[IF YOU HAVEN'T READ YESTERDAY'S UPDATE READ THAT FIRST]

Shock or trauma induced fainting.

Jeongguk was pacing through the hallway of the hospital, his mind trying to think but heart clouding his sense of rationality.

In the short span of time Jeongguk had spent with Lily she had been so cheerful and peppy that he couldn't even begin to fathom the reasons that could've induced this response.

She was a psychologist, doesn't that mean that she must've been prepared to handle similar situations?

At the same time a part of him was still in the shock of what he was about to do before Jimin and Lily interrupted him.

One more second and I wouldn't have been here. What would've happened to Lily then? What was I thinking? Is it bad that I still want to end everything? It is bad, I shouldn't be feeling like this, but maybe I deserve it.

Out of the corner of his eye he saw Namjoon arrive, he was now talking to Jimin and Taehyung, Jeongguk saw Namjoon's face fall as a very pale faced Jimin recounted the events of the day.

Tired of his own pacing Jeongguk sunk into the uncomfortable hospital chair and was soon joined by his hyungs next to him.

Taehyung put his head on Jeongguk's shoulder, Namjoon put an arm around him muttering "don't lose your jams kookie", eliciting a giggle from the maknae, while Jungkook held Jimin's hand in a silent apology and gratitude.

In any other family, they would've made a scene, yelling and crying at Jeongguk for his decisions. But for this family they always knew, they will always know and stand by him. At that moment, Jeongguk felt ease, not in way that solved his problems but in a way that he was grateful that he still had time to change. In that too brightly lit hospital Jeongguk finally felt ease after a long time.

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"What the freaking hell happened to her?!", a voice thundered along the hallways, Jeongguk saw a woman walking quickly with 2 nurses on her heels, the poor nurses seemed so scared at her voice.

That must be Natasha, Lily's friend I called.

"Oh my God!", Taehyung gasped, "T-that's Natasha! Like 'The Natasha'."

Namjoon considerably stiffened beside him and Jeongguk noticed something like a blush blossoming on his hyung's cheeks.

Trying to hide a smirk, Jeongguk said, "That's Natasha, Lily's friend, but I'm guessing you know her, or at-least you want to", Jeongguk also noticed how Natasha became momentarily quiet as her eyes set on Namjoon.

However, she was quick to recover as Taehyung suddenly stood up and introduced himself and fretted around her.

"Lily is fine now", Taehyung said, "we're just waiting for her to wake up, the doctor said it was shock induced. So its nothing to worry about!", Taehyung comforted, the poor boy missed the glare of jealousy Namjoon was throwing his way.

Natasha smiled, "Thank you so much for being here", she slightly bowed, "I can be here, y'all can leave, sorry for the delay."

"Its fine!", Jimin remarked, "She's important to Jungkookie so she is important to us as well, we can stay till she wakes up. I don't think Jungkook would want to leave anyway." Now it was Jeongguk's time to glare, he also stood up, "sorry for everything that happened, it was my fault", he apologised.

Natasha sent a sad smile his way, her eyes shining with knowing, before she could reply, she was interrupted by a nurse.

"Excuse me, Ms.Han has woken up, she is asking for Mr.Jeon."

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As a hesitant Jeongguk entered the ward, the remaining three fell into a somewhat awkward silence.

This was Taehyung's cue to start fan-boying once again and Namjoon's consequent cue to start glaring at the floor, however before either of these could happen Natasha's phone broke the silence.

"Oh no! I completely forgot about that! I'm really sorry, I'll come right away", Natasha responded to call.

"Is everything alright?", Jimin softly asked noticing Natasha's worried face.

"Uh, yea, it's just my daughter's with the sitter and her time's up", Natasha ran her hand through her hair, "I need to get her, but I need to be here as well. I can't bring Sarang here either ", Natasha let out a sigh as she smiled. "It's fine, I'll figure something out-."

"Natasha", Taehyung cut her off, "We would be happy to babysit your daughter! I love children! And Namjoon hyung will be there too, he's the most responsible one!"

Natasha shook her head, "No guys, it's fine, I can't-"

Jimin pouted, "Do you not trust us?"

"No, it's not that!"

"Its settled then, come on Natasha!"

Natasha rolled her eyes, "Fine! I can't believe BTS is going to look after my Sarang."

The trio soon left after receiving all required information from Natasha. Despite the awkwardness of the morning, Namjoon smiled at Natasha before leaving, promising her to take good care of Sarang.

A wall apart from Natasha, Lily and Jeongguk were also smiling.

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[A few minutes before]

Jeongguk stepped into the ward with mixed feelings; a part of him wanted to see and ensure Lily was alright, while the other half of him wanted to run away without addressing the problem at hand.

However he chose the former the moment he set his eyes on Lily, she looked pale, not physically but the expression she wore was one of immense sadness. The moment she saw him, she mustered a smile but it didn't reach her eyes.

"I'm sorry", she said before he could, "it was my fault, I failed as a doctor, I didn't help you and you could've-", she choked on her words at the thought.

"But I didn't Lily", Jeongguk rushed to her side, "You saved me, you did that, it's not your fault. "

Lily felt like the roles were reversed, she gave Jeongguk a sad smile, looking down at her hands she said, "Nevertheless it was unprofessional, I understand if you want change psychologists."

What?

Jeongguk looked straight into her eyes, "You're not just my psychologist Lils"

Lily choked again blushing furiously now, a similarly blushing Jeongguk continued, "I-I mean, you're also my friend and I'm not changing anything."

Lily looked somber for a moment as she then burst out laughing, "I think that's the nicest thing you've ever told me."

After glaring at her for a second Jeongguk also joined in and then he once again turned serious, "Lily, I need to tell you something."

"What is it?"

"I-I need help, I admit. I'm messed up", he was now fiddling with the sleeves of his hoodie.

"We're all messed up Jeongguk, that's what makes us human. And I promise you'll get through this", Lily's smile wasn't hopeful rather full of conviction.

"Thank you."

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Jeongguk wanted to continue to ask her the thoughts that had raced through his mind to find answers as to what happened to her. But he, more than anyone else at that moment, knew that to each one their pain their own.

At least for now.

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Sarang was a ball of sunshine.

Namjoon smiled fondly as he watched Taehyung and Jimin play animatedly with her.

Natasha's house (and Lily's, Sarang said) was lined with polaroids and photographs of Natasha, Lily and Sarang, with the addition of a few unfamiliar faces. In none of these pictures however, Namjoon could spot any family pictures that could point to Sarang's lucky father.

This curiosity of his, about where her father was, was about to kill the cat.

Before that could occur, Taehyung was near him, "Did you know Natasha before, hyung?"

"W-what? Uh, yea I met her today for a meeting."

Taehyung was smirking, "Oh? That's why the both of you made everything awkward at the hospital?"

"Shut up Taehyung-ah!", now Taehyung knew something was definitely up, Namjoon never scolded anyone.

"Okay, okay hyung!", he raised his hands laughing and added as an after thought, "Bold of you to chase after a single mom!"

"S-single?"

Taehyung didn't reply, gesturing that he had shut up like asked.

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THE END.

(Just kidding! Hopefully.Maybe)

I'm on a roll y'all! 3 updates within a week!

How was it?

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Also this is the conclusion of the first quarter/half of the book. So like end of ACT  ONE.

YAY!

I love you guys, thank you for reading!❤❤❤

Stay safe and stay healthy!

Love,

Lily