So um, yeah, here's another art dump haha

Some book covers for my friend NyanCreator

My first gacha edit. I'll post the speedpaint on YT

A thing

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hat color should Jake's eyes be? Green or Orange? Instagram thinks it should be green, I like both colors for him.

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ini project-

Keep scrolling for bonus ;)

Also, I need somewhere to vent about some stupid stuff at school, and neither of the people I'm talking about here read my Wattpad books. If you know me irl and know who I'm talking about, don't snitch.

Anyways, so, I'm in a relationship in real life. It's been a whole year since we got together and it's about as good as any high school relationship is. The thing is though, I'm not a very... lovey dovey, touchy touchy person. I love my boyfriend, don't get me wrong, but I'm just no good at showing it except by laughing at his jokes, letting him hold my hand, and sitting with him and his friends. Another thing is, is that I'm also an not easily jealous person. I don't have a problem with my boyfriend having any female friends, much less female friends he hugs or talks to on a regular basis (which he doesn't as far as I'm aware), and I trust my boyfriend enough to not cheat on me.

The thing is, is that he's a pretty clingy, jealous kind of person. He doesn't like it when my male friend, who's gay btw, hug me. The gay friend, who I'll call Jamie, is a touchy person and shows his affection by hugging people, holding their arms, etc, etc. Keep in mind, Jamie hasn't held my hands unless he's trying to rush me somewhere and my bf isn't around. My boyfriend has told me on numerous occasions that he doesn't like Jamie or him touching me in any sort of way, even though he KNOWS that Jamie is gay. My boyfriend, who I'll call Nick, has asked me how I would feel if I saw him hugging on a girl or if a girl was hugging on him. I told him-

"I wouldn't really care, like, more than likely it's because you two are close friends. I wouldn't really be jealous, sorry?"

Occasionally, I'll say that I would be just to get him to drop the subject, but lately, it's what he's usually talking about in between making jokes and complimenting me, and it's starting to stress me out.

He's not the only one being like this though.

Jamie is well aware that Nick doesn't like him touching me, and he continues. Now, in all fairness, it's usually because I tell him I don't give a fuck if he wants to touch and hug me, what's the worse Nick is going to do (bad Jackie, I know. Selfish of me). If Jamie isn't allowed to hug me or hold my arm in some way, he starts getting mopey, and I'm easy to guilt over, so instead of listening to him mope and tell me that Nick is going to be the reason why I loose friends, I just tell him don't do it around Nick.

I'm not worried about Jamie possibly being straight and just lying because-

a: This boy talks about taking the D constantly.

b: Enjoys talking about really, really gay things.

c: Hasn't expressed any signs of crushing on any of the girls in our friend group and outside it.

Jamie does tend to not touch me or be around me with Nick around, but when he is, there's always something that the other person did wrong.

Either Jamie tells me that Nick is the reason why I'll loose my friends or he starts moping and I feel bad

or

Nick says that Jamie is interrupting our conversation, which he will occasionally do, but not often, and that Jamie is just annoying or that he hates him.

The situation has me so stressed out, and honestly, I don't really know what to do. I feel like if I break up with Nick, he's going to go off the deep end or his friends will hate me (and his friends are pretty cool people) or if I stop being Jamie's friend, I'll loose all my other friends a basically be an outcast in all my classes because I share classes with all of mine and Jamie's friends.

I've been told to tell them both that they're being shitty.

I've been told to embarrass them.

I've been told to just give them the silent treatment.

But none of those things are easy for me!

I can't be stern with anyone irl, and the only time I am is when I'm angry, which I try hard to not be angry.

I can't embarrass nobody without embarrassing myself. I only have a decently size amount of friends and people I feel comfortable chatting with, and it's not the whole school. I'm easy to stress out in social situations and during confrontation, which I guess is why I shouldn't even be dating but oh well-

And I can't just give two people the silent treatment when I see them every damn day.

So, I'll list out the pros and cons on the two boys and what they're doing, just in case you guys have any advice but want to know more about them:

Jamie:
A gay guy
Younger then me by a month (he's 16 too)
Doesn't have a filter
Calls all his friends potatoes, children, or art buddies
Is friends with a few of my friends
Tells a lot of funny stories and has decent advice
Likes my art and someone I give advice to for drawing
An affection person
On JROTC, the Air Rifle Team, and Drill Team (Nick wants to kick him off Air Rifle because he's got the worse shots)
Likes Steven Universe and loves hearing about my ocs
Wants to fight Nick

Problem: Likes to hug me, talk to me, and just hang out around me, which annoys Nick and talks about Nick to me in class. Apparently, Jamie is upset at Nick constant tearing him down in Air Rifle and he talks shit about Nick. He also tells me Nick is the reason that I'll loose my friends.

Nick:
My boyfriend
Older than me by a year(?) (He's 17)
Also doesn't have a filter
Is only really nice to me, he's alright towards his friends. They have bro moments I guess
I like hanging out with him and his friends (although he's often embarrassed of his friends due to some of their jokes)
Meme lord and usually makes me laugh everyday
He likes my art and is actually trying again with drawing
A closeted affection person (I'm his first real girlfriend)
He's also on JROTC, captain of the Air Rifle Team, and Color Guard(?) (He's got the highest shots
He doesn't share all of the same interests as me but as people say, oPpOsItEs AtTrAcT.
Wants to fight Jamie
He's also leaving next year to a military school thing for the first semester, which I guess would also be a reason as to why he's so clingy.

Problem: he absolutely dislikes Jamie and gets jealous every time Jamie hugs me or talks to me, he's also pretty clingy but that's fine. He also has been told by one of his friends to break up with me if I don't listen to him. He's a jealous person while I'm not and he may not trust me enough to not cheat on him.

All in all, I'd appreciate some advice. I know I'm making these two people sound bad, but individually, without the drama, they're great people. I just wish I could tell them that I understand both their sides but they don't understand mine.