Alec's pove _________

It's been two weeks now.
Magnus comes every mornings to give me breakfast and a morning kiss.
But it's just only a peck on the lips,
Magnus said that I need to get used to this then the other will follow.
After he gives me breakfast he leaves and comes back for lunch.
We eat together, Magnus has lived for centuries so he will always tell me about his adventures.
He is a very interesting person.
Me for the other hand, well.... I haven't done anything. As long as I have lived there wasn't something interesting that I did or happened to me. I am pretty lame.
That got me thinking...... Why is Magnus interested in me in the first place?
Sigh
Anyways, after lunch he will give me a peck on the lips and later me and him will go to the bed and he will start petting me until I fall asleep.
When I wake up he isn't there.
So I just continue reading my book until he comes back around night time. He comes and we eat dinner together, after the night kiss we cuddle to the bed and fall asleep.
Then the next morning I wake up alone.
That is my routine..... My routine for the past weeks.

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It was morning. There was breakfast on the small table. Even if I didn't see Magnus I know that he kissed me.
He will never forget.

I looked at the pancakes but didn't went to eat. I didn't have the appetite.
I looked outside the window.
It was snowing. I love snow.
I wish I could go outside with Magnus or Madzie.
I sigh and looked at the plate.
I let out another sigh and took the plate. I was playing with my food while thinking.
He still had barriers at the windows and door.
He still doesnt trust me eh?
I understand why.....But still.....
I looked at the plate once again and started eating. I didn't want to worry him....
I ate half of the pancakes. I wasn't in the mood after all. I started looking out the window.
I sigh as I remembered me and Izzy ice skating on the ice.
I could feel a small smile appearing on my face.
I remember how we used to do small shows for mom. Jace wasn't interested on learning but he eventually did as Izzy wouldnt stop nagging him.
After when we turned 16 they stopped doing ice skating. Izzy had now friends she wanted to spend time with. And Jace had found his mate.
I from the other hand continued ice skating. Izzy hasn't found her mate, but she has a lot supportive friends on her side so she is good.
I wonder if she found her mate while I am gone....
I shake my head and thought of what I was thinking before.
I wonder if I can ice skate with Madzie.... Or Magnus..... Does Magnus know ice skating?
He hasnt mention it.

My thoughts were interapted by the sound of the door opening.
Magnus walked in with a smile wich soon disappeared when he looked at the plate.

"Are you Okey love? Why didn't you ate the pancakes? You will always eat them."
Said Magnus and stood in front of me.

"I just..... I wasn't hungry."
I said calmly.
I lied. I don't want to worry him.

"If you say so."
He said not convinced and run a hand through my hair.

He then took a sit next to me and made me put my head on his lap.
Then there was silence.

" I am bored."
I blurred out with low voice.

Magnus stood still for a moment.
I couldnt see him but I knew how his face had dropped. I sigh as I released how he still doesn't trust me.

Magnus then started petting me again.
" What do you want to do love? "
I could hear the small panic on his voice.

"....... Go outside maybe....?"
I said with hesitantion.

He was taken aback by my words.
"Do you still not trust me?"
He didn't answer.
I let out a sigh of disappointment.
"I won't run away."
He still didn't say anything which made me angry.
"I promise."
He didn't answer and made me more angry.

I got up and face him.
"Are you kidding me?!"
He still didn't say anything, he just looked at me socked.
"What?! Are you going to lock me up for the rest of my life?!"
He still wasn't saying anything.
Is he being serious right now!?
I nodded and got up.
He looked at me confused but I didn't care. I walked in the bathroom and locked myself in.

"Love? Wait! I-I didn't..... I am sorry. Please open the door."
He plead.

I didn't say anything.

"Love..... I am sorry. It's just-"
"You don't trust me!"
I yelled back.

How can he not understand?
He is my mate. He is the person I always needed and was looking for.
Whats so complicated about it?
Even if I wanted to go which I don't. I wouldn't be able to leave him.

"Love, that's not true......."

"Then why?"

"......... I am afraid....."

I frown my eyebrows.
"why?"

"Because..... It's the first time I feel something so strong about someone........ I am scared of losing you.....Of you leaving me."
Said Magnus from the other side of the door. Emotion on his words.

"Thats nonsense."
Said Alec with a small laugh.

Magnus was surprised by Alec's reaction. He didn't talk he was confused..... He was waiting for Alec to continue.

"If I wanted to go I would have already done it."
Said Alec.

"How?"
Said Magnus and raised an eyebrow.

"Caterina was right. I am a Lightwood.
If you weren't my mate and some random person, the moment you would had set me free I would have snatched your neck and reaped it open."
Said Alec not sure if he had to say in such detail.

Magnus felt so stuped for not thinking it. It was just that Alexander was so calm around Magnus that he couldnt imagine Alec being aggressive.

" Do you have reaped a lot necks open? "
Said Magnus a little more relaxed.

"I don't think I want to aswear that."
Alexander said with a small chuckle.

"what do you mean love?"
Said Magnus.

"...... I don't think you have understand the person I am."
Said Alec.

"Oh but I think I do."
Said Magnus with a smile.

"Really?"
Said Alec with a frown.
He himself didn't know himself.
He knew how sarcastic and cold he could be. But he also knew how sensitive and weak he can be.
But if someone asked him to describe himself he wouldn't be able to find the words.

"Alexander..... You are the sweatest and the most caring person I have known. My Alexander is shy, kind, smart and let's not mention how adorable you are."
Said Magnus.
Alec could feel Magnus's wide smile.
But he could also feel his face hit up.

"For example. You are blushing right now."
Said Magnus and before Alec could answer Magnus continued.
"How much I love your blushes. I wish I could see that one right now."

"I am not opening the door."

"What? Why?!"

" Because I don't like my blushes."
Said Alec.

"But I do!"

"I don't care."
Said Alec with a small smile.

"You know Alexander. You can also be grampy, sarcastic, stubborn and let's not mention how hot you can be when you are moody."
Said Magnus.

Alec felt his face to hit up even more.
" Now that your blush is even more red why don't you let me in?"

"No way."
Said Alec and burried himself on his hands.
Magnus chuckled.

"Magnus.......you are a very interesting person.You have went to adventures and learn a million things. Me from the other hand..... I haven't done anything interesting.
How aren't you bored of me?"
Said Alec a little low.

"Oh darling. You are only 17 and you have done interesting things. You just havent realize it. And also, I don't care about the past as much I care for the feature. The time we are going to spend together and the adventures we are going to do together, is what I look forward to. "
Said Magnus with a smile.

Alec was speechless. He felt relief, happiness, love all at once.
He wanted to hug his mate.
So he got up and unlocked the door.
He opened it and found Magnus with a charming smile and open arms.
He didn't hesitate to fall into his mate's hug.

Magnus was hugging Alec and was gently rubbing his back.
"Let's make a promise."
Magnus started.
Alec was listening.
"When we have problems and thoughts like that let's not avoid them or hide them from each other, let's talk about them. Together."
"Okey."
Said Alec and buried himself deeper in the hug.

They stayed like that for a moment.
Until Magnus let go and holeded both of Alec's hands. Alec looked at him happy.

"Let's go outside."
Said Magnus with a smile.

"Really!?"
Said Alec excitedly.

"Yes love."
Said Magnus, the smile never leaving his lips. He passed Alec's hair back and started heading outside while holding Alec's hand.
"As you are going to live here from now on, I need to give you a tour."
Alec nodded.

"But first let's have some fun and go outside."
Said Magnus with a smile.
Alec didn't bother to return the smile.

And with that Magnus took down the barriers of the room once and for all and headed outside while holding hands with Alec. The smile never leaving their faces.