I'm not your average thirteen year old girl. I don't do the things most girls do. Most girls my age like to go out shopping, and get their hair and nails done. Not me. I'll go shopping if I really have to. But when I do, I just stand there and count the minutes away, thinking about what I could be doing instead of standing there, and holding stuff that my mom wants me to hold.

As for the hair and nails, I don't do much to them. I'll cut my nails when they get too long, but other than that, I don't do anything with them. I don't paint them, or put fake nails over them. To me, it's just a waste of time. I don't like waiting for the paint to dry off. It takes long. Who needs fake nails anyway? My nails are perfect the way they are. It's not like people pay attention to them.

School is my main problem. I'm pretty smart when it comes to classes. I always get an A in every subject. It's the socializing part that bothers me. I'm antisocial. I don't express my thoughts or feelings to other people. My family is an exception. They're probably the only ones that understand me. But their advice never works when it comes to socializing.

" Just let them know how you feel. If you want to talk about something, then talk to them about it. That's how you make friends, Jade." Dad would say.

" But what if they don't like what I say? What if I say something bad? What if I accidentally offend someone? I don't want that to happen." I would always say. We would go on like that for hours. It's the only time I ever talk a lot.

Not a lot of people see me as a normal person. Not a lot of people see me at all. I'm always hiding because I'm afraid someone would judge me about something. For example, clothing.

" Why do you wear that? It looks weird."

Hair

" Look at her hair, it looks like she just woke up. It's all messy."

The way I look.

" You should wear makeup. It'll cover up all of that."

My smartness.

" Ugh! Nerd. No one wants to be friends with you."

Why I read so much.

" Why do you read so much? It's so boring."

The way I sing.

" Your voice sounds terrible. You should take singing lessons."

My school supplies.

" You're so plain. You don't have any designs on your folders or your pencil box."

And pretty much everything else about me. It's mostly the girls that say those things. The boys don't pay any attention to me, because they're too focused on the other girls. The only people that I ever talk to in school are my teachers.

" How are you today, Jade?" One teacher would ask.

" Good." I would reply. I would sound like I'm good, but deep inside, I'm feeling absolutely terrible. It's not a great feeling.

I also have one other thing that bothers me. No one, but my parents know about this.

I have anemia. It's a condition in which the blood doesn't have enough healthy red blood cells. My anemia was passed down. My mom has the same condition, so does my aunt. Anemia has affected my life more than the bullies that I face everyday. It's not a great condition to have.

This condition makes me feel tired. If I'm not careful, I could get tired easily, and eventually pass out. Standing up very fast can make me feel tired and dizzy. Going up the stairs makes me feel tired. Even bending down, and tying my shoe makes me tired. Sometimes.

What I really need to be careful of, is my anemic episodes. I don't know if that's an actual thing, but I just call them that. Whenever I get an anemic episode, I feel lightheaded, and I start hyperventilating. My heart starts beating very fast too. I also start hearing a noise. It sounds like a heart monitor that just flatlined. I react by laying down in a cold place, and drinking water. Somewhere quiet and cold usually helps.

These episodes don't occur often. They happen at least twice a year. But they can start getting worse if I'm not careful. Running can cause these episodes too.
But, I hydrate enough to not pass out from running.

As you can see, I'm not that one character in the story that has a great, happy life and lives happily ever after. I'm the character that everyone feels bad for and I hate it.

I always thought that this was how my life was going to be. That I was just going to be a smart, and lonely girl.

But then, something very unexpected happened. I met a person that actually felt my pain.

Mentally and physically.

There's the first chapter. I want to point out a few things. The first three paragraphs of the story are all true. I don't enjoy doing things girls normally do. I don't like shopping. The only places I will shop in is GameStop and Barnes and Noble. I have been bullied about a lot of the things that are mentioned except for the school supplies. I've never been bullied about my school supplies.

I also want to point out the anemia condition. That's an actual thing. I have the condition. It really isn't great. Getting tired easily can really mess things up. The episodes are even worse. My anemia condition was passed down. My mom and my aunt have it.

I hope you guys liked it. See you guys soon!!