Lapis

Missed Calls (12)

I had ignored every single one of Lapis's calls, and I didn't care. She ruined the most important thing to me...now I was left with nothing. My work was my entire life...I hardly ever even imagined what life would be like without that job. I can't forgive Lapis. I just can't. It's one thing to make me a bit late to work here and there...but to get me completely fired? To rip that job from my hands? The job I had worked so fucking...hard to get.

I felt like I was someone who couldn't swim and had just been thrown into a 12 feet deep pool. I stood in my apartment, slipping off my tie and tossing it onto my bed. I stared down at the floor intensely deep in thought for a long time, and I hadn't even realized I was crying until I felt hot tears stream down my cheeks. I gritted my teeth, and clenched my fists so tightly my knuckles were probably white, and my heartbeat was unbearably fast. My breathing grew heavy, and I could feel myself trembling violently.

I had finally lost what was left of my composure, and screamed at the top of my lungs. I snatched my glasses off of my face, and threw them against the wall harshly, causing them to break into several pieces immediately. I glared down at all of the paperwork and contents on my desk from work, and just threw it all off of the desk angrily. I threw my desk chair over, and kicked it with all of my strength. My foot was throbbing from the intense impact, but I didn't care. I slammed my fists against my desk over and over until my hands were numb.

I picked up all of the paperwork I had been finishing up earlier this morning, and tore it to pieces. I continued to rip the sheets apart in a fit of rage, and I tossed the pieces to the floor. "IT'S ALL SHIT! IT DOESN'T MATTER ANYMORE! GOD FUCKING DAMMIT!" I hollered, quickly grabbing a robonoid from off of the floor. I raised it above my head, and before I could even think twice, I threw it down with all my might. I watched as it hit the floor, and shattered into pieces, despite how sturdy I thought I had built it. It all seemed to happen in slow motion, and my focus was on every single piece that flew from the robot.

More tears ran down my face as I watched my life's work be thrown out like garbage. I just stood there in still silence, except for my heavy breathing for a good while. Once my breathing steadied, I began to just quietly cry, and slowly lower myself. I huffed loudly, and sat there on the floor, pulling my knees to my chest. I rested my chin on my knees, and slowly took in the mess I had just made. I can't go back...I can't even ask to redeem myself. Why is my mother so ruthless...? Why is Lapis is so stupid...? Why am I...

I glanced down at my foot, and my toes were red from kicking the desk chair so hard. I sighed, rolling my eyes, realizing the incredibly stupid fit of rage I just had. I'm gonna have to look for a new job...

...but not here. I can't stay here any longer. I knew I should've never stayed here. I'm going back to Empire City...where I had been content in the first place. Fucking Lapis.

I had finally decided that I was going to look for a job back in Empire City, and move out as soon as possible. In fact, I decided to just call my landlord right then and there. I tiredly climbed back up to my feet, retrieved my phone from my bed. I began scrolling in search of my landlord's contact, and immediately stopped once I spotted it. I held the phone up to my ear, and I took deep breaths, attempting to fully calm myself down before she answered.

. . . .

"Why are you calling me."

After about three missed calls from my older sister Squaridot, I had finally just picked up to see what she wanted.

"...I wanted to talk to you, that's why."

"Well, I'm listening."

"You don't sound too well."

"What're you, a doctor? Just spit it out already before I hang up."

"I heard you got fired, Peridot."

"..."

"Is that true?"

"..."

"Peridot."

"...yes. I lost my job today."

"...can you tell me what happened?"

"..."

"Come on, Peri."

"I never should have come back here."

"You're blaming Beach City?"

"Yes. This is a trash heap of a fucking place."

"You weren't saying that just a while back."

"That was always at the back of my head. I was just in denial. Stupid...denial."

"..."

"..."

"I told you she was bad news, Peridot."

"What?"

"You know exactly what I'm talking about."

"..."

"Are you not denying it?"

"For once...

...I should have just listened to you."

"..."

"I lost my entire..."

"...purpose?"

"...I'm moving back to Empire City to find another job. Not sure how difficult that's gonna be."

"Peridot, you know I love inconveniencing you..."

"Tell me something I don't know."

"However...as much as I like bursting your bubble...I know it won't be hard at all to find another job with that brain of yours."

"..."

"You've got a gift, sis."

"It isn't a gift."

"Hm?"

"...it was hard work."

I deadpanned, and hung up before she could respond. I'm planning to never speak with Lapis again, and just depart as soon as possible. I didn't have any time to waste, but I did in fact need rest before I start on packing my shit up. So I slowly approached my bed, and flopped onto it tiredly. I was laying on my stomach, and I pressed my face into one of my pillows, shutting my eyes. My closed eyelids had pushed more hot tears out of my eyes, and they quickly soaked into the cloth.

I huffed, and clutched my pillow tightly.