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Lafz kitne hi tere pairon se lipte honge
Tune jab aakhiri khat mera jalaaya hoga
Tune jab phool, kitaabon se nikaale honge
Dene waala bhi tujhe yaad to aaya hoga

Numerous words must have clung to your feet,
when you burnt the last letter of mine..
when you removed flowers from books,
you must have remembered the one who gave, too..

Looking at her photo, caressing the flimsy duppata which still had her fragrance lingering on them he gulped down his pain of being away from her. He has no other choice other than to be separate from her.

Teri aankhon ke dariya ka
utarna bhi zaroori tha
Mohabbat bhi zaroori thi
Bichhadna bhi zaroori tha
Zaroori tha ki
Hum dono tawaaf-e-aarzoo karte
Magar phir aarzuon ka
bikharna bhi zaroori tha
Teri aankhon ke dariya ka
utarna bhi zaroori tha

It was necessary for
the river of your eyes to come down..
[i.e. it was necessary for your tears to come down.]
The love was necessary,
and the separation was necessary too.
It was necessary that we both
had lots of wishes..
but then the falling off of the wishes
was necessary too..
It was necessary for
the river of your eyes to come down..

'I'm sorry Khushi. I'm so sorry.....you must be hating me now. I'm a puppet; fate played a cruel game with me and I cannot drag you in it. I miss you Khushi....I miss you so much.....will you ever be able to forgive me for the hurt I've inflicted on you. Why Khushi....Why always it is us? We were so happy to get married then....then it had to happen?'

Bataao yaad hai tumko
Wo jab dil ko churaya tha
Churaai cheez ko tumne
Khuda ka ghar banaya tha
Woh jab kehte thhe
Mera naam tum tasbih mein padhte ho
Mohabbat ki Namaazo ko
qara karne se darte ho
Magar ab yaad aata hai
Woh baatein thi mahaz baatein
Kahin baaton hi baaton mein
Mukarna bhi zaroori tha
Teri aankhon ke dariya ka
Utarna bhi zaroori tha

Tell me do you remember
when you stole my heart..
And you made the stolen thing
the house of God..
When you used to say that
you say my name while praying
and are afraid of ___
the prayers of love..
Those talks were just talks,
and somewhere, it was necessary
to drift away from those talks [as in, to break those promises.]

'You would have forgot me......in new life, in new happiness and I wish the same Khushi.....you deserve to be happy......wish I would have able to love you.....wish we had a chance at our love......wish I was there with you.....and I wish at least in next birth you would be mine without any hindrance of our past. I can't live without you Khushi but I can't live with you. What a cursed life I'm living....no not living. I'm just breathing. I don't know when my breathe will stop. A wish of mine will remain unfulfilled....a wish to die in your arms. Will atleast my wish come true? I wish to see you when I'll close my eyes for forever. But I can't come before you Khushi. I'll not be able to see your hate for me. I can't see you with someone else. I can't come to you not will be able to go away if came close. Kaise ishq hai yeh Khushi!!!'

A year and half later, Goa.........

'Khushi ji come soon we are getting late' Khushi looked up to smile at NK, he has been good friend understanding her and she is glad she has got someone like NK in her life. She has come to Goa to take some alone time from the busy life she is living from the past one year. She needs a break and agreed to instantly when NK announced for Goa trip.

NK 'Khushi ji what is this? I'm....'

Khushi 'you go Nanehe ji. I'll stay here. This place looks nice and I'm feeling hungry, rather I'll grab something than wandering around. I'll be fine on my own. You just go and enjoy. You are already late.'

NK sighed, she is stubborn and he knew that very well. NK 'are you sure you will be fine here. This is new place Khushi ji'

Khushi laughed 'I'm not a child. I can handle myself. I don't want to come inside the club. You just go. I'll have something to eat, have a walk in beach before retiring to the room'

NK nodded at her, he left her on her own. Khushi sighed; she turned towards the restaurant situated near the beach a little distance from the resort they are staying in. The restaurant belongs to the resort and she is in no mood to sit inside the room ordering her food. She wants to explore the place and she will just do that starting from the beach and the restaurant which has promised for delicious food and beautiful view of one of the Mother Nature.

She is already in love with this place, something in the air giving her positive feeling.

Manager of the restaurant welcomed her in, greeting her warmly before asking a waiter to take the lead.

She was shown to a table as per she liked at the corner with good view of the beach. Water has been placed before her with menu card. She started glancing through the content.

Few minute or to say ten minutes later a waiter came to her side. 'Maam your order' Khushi stiffened at that.

The voice.....the voice which always had the strong hold to pull her heart strings in past and even now. The voice she longed to hear from past one year or more than that.......

She turned to look at the person before her; he is looking down at his notepad not looking at her. Not getting any reaction he raised his head only to get collided with the hazel eyes which he dreamt of daily.

Wahi hai sooratein apni
Wahi main hoon, wahi tum ho
Magar khoya huaa hoon main
Magar tum bhi kahin gum ho
Mohabbat mein dagha ki thi
So kaafir the so kaafir hain
Mili hain manzilein phir bhi
Musaafir thhe, musaafir hain
Tere dil ke nikaale hum
Kahaan bhatke, kahaan pahunche
Magar bhatke toh yaad aaya
Bhatakna bhi zaroori tha

We have the same faces,
it's the same me and the same you.
But I am lost,
and you're lost somewhere too.
I had ditched in love,
so I was unbeliever, and so I still am.
I have found my destinations,
and still I am a traveller as I was.
Removed from your heart,
where I wandered and where I reached, (I don't know)
But when I wandered, I realized,
that it was necessary to wander too.

Mohabbat bhi zaroori thi
Bichhadna bhi zaroori tha
Zaroori tha ki
Hum dono tawaaf-e-aarzoo karte
Magar phir aarzu'on ka
Bikharna bhi zaroori tha
Teri aankhon ke dariya ka
Utarna bhi zaroori tha

Her heart cried 'Arnav ji!!!' she tried to speak......

But he broke the trance; his eyes all of a sudden had blanked 'Maam, your order.' Khushi looked at him not able to digest the fact of him being really there. Arnav cleared his throat 'Maam your order please'

She jerked, what is happening here? On seeing him acting nonchalant and as a stranger she ordered her food in silence. Khushi watched him go, his behavior of not knowing you look piercing her heart. He is the same yet he is not. He has vanished from her sight but the few minutes she gazed at him ran through her mind he has become so thin and looking so out of life. His ever expressive eyes having lost the spark, they looked in pain. He has grown a long beard not so like him and the last but not the least him as a waiter. She could not digest that, her Arnav ji as a waiter, a man who is owner of the million dollar company is working for such a low profile work. Her eyes rose to look him when food was served but alas it was not him but some unknown face serving her ordered food. Her eyes roamed around the restaurant to spot him but it was futile he was not anywhere to be seen.

She got up panicked, where is he?

Waiter startled 'Maam!!!'

Khushi looked at the man before her, shoving big sum of money 'here take this amount for bill and your tips bhaiya' he looked confused at her. She did not eat and is trying to run somewhere paying hefty amount.

She turned to him after taking few steps 'Where is the man?'

Waiter 'Who?'

Khushi 'the man who came to take my order'

Waiter to confirm took Arnav's name 'Arnav!!!' Khushi nodded her head....Waiter 'He left. He was in a hurry today'

Khushi feeling scared 'Left? Left to where?'

Waiter confused and surprised to see the Richie Richie madam showing interest on a waiter 'Don't know. He must have not gone too far though' she rushed out leaving the confused man. Waiter 'Mad woman'

Khushi ran around everywhere to locate Arnav but the crowd in beach did not let her. Her eyes welled up knowing she lost him again, Arnav ji!!!!

Manager 'he has resigned from job'

Khushi looked at him all pale and aghast. He left the job.

Manager 'Did he do something?'

Khushi shaking her head 'No!!!...I....he is someone I knew. I need to know where he lives'

Manager 'Sorry Maam we don't know that'

Khushi 'What? How can be that possible? He was working here and all the employee details should be registered.'

Manager 'yes but certainly he don't have home here, he was living in employee quarters but since now he has resigned from his job he would have vacated the room as per the rules' Khushi not able to spot him had ran to the restaurant again to at least to gather details about Arnav only to feel her hope shatter.

Khushi felt herself weak and sat on the nearby chair exhausted. Her mind and heart screaming, how will she find him?

Manager 'but one person can help you?'

Khushi 'Who?'

Manager 'the one who helped Arnav to join for work here last month, he is selling fancy items nearby our restaurant. So he must know'

Khushi 'Where can I meet him? What is his name?'

Manager 'Everyone here knows him by Kaka. You don't have to worry, I'll call him' the manager called someone over the phone. An old man entered the cabin. He looked at the restaurant manager and then the petite girl. Khushi walked towards him, folding her hands 'Namasthe!!!'

He was confused but nevertheless greets her, Khushi 'Kaka, do you know where Arnav can be?'

Kaka (old man) 'Arnav bitwa!!!'

Khushi nodded her head, he looked at the woman before him having silent tears, all defeated, looking at him with a hope 'I don't know bitiya' he watched the tears making their way down her cheeks. He felt sorry for her, looking at her crest fallen face 'but I can find him'

Khushi breath hitched and spoke controlling her tears 'Please help me'

Kaka 'I'll not ask who you are and why are you trying to find him. I just need one word an assurance of sort.....it is not something harm to him, right? In the short span of time he has come to me like a son, a son who has saved me in my crucial time so I need an assurance'

She smiled sadly 'I can never hurt him, trust me. His family needs him and I need to find him.'

Kaka 'I believe you' her eyes said it all, he knows something is not right with the boy who has so much pain held in him. He is old but his experience in life can never be so wrong. Something bad had happened but he did not prod Arnav to share it with him lending silent support from the time Arnav came across his path.

Khushi 'Thank you'

Kaka 'I will look for him and will call you by tomorrow'

Khushi 'but......'

Kaka 'trust me beta, it is not easy to find someone in Goa. But I'm sure Arnav bitwa will contact me' She nodded her head and gave him her phone number.

Kaka 'I'll get in touch with you when I know about Arnav bitwa'

Khushi 'Thank you Kaka, you are doing more than a favor to me. This means so much to me' she bends and touched his feet for blessing bewildering the old man who nevertheless blessed her to be happy.

Arnav looked at the deep sea in front of him, the splashing waves high as if a storm has formed and sounds so thunderous like the one inside his heart. Khushi!!!! She is here in front of him after one whole year. She is the same, beautiful, when he looked at her he was lost as always in those hypnotic hazel eyes but the trance had to be broken when he looked at the black thread adoring her neck and vermilion filled on her partition screaming at his face, he has no right on her and he had lost her long back.

Oh Khushi!!!! Tears he thought to have dried from his eyes started escaping. His heart, as if someone has enclosed it in their hand and squeezing it painfully.

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