ɢᴏʟᴅ ʟᴇᴀғ ᴀᴄʀᴏss ʏᴏᴜʀ ʟɪᴘs, 

ᴋɪss ᴍᴇ ᴜɴᴛɪʟ ɪ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ sᴘᴇᴀᴋ. 

••••Φ••••

Jimin thought about it, many times. What happened between him and his boyfriend that drove him to suicide?

He tried to remember but nothing came, except the same painting and the view across the hall. However,  this time around, he could see something new, something he never saw when he thought about the lost memory.

He saw a leash. It was difficult to see a connection between the leash crinkling against the tiles of the cold floor, and him opening his veins. But right when he was about to give up due to the painful headaches, he saw him. The hand that traveled all parts of his body, in every way possible, was pulling the leash around his own neck.

The memory didn't reflect pleasure or anything in that sense; it was indeed painful and heartbreaking. He tried to see some more, defying the pulsations in his brain, and managed to catch one sentence before passing out.

" if you're gonna act like a dog in heat,  you better look like on first "

•••

Jimin woke up in a dark place, looked around, and sighed when it was just his bandmate's bedroom.

" yoongi-hyung? " he called weakly, and the boy shuffled towards him on the bed.

" yes Jimini? What happened? I came back from the studio and found you passed out on your wheelchair... I was so worried " he said with a concerned tone, and Jimin shook his head.

" I just tried to remember... Losing a few important months of my life just like that is horrible... I want to remember hyung " Jimin said and Yoongi sighed.

" it's okay Jimin, you'll get there eventually, just be patient alright? And... I think you can also, ya know, try to move on and make better memories " he said and Jimin suddenly remembered the dream.

" say, yoongi-hyung, you know about kookie right? My boyfriend? Well he said things to me when he visited " Jimin said and Yoongi's eyes took a lifeless turn.

" about that jimini, I have to tell you something-"

" no let me finish please. Kookie, he needs help, and I don't know how to lend it... I really want him to feel better because I love him so much, but I don't know if I'll manage " Jimin said with a sadenned tone and Yoongi gulped.

' you love him huh? Then I can't tell you now can I. My poor baby... kookie isn't here no more, he even told me not to save him when he cut his wrists right in front of me, just like you did in China '

" how did you fall in love with him? Do you remember? " Yoongi started softly, getting closer to his group member.

" I don't, actually I remember it was in Malaysia, but I don't know how exactly " he said and Yoongi nodded.

" and do you now remember why you did it? "

" not really, it has something to do with my boyfriend obviously, since we were together at that time... But I don't know what he did or said " Jimin confessed and Yoongi clenched his eyes.

' how can he love someone who pushed him to end his precious life? Jungkook doesn't deserve Jimin's feelings even if he died. I have to stop this '

" Jimin I have to say something "

" go ahead " he said and Yoongi looked into his beautiful eyes, then shook his head slightly to focus on his task.

" I lied that day at the hospital... I know who saved you" he said and Jimin's eyes widened.

" it was kookie, I already knew what he looked like before seeing his picture on your phone... " I said and he smiled widely.

" so what I saw means nothing... Even if he hurt me he still loved me enough and cared about me to save me from something I did to myself. Thank you Yoongi, I'm so relieved... What I feel for him... It's not simple you know. I'm crazy about him, and I'll make sure to tell him when I see him "  Jimin said in a content voice. He put his hand on his chest and took a deep breath while Yoongi found himself getting angry.

" that's the thing jimin! Jungkook killed himself after saving you. He blamed himself for what happened to you, and decided it was best if he left you. " Yoongi confessed and everything went silent, even the smile on Jimin's face was wiped off. The younger stared at him with an offended expression.

" I'm sorry jimin, I'm so sorry baby " Yoongi spoke with a shaky voice when he saw the broken look in Jimin's eyes. He tried to pull him in for a hug, but the younger pushed him away.

" shut up, just how dare you lie to me this way! " he said and squeezed his previously wide eyes shut, then let out a short incredulous breath.

" I'm not lying Jimin it's the truth! "

" no! jin hyung!" Jimin called.

" Jimin listen to me, I swear that's what happened! "

" I don't want to talk to you anymore,  you're full of bullshit! Hoseok-hyung! "

" you've been seeing an illusion jimini, he was not real! Even the doctor said it was normal! " Yoongi tried to reason but Jimin having none of it.

" so now I'm crazy?! Stop whatever you're on Yoongi, kookie is still here and I'm sure of it! Namjoon-hyung!!" by this time, Jimin had started crying, Yongi tried his best to calm him down but to no avail. Jimin started hitting Yoongi whenever the older tried to touch him, so he was now getting aggravated by his tantrum.

" Jimin stop this already!! He's dead and gone! He was never good anyway, so please stop! " Yoongi shouted and Jimin's sobbs grew more like quiet whimpers. Pain filled the space and Yoongi rubbed his face while pacing away from the bed.

" you can't judge whether or not he was good?! You barely knew him for like a day or something "Jimin accused and Yoongi rolled his eyes.

" well at least I do remember who he was. So I think I can tell " Yoongi said out of annoyance, and Jimin gasped.

" I do remember who he was hyung! Why are you doing this to me?" Jimin shouted as his hands covered his face.

" then who was he in the first place? what was his name? How did you meet? " Yoongi asked knowing Jimin wouldn't be able to answer because all he's been calling his boyfriend was 'kookie' , and so far, no exact memories of the stalker were announced to the others. Jimin screamed in frustration and Yoongi sighed, feeling bad for his acts.

" I don't remember... I asked-b-but he never told me " Jimin said and Yoongi walked closer again.

" that's maybe because you never talked to him for real, your brain doesn't have that information in it, so it kept on deflecting the question for you... I looked into this when we came back from the hospital... Trust me " he spoke softly and Jimin shook his head stubbornly.

" baby, look at me- "

" don't call me that! Only he can "Jimin sobbed and Yoongi ignored the pang he felt in his chest.

" jimini, it's gonna be alright, okay? We're all here to help you, I'm here to help you, please let me " Yoongi pleaded and the other just sighed heavily.

" no this can't be true... Please let this be one of those many nightmare I had... Teahyung-ah... Please... Somebody... " Jimin whispered.

Jimin took Yoongi's phone on the nightstand and called the contact number he had memorized by now. It rang and rang, but nobody answered.

" kookie, please pick up... You're alive right? " he spoke thought the speakers and Yoongi pursed his lips.

" do you want me to bring you yours? " he cautiously asked and saw jimin nodding.

Jimin unlocked it and went to his chat with his boyfriend, and again, found it empty. No texts were saved and nothing could prove what he's been saying.

He typed a quick 'kookie?' but he didn't get an immediate answer like the other times. He covered his mouth to keep the sobbs in and sunk himself under the covers.

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Jungkook died huh? That's pretty sad...
What's going to happen to the story now?
That's problematic...
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Aida-