As you grow up and you experience "change", you find out that you can't possibly delete any part of your personality; no matter how bad it is. You rather learn to block it out. And you block it out for the sake of others.

You hurt yourself on the inside to try and keep up the façade.. to keep up with the "change".

I think the luckiest you can get is to find someone who knows it all. Find someone who cares; deeply cares. Find someone who, you're sure, will never get bored of hearing your break-down episodes over and over again.

And most importantly, find someone who can embrace those flaws you're trying so hard to block, and maybe.. just maybe by time these parts will fade away like you first wanted them to.