Epilogue (Spidey In Crisis)
Peter went to the Rehabilitation Center for Superheroes, and went inside. He'd made an appointment in advance, and walked to the room where Dinah and Barbara would usually talk at. For the past three months, Peter had been talking with Dinah as well. It was therapeutic for him. He opened the door and saw that Dinah was sitting on the chair. "Hello Peter," said Dinah, "I've been expecting you." Peter nodded and said, "hey Dinah." He shut the door behind him and sat at the chair next to her. "How've you been?" Peter asked as Dinah gave Peter some milk and cookies, "thank you."
"Things are going well for me," said Dinah, "I'm still seeing Piotr. He's such a sweetheart. I'll never understand why Wade tries to get his goat." Peter chuckled and said, "hey that's how Wade works. You and Piotr look cute together though." Dinah smiled and said, "Thanks. How are things going for you, Peter?" Peter sighed and said, "Well, I'm just glad I'm with Barbara now... I don't know where I'd be without her. I love her." Dinah smiled and said, "you and Barbara are cute together. I'm glad you two found love." Peter smiled and said, "I remember when Reed gave Babs her legs back. She was so happy to walk again. After everything that happened, I knew then that I love her. Since she knows what it's like to be a hero, it's made being Spider-Man a little easier for me. She's helped me let go of the guilt." Dinah nodded, understanding.
"I've been Spider-Man since I was 15," explained Peter, "I became a hero out of sheer guilt. I blamed myself for my Uncle Ben's death because the burglar who killed him was the same one I could have stopped. I even blamed myself for George Stacy's death and his daughter Gwen too... After Jason was buried again, I blamed myself for his death. I've been blaming myself for everyone's deaths a lot, recently. I practically punish myself and there are days where I feel like I don't deserve to be happy... I know Bruce and Barbara don't blame me for Jason's death, but something about what he said still haunts me... Jason basically blamed me for his death and he said that I was no better than Bruce..." He shed a few tears from those painful words. "Jason was under a negative influence," said Dinah, "and under that negative influence, he manipulated you into feeling guilty. Using your failures against you as a way to purposefully hurt you. I've had my fair share of failures in which I blamed myself for those failures. During Barbara's first year here, she broke down crying remembering all her failures." Peter nodded and said, "I still blame myself for Jason's death. Sometimes I have nightmares about the whole ordeal. I guess Barbara and I both have nightmares about what we both had to endure. Sometimes there are nights where I wake up screaming from the nightmares. But Barbara is always there when I wake up to hold me and tell me that it's okay. And I feel safer in her arms. I guess that feeling of security is therapeutic."
"I'm glad to know you feel more secure sleeping with Barbara," said Dinah, "she tells me that she feels more secure with you around also. You're her hero too, Peter. And you are more of a hero than what Jameson says. I think he envies the fact that he can't accomplish what you can accomplish. Don't punish yourself like this, Parker." Peter smiled and said, "I know that the spider gave me my powers, but people like my Aunt May and Barbara, they're my strength. Barbara makes me happy. It's going to take me a long time, but eventually, with Barbara's help, I'll learn to let go of my guilt and stop punishing myself. And maybe then I'll be able to sleep better at night."
The End.
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