My mom and my new step dad decided to have a party at our house tonight because of the Fourth of July. I thought it was kind of a dumb idea because we've never really celebrated Fourth of July before.

Anyway, my step brother invited all of his friends over, including the weird friend that's always in my kitchen, and my mom invited a ton of our extended family that I only recognize because they were at the wedding a few months ago.

They told me that I needed to actually come out of my room and participate in the family party instead of hiding all night. My mom said that I really only needed to make an appearance for about a half hour, just so I could say hi to everyone, and then I could go back into my room, but my step dad said that I needed to stay for the whole thing so to avoid an argument I stayed out for the whole thing.

I called my friend and asked him if he wanted to come over for a little while and he said yes without even really taking a minute to think about it. I don't know if he was so excited to come over because actually wanted to spend time with me or if he knew that we'd have alcohol available.

He was already high when he showed up and I'm pretty sure my mom was able to tell but she didn't say anything, she was more worried about trying to entertain the rest of my family.

My step brother introduced my friend to his friend and then they all ended up talking and they tried to include me in the conversation but all they talked about was how far they've gotten with girls and I really didn't have anything to say except that Maya and I sometimes make out, but they weren't that impressed with that.

"You mean you're still a virgin?"

"Of course he's a virgin, he never leaves his room!"

"That doesn't mean he's a virgin!"

"Yes it does! If he stays in his room all day then who's he gonna have sex with? His hand doesn't count."

"He's right there, dude."

Yeah, it honestly wasn't a very exciting conversation so I left and called Maya, which I probably should have done in the first place. She said that she was actually supposed to go to another party but she'd been looking for an excuse to not go and this was perfect.

Maya came over but when I invited her I didn't think about the fact that she'd have to meet my mom and my step dad, so I was kind of freaking out and trying to hide Maya from every member of my family just to avoid having to introduce Maya as my friend/friend with benefits/possible girlfriend.

After a while of Maya and I awkwardly walking around my backyard and purposely not looking anyone in the eye, my mom found me and asked who my new friend was. And if my mom had paid any attention to me at all for the last few weeks she'd know who Maya is, but of course she hadn't.

Maya introduced herself as my girlfriend, so I guess that's all settled. I have a girlfriend now.

I've obviously never had a girlfriend before and I'm about 99% sure Maya knows that so I hope she won't get mad when she realizes that I literally have no idea what I'm doing.

The rest of the party was pretty fun after I stopped acting so nervous about Maya being there. We were able to talk to some of my family members and my friend and my step brother and his weird friend.

Right now it's around 2 in the morning and Maya is still here, and I don't know if my mom is just okay with the fact that she's sleeping over or if she just isn't aware that Maya is still in my room.

I'm honestly surprised that Maya even likes me. I don't even expect any kind of sympathy when I say that, I'm seriously very surprised that Maya actually likes me because no one else has ever felt this way about me before. I'm a shitty friend and an even shittier person so the fact that she's here with me right now and she likes me and wants to be my girlfriend is so weird.

Maya just poked my leg about 5 million times in a row and told me that she could hear my step brother and his friend talking in the room next to mine and they're being really loud so we're assuming that they're drunk. Maya thinks that they're probably going to start making out soon because she said that always happens when you get two boys alone with alcohol.

We both just realized how tired we are so I think this is it for tonight, Carol. I'm gonna say that this was a pretty productive day because I ended up getting a girlfriend.

Goodnight Carol.