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" how is he doctor? " the boys asked, hopeful eyes boring in the doctos's, who had just quit the block.

" I can't says anything for sure now, but his legs responded to the tests we inflicted. His nervous system is back on track " the doctor announced and the six sighed in relief, tears of happiness rimming their waterlines.

" thank you so much, thank you for your hard work sir " Namjoon thanked and felt a huge weight lift off of his shoulders. He was their leader, and having a member suffer from health and mental issues was taking a toll on him. He worried about the surgery every night. He thought about Jimin's feelings if it didn't work out, about the group, and their bond. He wished for Jimin to feel better and prayed for his recovery.

The nurses said they would take him to his room in a few minutes, and that he would wake up by midnight. They nodded and sighed, Hoseok and tae hugged briefly, while Namjoon and Jin smiled to each other. He gave the leader an affectionate pat on the shoulder and nodded.

Yoongi stood his ground, tears in his eyes. He sighed before wiping them and putting a hand on his hip. He covered his mouth and thanked god silently a few times, then ran a hand through his hair and followed the others.

They entered the room and found jimin unconscious, laying on the mattress, and dressed in a hospital gown. The room was dimly lit and smelled fresh. They walked further inside and sat close to the bed, holding the boy's hand or whispering sweet nothings to his unaware ears.

" the doctor said he'll wake up tonight,  you guys can go, I'll stay with him until then " Yoongi said and they all turned to him.

" I'll stay with you hyung, I can't bring myself to leave this room right now " Namjoon said and Yoongi was about to speak again when jin interrupted him.

" I would love to stay but I have recording right now. Hobi, you have something as well don't you? " he asked, eyes directed to the said person.

" yeah, I'll go " hobi said and patted Taehyung on the shoulder.

" I'm staying with the hyungs, I have nothing to do " Taehyung whispered and watched them leave, before getting back to his bandmate.

The boys sat silently, until they felt tired and proceeded to take a nap. It was now 3pm and they were all asleep.

Jungkook slid the door open and walked in quietly, slowly making his way to taehyung who was occupying the chair next to the bed and sighed. He put an arm around his shoulders and one under his calves, then picked him up gently.

He tried his best to keep steady not to wake him up, and made sure Taehyung wasn't facing him so that even if he did open his eyes, he wouldn't see his face. He walked over to the L couch where Yoongi and Namjoon were sitting and layed him on the empty side.

" hyung? " tae suddenly spoke, making Jungkook halt all motion. After a couple seconds, he whispered a quiet 'yes' and waited.

There was no answer from the elder, meaning Taehyung had fallen asleep right back, to Jungkook's relief. He took his arms off the other's body and made sure the two sitting boys were asleep as well, before going to sit by Jimin's bed. He held his hand and kissed it, then waited for him to open his eyes.

Jimin wasn't supposed to wake up around midnight, that was just a lie he made the doctor say so that he would have some time for closure with his lover. He also wanted to be the one to break the happy news to him.

It was only a matter of time when Jimin fluttered his lashes and groaned quietly. He was turning his neck a few directions first, when his hand twitched, making him feel the weight of someone else's on his. He opened his eyes fully and looked at the individual holding his knuckles gently, to find Jungkook himself.

" morning, love " jungkook whispered and jimin stayed silent, slowly realizing where he was and what Jungkook was doing in a place his hyungs were.

" they think you'll wake tonight " he started, to reassure him and Jimin nodded.

" kook-ah... How did it go? " jimin asked, first thing, feeling his heart beat faster as he looked at his legs. He was tempted to touch or move them, but he preferred hearing it first.

" it went fine baby, the surgery was successful. You'll dance again, love " jungkook whispered with a soft smile and Jimin's tears spilled on his cheeks. He brought his free hand to his face and covered his eyes. Happiness couldn't describe what he was feeling at the moment.

" go on Jimin, feel them " jungkook whispered and jimin let out a shaky breath before squeezing jungkook's hand and reaching down to his thigh. He palmed it and felt the flesh squeeze under his fingers, he giggled and poked all over the space. He tried to move his toes and smiled widely when they twitched.

Jungkook felt his heart warm at the sight of his lover. He watched him get excited silently, and wished the moment would last forever, kicking to the back of his mind the reason of his presence in the room.

" I can't wait until I get back to the studio, and go on my morning runs, and go to the beach, and film music videos, and have concerts, and learn new choreographies, and travel with the members " jimin whispered excitedly, not catching Jungkook's sad smile, as all of the things he said didn't include him at all. Jungkook wasn't in Jimin's future.

" you will do all of those things sweetheart. I'm happy for you " he replied, and now it was Jimin's turn to hold a sad smile. He put his other hand on Jungkook's and squeezed it.

" it's okay jimin, you should just think about happy things right now. I don't want you to ruin your happiness with anything that has to do with me " jungkook whispered heavily, words leaving his throat with an endless bitterness.

" jungkook-ah... I'm still so sorry. I know how you feel, but I can't. I hope you find someone better, please don't tell me otherwise, not now " jimin said and reached with his hand to bring Jungkook's head closer. He pecked him gently on the forehead and cradled him with his free arm.

" can I kiss you one last time " jungkook whispered and jimin nodded almost immediately.

When their lips met, it felt as if their hearts wanted to make up for all the lost times, and all the sorrow they experienced. Jungkook's free hand was on Jimin's cheek, and the smaller's was around his neck. Desperate sniffs could be heard when Jungkook felt his emotions overflow as he pushed himself even closer and refused to let go.

His lips trembled and tears streamed down, contrasting his usually strong and composed image. The playful and laid back Jeon Jungkook was nowhere to be seen. He was replaced by a broken boy, seeking nothing but love and affection, nothing but the emotions jimin couldn't give him.

They pushed away and Jimin took care of pressing their bodies together in fear of having jungkook crumble right in front of him. He held him with both arms and rocked him slowly.

" jungkook-ah " jimin called quietly, hearing the younger humm between sniffs.

" thank you for everything you've done for me" he whispered and bit his lip not to let a sob out.

" thank you for loving me, for taking care of me, for holding me and comforting me when I needed it. Thank you for helping me through my breakdown and paying for this surgery from your own money " jimin said and Jungkook nodded, beginning to calm down. He looked at Jimin in the eyes and cupped his cheek again, before pressing their foreheads.

" I could also say, thank you for hurting me and treating me badly because that made me who I am... But I wouldn't mean it. I don't want to thank you for that because those memories are the ones keeping me from being with you. I might have been too weak to deal with what you put me through, and ending my life instead of fixing things with you. I might have put myself in this pit, but I will never deny the fact that I fell in love with you genuinely. I love who you are Jeon Jungkook, all of it. Maybe if I didn't attempt commiting suicide... Maybe then, we would still be together, just like when we fought and made up. But this is our reality now, and it made me open my eyes on many things " jimin explained, he tried his best to keep it down no matter how overwhelmed he felt. He looked to the side just to see if any of the hyungs had stirred but they haven't.

" no love, don't appologize about what I made you do. It was all my fault. Look at me, I'm okay. If you want this, I'm okay with it. And I love you too Park Jimin, more than the entire world, I will never stop " jungkook simply replied with a small smile. He firmly spoke his words, sure of himself and of his choices.

" I love you baby, live happily for me okay? Live your life just the way you would've done it if you never met me. Live it fully and without regrets. Smile lots too, you look beautiful when you smile " jungkook chuckled as he pinched Jimin's wet cheek.

" and don't think about us. Don't think about me. I was never a happy thing anyway. " he finished and got up. It was time to end it all.

" you were " jimin grabbed his hand tightly and said.

" this past month, you were the happiest thing in my life " he countered and brought a smile on the younger's face.

" glad to hear that " he last said and walked towards the door. Before he left, he turned to him and bowed.

" goodbye Park Jimin-ssi, it was an honor meeting you, I'm your biggest fan " he whispered, and just like the wind, his voice faded away and the last thing jimin could remember from their meeting was a bright smile, from the broken boy who sought affection.

They met one last time for closure, and closure they got.

Jimin wished he had the power to choose which memories to keep.

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Here we meet for a new update.

I was thinking of ending it here
...but then I thought it would be very sad, don't you think?

I want to hear your immediate thoughts on this chapter as well :)

-Aida-