—
it's been a month since yura passed away, and there hasn't been a night that went by without suga crying himself to sleep, imagining she was still present in this world. he remained silent all day, clutching that chemistry book she asked him to sign. of all the things that she owned, he treasured it the most. idols don't fall in love with their fans, that's what they both used to believed in until the universe found a way to put them together.

to her, bts is an inspiration. they served as her motivation to get good grades so that she could get a fine job and afford their concert tickets someday. she adored them, and she even set up a fan account on twitter dedicated to her main bias, min yoongi.

to him, armys are his pillars of strength. they were the sole reason why he's working hard day and night to provide good music. but he bloomed so much when she came to his life, like the spring season taking over the garden of flowers that flourished the earth after the long cold season of winter.
—

YOONGI
yeah I hate you
although you left

YOONGI
there hasn't been a day that I have forgotten you

—
he took her frame to his chest and weeped over it till midnight. no one could imagine the pain of losing the person you love the most. suga played her favorite song on repeat and closed his eyes as he formed a mental picture of her in his mind, and looked back on their first kiss.
—

YURA
yoongi oppa, i don't think this is right

YOONGI
why? because i'm an idol?
so what if they find out?
i love you

YURA
you can't love me

YOONGI
why are you saying that?
i know you feel the
same way i do

YURA
but they will hate you if
they found out about us

YOONGI
they can hate me, i don't care
i'm willing to risk everything
just to be with you

YURA
even your career?
you can't do that for me
you worked hard to reach your dreams

—
without anything in mind to say, he pulled her close and crashed his lips to her. her cheeks instantly colored up with a shade of pink as her idol, whom she used to adore from a computer screen, kissed her. his arms were around her waist and her chest felt close with his.

it was uncertain what their future might be, if their love would last, or if that embrace would hold on for long, but the time he kissed her for a minute felt like forever.

back to reality, suga found himself on the bed, staring at the ceiling. he thought that perhaps by intoxicating himself with her thoughts, he could slowly move on.
—

YOONGI
please leave my mind
i can't do this anymore

YOONGI
honestly, i miss you
but now i'll erase you
because that will hurt less than resenting you

YOONGI
i'm blowing out the cold you
like smoke, like white smoke

—
he turned on his side and saw a vision of her, lying beside him, wiping his tears away. she gave him a smile that warmed his cold heart. oh that smile that turned his lyrics into songs, that smile that could make his heart weak and strong at the same time. he was aware that she was just a phantom created by his mind, but god knows he misses her dearly.
—

YURA
don't cry

YOONGI
how do i stop if you're not here?

YURA
i have always believed in you, my love
the things you've done before you met me were the main reasons why
i adored you

YURA
turn that pain into something
beautiful, like you always do
and move on

YOONGI
it's so easy for you to say

YURA
i will always be here,
watching over you

YURA
but please be strong for me,
i love you

YOONGI
i say that i'm gonna erase you
but actually, i still can't let you go

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