Today, I as decided to write an another book which is a memior that content my thoughts, struggles and daily life story or how my day went. As a adult now, at the age of 22, Ive been overthinking lately in related to my studies ( as an internship/ojt student ).

This thinking never stop because ive been problematic where i can apply or where i apply that they will accept us who is pursuing to have an exprience/training in related to our course which is tourism. My other classmates are already settled and started thier internship while here i am.. at home doing nothing. By seeing my classmates posted/myday/sharepost of other who is just like me a ojt student who already manifested to soon graduated really pressured me.

I dont know what to do in wach day i spend at home. I keep on praying that at least one or two of the oppurtunity that i applied to each different industry or what's ever as long as they will accept an intern like me but for more than 5 emailed i did. I never recieved an replied from it. I feel so anxious right now and here i am at eleven thirthy at midnight writing this entry because i dont know who am i to talked to. Like my friends who is busy looking for a place to apply like me. I open up to my mother about my situation but instead of comforting me she scolded me. While my long time boyfriend told me that being paranoid and i need to wait few days that maybe ill be accepted and start my ojt soon. But no, my mind wont settle and im so so in deep thoughts right now. I keep on stay up late until two in the morning because i keep on overthinking daily.

I feel so pressured or I dont know what to do anymore. Im praying and hoping that i will be accepted in my previews applications just to have this last semester exprience/training related to my course : Tourism Management.