few spasms of overstimulation. He also wasn't far when he suddenly stilled and gripped jimin's waist in place tightly then came with a heavy groan. 

He rode his orgasm out and saw jimin's wet eyes stare at nothing in particular, gaze empty probably from his own orgasm as well. He steadied his heart beat a little before leaning down to peck jimin's lips and turning him to his side. " jimin? look at me " The voice seemed to have snapped him out of it, since he turned to jungkook and weakly reached for him. The taller knew jimin was needy after sex and he didn't mind it one bit. He curled his arms under his small frame and picked him up enough to put him in his underwear and maneuver him under the covers. 

Jimin waited for jungkook to join him and laid his head on his chest, while his leg was across him. Jungkook stroked Jimin's sweaty purple strands and then caressed his naked skin under the covers. Jimin almost purred in satisfaction; the man he loved was right by his side, treating him with utmost care.

" I love you " Jimin blurted to reflect his thoughts, he leaned up to kiss jungkook's lips and mingle tongues for a while. " I love you too, so much " Jungkook replied, nothing but honestly in his words. He held him closer and planted a kiss on the crown of his head " you make me the happiest man alive, jimin-ssi " jimin blushed and held the big hand in his small one, putting on his heart and smiling " as long as this beats, it'll be for you jungkook-ssi" 

" I don't ever want you near drugs, do you understand? I didn't forget you telling me about overdosing " jungkook seriously said and jimin nodded, ashamed of his actions " or alcohol for the matter, not for as long as you still have self control issues " he added and jimin gasped, ready to protest. 

" I'm here now jimin, you don't have to go drinking for any reason. You need to find your health back and I'll make sure that happens " he breathed softly, making jimin's heart flutter. " I'm here to give you everything you need, trust me " Jungkook added. Jimin nodded and buried his face back his neck, arms close against his toned chest. 

" I want to talk about us, jimin. What are we now? I don't want to rush anything, but I need a ground to stand on " Jungkook continued, hoping jimin would give him the answer he wanted. " we'll be whatever you want us to be, I'm certain that I want to spend my days with you by my side. We can start by lovers, what do you think? " jimin smiled, putting a kiss on the closest patch of jungkook's skin. 

" sounds wonderful, baby. I already made it clear that I wouldn't be seeing anybody, so the media won't be following me for that. We can keep us on the low until the time is right " jungkook explained and jimin chuckled " someone can't wait to go public, but I don't blame you. I would love to show the world that I'm the one who caught South Korea's most eligible bachelor's heart " he joked, earning a pinch from jungkook. 

" when do you start tomorrow? " the taller asked after a few minutes of silence, his hand going lightly up and down jimin's arm. He quickly reached with the other to the bedside table again and grabbed a packet of cigarets and a lighter. Lighting one up, he took a puff and waited a second before letting it out and creating a cloud of smoke above them. " you smoke? " Jimin asked with an arched eyebrow. " nah, tastes like shit, but I'm in the mood right now " he shrugged, passing it on to him who mirrored the action. 

" I have a photoshoot at 11:30am, then I gotta rehearse for the concert, and then I'm free " he replied, feeling jungkook nod against his hair. " I'll be seeing you tomorrow night as well then, how about a quiet dinner here and some movies? " jungkook suggested, choking the cigaret and getting rid of it. Jimin raised his hand and used his hand to hold the side of jungkook's face then plant a kiss on his cheek " perfect " he smiled, kissing him on the lips now.

" Taehyung hates you, did you know? "Jimin chuckled and jungkook frowned. " are you talking about business man me, or your me? " he asked and jimin grinned bashfully " shut up, both actually. He somehow figured things out on his own and confronted me yesterday. Trust me he'll need to work on a lot of things when I tell him we're back together " he pointed out and jungkook scoffed.

" I used to be so jealous of him for having you treat him with such kindness and love. I got mad when I saw you even close to him but now I barely even notice him anymore, even if I'm watching a show you guys are in, my eyes only dwelled on you... Is yoongi still after you? " Jungkook asked in amusement. 

" no, he can be touchy but I know he has a soft spot for Hoseok recently, they're practically inseparable... How is Bogum? " Jimin replied and they carried on filling he gaps in each other's lives until they got too tired to stay awake. Jungkook turned jimin so that he was the bigger spoon and switched the lights off. They laid in each other's warmth as their hearts buzzed with content and slept peacefully.

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I hope you guys liked this chapter and everything that happened in it.

The story is not over yet, we still have a touch of drama before the ending.

I'll see all of you in the last chapter next time and hopefully it won't disappoint!

- Aida -