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Jimin chose not to call Jungkook as he suffered through the night. He didn't want to disturb him and make things awkward. He already felt like quite a burden, he didn't want to call someone he had just met and barely knew.

His aura was great but it was too early to tell whether this friendship would last any longer. And with that he made the decision not to call.

Jimin had a very tough night. He didn't sleep at all and he kept feeling this weird sensation in his chest. He kept feeling some fear, that everything had just stopped.  It was a strange feeling. But what hurt most was that he didn't have anyone to talk to.

And he didn't know how to gather the courage to open up to someone. He would try occasionally but it never seemed to work out for him. He would always ending up cutting himself off at some point.

He heard the alarm ring and it was already 8. He hadn't slept all day and now it was going to weigh on him. Due to the lack of sleep he was more paranoid than usual and the fact that he knew this, made it worse.

Jimin began tearing up again. He hated feeling this way. Although he was relieved that he would be heading back the next day and his nightmare would be over. He sighed and went to the washroom to get ready.

He looked into he mirror and sighed. He looked like a mess. His eyes were swollen and he had dark circles under his eyes. He got into the shower and the hot water touched his skin. Jimin closed his eyes as the water soothed him. He heard his phone ring and got out of the shower in a bathrobe, he was running out of time.

He went out but by now he had a bad headache. He simply opened his suitcase and fetched out two small tablets for it. It was sad how he was used to these headaches caused due to sleep deprivation.

He swallowed those pills with some water and picked his phone up. It was Taehyung who was calling.
"Hello?" Jimin called back.
"Hey. Are you ready to go? We are getting a little late." Taehyung said softly.
"Yeah. Just give me 10 minutes." Jimin said rubbing is forehead with his fingers.
"I'm having breakfast downstairs. Join me." Taehyung offered.
"Okay, sure. See you." Jimin replied.

He got dressed and headed out to meet Taehyung.
"Woah. Didn't you sleep?" Taehyung asked with wide eyes.
"No, no. I'm just... I have a slight flu. That's all." Jimin lied as he put his head down on the table.
"Are you sure you're okay?" Taehyung asked again and Jimin could feel his anxiety rising. And if it rose to a certain level, Jimin wouldn't be able to lie and he'd snap.

He breathed in somehow and faked a smile.
"I'm okay." He said softly and Taehyung nodded.
"Breakfast?" Taehyung asked and Jimin shook his head for a no.
"I'm not hungry. I'll have something later." Jimin said timidly. He was hoping he'd eat after his meeting when he'd call Jungkook.

Taehyung clenched his jaw and sighed. He ate quietly and then they left a few minutes later. They reached the Busan office but Jimin was silent throughout the 15 minute drive there.

Taehyung could sense that something was wrong but he was scared he'd sound insensitive. Jimin on the other hand, was thinking about his parents. He bit his lip and nervously shook his leg as the nostalgia hit. It was an overbearing guilt and shame accompanied by anger and sorrow.

They walked up to the conference room and sat in. It was basically a meeting about whom the company should hire as heads for their Busan office and for that they wanted their best employees opinion, especially Jimin's.

Jimin could feel a slight shiver take over his body but he managed to seem okay throughout the meeting. He even faked a few laughs. It was scary how good he was at faking that he was completely fine.

Seeing him work one could never suspect how broken he was on the inside.

The meeting got ovet around 7pm, and Jimin was finally free. He was looking forward to calling Jungkook and just talking about everything but how he was feeling or looking.

He popped another pair of pills to help him with his headcahe and Taehyung saw. Once they sat in the car, Taehyung couldn't help but ask him.

"Why were you taking pills?" Taehyung asked.
"For my headache." Jimin replied as he looked as his phone to find a text from Jungkook. Jimin smiled and was about to type a reply.

"Why are you lying?" Taehyung said suddenly and Jimin looked at him.
"Jimin. You can talk to me. I know you're not okay and that you miss your family. But you're not meeting them--"
"Just stop. I'm not talking about this with you. I don't want to, Taehyung." Jimin snapped at him.

Taehyung got upset and shot back at him.
"Fine. Just because you're upset doesn't mean you're going to treat people this way. You're responsible for your own feelings. You're upset doesn't mean you're going to make others upset too. "

Jimin's worst fears were brought to life by Taehyung. He knew he was annoying everyone with his problems, this was the main reason why he didn't open up. Taehyung immediately regretted saying that but he was rendered speechless.

" I'm sorry. " Jimin apologised timidly and Taehyung was overcome with guilt. He was about to apologise when the car halted at the hotel and Jimin just got off.

He had tears rolling down his face but he scurried off to the elevator. Jimin reached his room and closed the room and began sobbing against it. He was stupid for trying to open up, he felt. He just slid down onto the floor and felt pathetic.

His phone buzzed again and he looked down to find another text from Jungkook.
"You there, Jimin?" it said. Jimin cried more when he saw it. He didn't want to make this wonderful man miserable with his sob story and so, with shaky hands he deleted the text.

Author's note

:) I'm sorry for hurting