entry #11

and i know it breaks him when i cry in our arguments,

why do i cry so easily?

why can't i be strong?

for him? for us? for me?

because the thought of losing him every time we fight blurs my vision with tears and i fall into a dark hole.

even though the fights are stupid and rare,

they open up the possibility of no us.

and i do not want to imagine a world where i'm living without him.

— Verona