I have been here for a while. I have also noticed Nico started ignoring me. It really hurts me a lot. Sometimes, I felt like I want to disappear. I have tried to talk to him, but he would just run away and try to hide in the shadows.

Every time he did this I felt my heart drop. I know I like him, but I hate the fact that I do. I feel so lost. So useless. I hide how I feel from my sisters and brothers. I don't want them to hurt Nico. Nico. Even saying his name makes my heart hurt.

When I was alone I would cry. I would cut my wrists. I would get attacked by Gabbie more often. Why must the world be so God damned cruel to me.

Nico hung out with Will. Caileigh told that they were dating. Isn't that just so great for my self-esteem? I became more distant, I did not know what to do. So, I decided to do the worst.

I started to eat less. My body became thin and frail. I was weak and my loss of blood from cutting was not helping, but this is what I want right?

One day I sat on my bunk. Crying for Nico, cutting my wrists. Watching the drip, drop of blood fall from my frail arms. Then, the door opened.

"(Y/n)?" The voice called out.

Oh gods... Nico.. Why now of all times. I started to freak out and I dropped my knife. It fell to the floor. I quickly slipped on a jacket.

"Go away, Nico..." I said.

"(Y/n) please wait h-" he started.

"NO! I am done waiting for you. You have ignored me forever, stop trying to make me forgive you!" I yelled at him and tried to run past him.

He grabbed my wrists making me flinch in pain. He spun me around and grabbed my other wrist. I flinched again and avoided his gaze.

"(Y/n)... No.. Please tell me you did not..." He said.

He pulled back my sleeve to reveal my cuts. I couldn't look him in the eye. I was so sad. I could feel him shaking under the sight of me.

I pulled away scared. What would he think of me? He probably hates me. I probably would hate me too. This is what I get for being selfish.

"(Y/n)..." He said.

"...." I could not say anything.

"Why?! WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS?!" He yelled.

I yelped and backed up. I hit the wall and fell to my knees. I knew he would hate me. There goes the only person I could love with my heart...

"(Y-y/n) I'm sorry. I just don't want you to do this. You mean so much to me." He said.

"I will stop." I whispered as I felt a pang of guilt in my heart.

"Thank you." He said and hugged me.

I cried into his shirt. He hugged me while playing with my hair. Why did I do this? I caused him pain.. He cared..

"NICO! WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!" Will yelled.

"Comforting your sister." He replied shrugging.

"WE ARE DONE!" Will said storming out.

"Ok." Nico said and shrugged.

"I do not understand. Why were you so calm while doing that?" I asked.

"Well I don't actually love him. I love someone else." He explained.

Wait. Could he like me? No that is totally obscure. Who could ever like me? Still, there is always a chance. Maybe Caileigh was right... Wait a minute. Where is Caileigh?

"Hey Nico, have you seen Caileigh?" I asked suddenly.

"Yeah, she has been pretty upset lately. I have no idea why." He replied.

"Oh." Was all I could say back to him.

I already knew why. Now I feel even worse. I have been ruining all of my friends and family's lives. Why did I have to do this?

"Nico.." I started.

"Yes, (y/n)?" He replied.

"Why do you care so much about me? All I have done is ruin what little you had." I said crying and looking away from him, avoiding his gaze.

"Do you want to know why I care so deeply about you?" He asked.

I nodded. He cupped my face and turned me towards him. Oh gods.. I could feel myself blushing as the heat rose to my already slightly red (s/c) cheeks.

"Well, the reason I care so much about you is because I-"

"NICO!" I heard (ha ha ha! I am so evil!) and he sighed.

"What?" He said as he took his hands off me.

Caileigh ran into the room. She was fuming. She was so mad that steam could be coming out her ears. Oh boy... Here we go...

"WHAT THE HELL?! WHY DID YOU DO THAT TO WILL?!" She yelled.

"Can I talk to you about that privately?" He asked.

Caileigh sighed annoyingly. "Fine."

They both walked outside and I heard Nico whisper something. Then, Caileigh squealed. Oh gods.. What in all the gods of Olympus is going on out there?

They come back in. Caileigh is beaming really brightly. Nico sighs and looks down. I'm so confused. What just happened out there? Nico must have seen the look on my face.

"Uh Caileigh, would you mind leaving us alone for a minute?" He asked lifting an eyebrow as if giving her a sign.

"No, I would not mind. I would not mind one little bit." She said and ran out the door squealing and whispering to herself.

"Um, what happened out there?" I asked.

"Look, (y/n). There is something you need to know." He said.

"What?" I asked.

"I don't actually hate you. I never did." He said and crossed his arms frowning (hence the picture above).

"Then, how do you truly feel about me? And please, do be honest." I said.

"Well then, if you want to truly know how I feel about you then, well (y/n) I-"

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Ok cliffhanger. Please don't be mad at me. I mean at least I did a chapter. Next one should be out next week. Also, is anyone going to momo-con. If so tell me! I want to know if any of you are going as a character from a show that I love as well. Please tell me you guys! Ok bye my little potatoes!!!