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Yoongi stood there as silence filled the cafe. He huffed and looked away from the door that Hoseok just walked out of.
"Yoongi! Follow him!" Jin said, panicked.
"No." He huffed.
"What happened, hyung?" Namjoon asked.
"He was snooping through my stuff, after all this time he can't give me my privacy." Yoongi laughed sadly.

"Did he find something he wasn't supposed to?" Jin caught everyone off guard with his direct question and glared at him.
"It was personal." Yoongi glared back. Jin widened his eyes, still glaring at him and Yoongi looked down apologetically. Jin being the eldest, had a soothing affect on him. He handled him well and babied him sometimes knowing how hard it had been for him to act like the adult all the time.

Yoongi also respected Jin a lot, he was the one person who kept him very grounded. Not that the others didn't but Jin was different. Even though he was bubbly and cheerful, he happened to be very intuitive and had a strong personality. One that wouldn't budge under any pressure, and he brought that strength to this family.

"Go!" Jin pulled Yoongi's arm gently.
"We'll be at Jimin's. Call us." Jungkook said and Jimin nodded. Yoongi huffed and went to the building to find his fiancé. The boys sighed and Jimin held Jungkook's arm and kissed his cheek. Jungkook smiled at him sadly then looked down, he was visibly shaken.

The boys went to Jimin's apartment where they sat silently eating dinner. Jungkook and Namjoon had barely touched their food while Jimin ate a little. The boys kept checking their phones and looking at the clock, but time didn't seem to move.

"You guys do know they'll be okay, right?" Jin asked while chewing. They all looked at him. He looked super relaxed.
"How can you be so sure? I've never seen them fight like this." Namjoon shook his head.
"That's because they rarely fight. When they do, they act all stupid." Jin rolled his eyes.
"Are you sure, hyung?" Jungkook asked, his big doe eyes, round with anticipation for some reassurance.

"I'm sure. Besides, they've got a healthy way of resolving things." Jin added.
"What's that?" Jimin asked, intrigued.
"Simple, they talk. " Jin said and they all chuckled.
"No really. You'd expect them to be a couple who'd have a lot of make up sex or angry sex, on the contrary they don't." He said and Jimin was visibly surprised.
"They always talk and then have 'we made up' sex..." Jin shrugged.

"What is make up sex exactly?" Jungkook pouted.
"What do you think it is?" Jimin laughed.
"Um.. Like when people are angry and fu--have sex against the wall." Jungkook blushed.
"That's angry sex. Make up sex is when you have a fight and have been away for a bit but now you wanna make it up to your baby because you love him." Namjoon winked at Jin who rolled his eyes but blushed.
"And yes, fuck against the wall works fine too." Namjoon added making Jin choke and Jimin and Jungkook blush. Then they all laughed hard.

"So you really think they'll be fine?" Jungkook asked after a bit.
"For sure." Jin nodded reassuring him, and Jimin held his hand to comfort him.
"I bet they're cuddling right now." Namjoon smiled cutely.

Meanwhile...

"I'M FUCKING LEAVING YOU FOR SURE THIS TIME!" Hoseok cried as Yoongi entered the house after a minute or two.
"Fine. Leave! I'm just here to see you don't take any of my stuff." Yoongi yelled at him and Hoseok threw a cushion at him.
"Can't believe I wasted all these years with you when you're hiding stuff." Hoseok cried hard and went to their room and Yoongi followed angrily.

"It was personal!You shouldn't have read it. It was something I wrote for myself, you didn't have the right!" Yoongi yelled.
"Yeah, what right do I have as your fiancé?" Hoseok laughed.
"Doesn't mean I can't have my personal stuff!" Yoongi yelled.
"You can but -" Hoseok tried then looked away.
"But what? Just admit you did a very bad thing! How can I trust you?!"
"I was worried you'd kill yourself, goddamn!" Hoseok screamed back at him and Yoongi gulped and for a few moments there was pin drop silence.

"Okay?! What would you do if you found a letter hidden in a drawer, hidden like some weird piece of art. I read it because I wasn't sure what it was and then when I did, I panicked. I was worried you'd do something! I can't usually help you with your anxiety, so it scares me, Yoongi! This is my life too! I am marrying you, I want to give you your privacy but you don't let me in and I can't lose you! " Hoseok cried so hard, his hands were shaking. Yoongi was rendered speechless.
"But none of that matters because you don't understand.." Hoseok angrily took a suitcase out, put it on the floor and began filling his clothes in it.

Yoongi held him from behind and Hoseok tried to weakly fight him off.
"Stop.. Stop.." Yoongi whispered in his ear and Hoseok began sobbing.Hoseok turned around and pushed him on the bed gently and straddled him. He was shaking as he hugged Yoongi who kissed his neck gently.
"I'm sorry I read that letter. I didn't mean to invade your privacy... I was going to keep it back but.. Then I started thinking the worst and... When I read it... I really panicked. That's why I confronted you..."Hoseok cupped his face with cold hands.

Yoongi's hands were shaking too and cold. He kissed him softly then caressed his face.
"I should've told you it was an old envelope and that it was personal. If you knew, I know you wouldn't go behind my back to read it but..." Yoongi kissed him again as he teared up then they fell silent for sometime.
"Was it really what I think it was?..." Hoseok asked trembling, grabbing onto his shirt tightly.

"Yes.. Unfortunately. It was supposed to my last letter to this world. I was 18 when I wrote it. Before I had any of you, I thought it was over. So I penned down my final thoughts at the time, about this world and decided to call it quits." Yoongi sighed and Hoseok cried hugging him. He couldn't imagine an 18 year old Yoongi like that. Yoongi hugged him tighter as the painful memories returned and he trembled a little.
"But then I thought of Namjoonie and Jungkookie.. I had them. "Yoongi sighed then smiled.

"And they needed me, so I kept that envelope away but I didn't throw it. It is a part of my past, then you and Jin hyung came and you guys honestly made me forget about it. And now we have Jimin and Jongin too, I never looked back at life like that, no matter how hard. Because I have all of you, I am okay. Nothing in that letter represents how I feel now. " Yoongi said caressing his face and kissed his forehead. He felt so light talking about this finally.

"I love you, Yoongi .." Hoseok said softly.
"I love you more." Yoongi smiled, wiped his tears with his thumb and kissed him.

AUTHOR'S NOTE

Writing this chapter made me so nostalgic... This fandom has stood by me when I was suffering. I cannot thank you all enough. Ever. I love you all.