xlix. Focus
I breathed in the smell of pine and cologne that seemed to linger in the comfy bedsheets as I tried to relax. My hands wrapped the sheets around my body, turning me into a cocoon of blankets and warmth as I buried my face into my pillow. As happy as I was to be home, I was also petrified.
Louis had managed to persuade the head psychology healer to let me out of the healing center somehow later that day. The deal with my healer and my father had been that I could leave so long as Louis kept an eye on me, but I had to be brought back immediately if I had another hallucination of Allister or Nox. I had been given an orange bracelet on my wrist outlining my so called psychological problems, and I fiddled with it a bit as I felt the bed dip on the other side.
"Don't steal all the blankets, love." Louis whispered to me as he tugged some of the sheets away from my body and over his. His arms slipped under my t-shirt and wrapped around my stomach, pulling me close until I felt his warm skin next to mine. I felt Louis' lips on my neck as he lightly kissed over my pulse.
"Relax, you're okay." Louis tried to assure me, but I hadn't really been able to relax since we left the healing center. I think it was the stress of seeing Allister again that scared me more than actually seeing him, the fright of turning around and seeing his image making me always on high alert. Truth be told I hadn't relaxed since the night I first saw Allister. I was probably shedding years off of my life with how much I was stressed out, and the thought of that only added on to my high stress levels.
"I'm trying." I whispered, refusing to look at the beautiful boy next to me. My psychologist had told me I needed to start being more open with my feelings and thoughts with Louis.
Apparently bottling my feelings up might also have been a cause of the hallucinations, though I was still pretty sure Allister was using some kind of talent to mess with my mind. So I told him everything: the meeting, Allister's warnings, everything. Well, everything except the visions of Louis' past. I had figured that was a more personal confession, one I would share now.
"Everything's ok. Allister isn't going to hurt you, I won't let that happen." Louis rolled my body over so I was staring at him, allowing his fierce blue gaze to burn into mine. I nodded before taking a deep breath, deciding now was the best time to tell Lou of my visions of his memories.
"I have to tell you something." I mumbled, Louis' brows raising a bit. I was eternally grateful for his patience now, he was always so understanding and calm whenever I had explained everything to him.
"Alright." He propped himself up using his elbow to stare at me, keeping quiet as he waited for me to speak again.
"I-I've been seeing memories." I started, my hands clutching the sheets as I stared back at him.
"That's typically what memory keepers do." Louis smiled faintly as he tried to joke with me.
"They're memories of your past. When you were a baby." I revealed, Louis' smile turning downwards right away.
"My past?" He suddenly seemed serious.
"Yeah." I breathed out, waiting for his reaction. He was perplexed, his head tilting to one side as his brows furrowed.
"What have you seen?" He asked quietly, his eyes casting down to stare at the bedsheets.
"Um, a man and woman who took you in after the man found you at a firehouse, and your birth mother running with you in her arms-" I was cut off by Louis' hand on my shoulder.
"Wait...you saw my birth mother?" His eyes looked down as he mentally processed this information.
"Yeah. She was running away from Nox with you in her arms..." I trailed off when I saw the look on Louis' face. He was unnaturally quiet, and I didn't quite know what to make of it.
"What is it?" I asked softly, Louis' head shaking.
"She was running from Nox?" He asked just as quietly as I did, his expression still showing his confusion.
"Yeah. She had to teleport you somewhere to safety when they caught her."
"She...Dad said she abandoned me at the fire station..." Louis mumbled, making me realize what he must have thought of his past his whole life. Louis believed his birth mother abandoned him at birth, left him all alone, when the truth was far from it.
"She didn't abandon you. You teleported you there when Nox finally caught her so you would be safe." I explained, holding a hand out to him. He was hesitant to take it, his hand trembling before I took it in my own.
"Let me show you."
We both were pulled back into the past as I transported the memory from my body to Lou's, both of us sent back to that cold December night. I held onto Lou's hand as we stood there in the snow as his mother walked down the street, clutching her precious baby boy close.
Now that I saw her and a grown Louis at the same time, it wasn't hard to see the physical features they both shared. Louis had her eyes and smile, and, as much as he hated to admit it, a little bit of her shorter stature.
Louis took in a deep breath as he watched his mother talk softly to him as a baby, his body frozen in awe as the memory played out before us.
"W-What's her name? Do you know?" He asked me softly, his hand gripping mine tight.
I did know her name, as a matter of fact. I wasn't too sure how I did, if it was just a fact I had picked up from Louis or if I just known all along.
"Johannah." I told Louis, who nodded quietly.
"There was a J on the note..." Louis trailed off, referring to the note his mother had attached to his foot when he was an infant.
The mood had darkened when we watched Johannah Tomlinson run off away from Nox with Louis in her arms, my Louis instinctively stepping forward to help her until I had gripped his bicep and held him back.
"It's a memory." I reasoned with him, a panicked look growing on his face as he watched his mother face attacks from the Nox member. "You can't help her, because this has already happened twenty-three years ago."
If there was anything Louis hated, it was being helpless. The same look from before when my heart gave out in the ice cream shop was back, his hands clenching into fists as he could do nothing but watch as his mother ran frantically towards the forest. I thought I saw the beginnings of tears as Louis shook his head and took off full sprint after his mother.
"Louis!" I called out after him as I followed, running towards the forest. He was fast, my eyes losing sight of him for a bit as he followed his mother through the dark and shadowy woods. However, I had seen this memory before. I knew exactly where both Louis and his mother would be.
I found them a short while later, my Louis frozen as he watched his mother hug him tight and whisper words of love. Tears were falling freely down his cheeks now when Johannah had created a blue vortex to send him to safety, my hand lightly rubbing his shoulder to try and comfort him when the vortex closed.
"S-she protected me..." He mumbled, his chest hitching a bit from his crying.
My head leaned against his shoulder, my heart sinking when I remembered what came next in the memory. Louis shouldn't have to see his own mother's horrific death.
"Lou, come on. It's time to go back." I quickly spoke, but Louis shoved my arms away when I tried to tug him around so I could send us back to reality. I swallowed the lump in my throat when I saw Johannah being thrown into the snow by the Nox member, my hands desperately trying to pull Louis away.
"Where did you send him?" The man growled at her, Louis' hands clenching into fists. Johannah smirked at the man, and my eyes widened when I realized I now knew why that expression was so familiar. Louis' eyes looked the exact same way whenever he knew he had won something, whether it was a contest, a battle, anything.
"Somewhere you'll never find him. The greatest sorcerer to ever be born just slipped right out of your hands." Louis' mother spat courageously. I kept trying to pull Louis away from the scene, but nothing worked. His strength was far superior to mine, no matter how long I spent training in the gym.
I had to get him away, before he saw what happened to his mother.
"Tell me where he is!" The man yelled and I changed my strategy to trying to push him away. My hands had firmly pressed on his chest as I tried to shove him, but Louis had only grasped my hands and moved them away from him.
"I'd rather die."
No. We had to get back.
"That can be arranged." I heard moments before I felt Louis lunge forward into me. A sickening cracking sound was heard just as Louis screamed, his body trying desperately to get to the man who had killed his mother. I used all of my strength to push him away, Louis' mouth spouting curse words and his talents generating electricity as his fury reached its peak.
"We have to go back." I whispered into his chest before I saw my vision lighting into a white void, my hold on my boyfriend tight as we were transported back to the bedroom.
My heart was pounding and Louis was still shaken up from the memory. We were both breathing heavily, Lou's fingertips rubbing over his eyes as he sighed and tried to steady himself. His electricity had fizzled and died, and an unnatural calm had taken its place.
"Louis?" I whispered as I shifted closer to him, my scared eyes looking to his face. I gently brushed his hands away from his face, my head tilting up to kiss his lips. My mouth lingered on his for a few moments, both of us trying our best to calm down.
"You okay?" I asked softly, watching as Louis' eyes opened slowly. They were a calm and serene blue, locking onto mine as he sighed and hugged me tight.
"Yeah." He assured me, hiding his face in the crook of my neck and wrapping himself around me. I held him close for a while, both of us now too awake to even close our eyes a second. I didn't say anything, just combed my fingers through Louis' hair as we laid in silence. The comfortable silence was broken when I felt a pair of lips kiss my neck.
"Thank you, Magical Mira."
~•~
"I-I don't know if this is a good idea, Louis..." I mumbled in nervousness as he fastened my feet onto a thin silvery teleboard.
"Just relax, this will be fun for you!" Louis smiled once the restraints keeping my feet to the board were locked tight.
After I had woken up and gotten dressed the next day, Louis had immediately brought me up to the very top of the apartments to give me a present. That present had been my mother's old teleboard, and Minerva and all of my friends had come up to the roof to help me practice.
I fiddled with the orange healing center bracelet on my left wrist, my wide eyes looking over the edge of the roof to see a dizzying height beneath me. Maybe they should have written 'deathly fear of heights' along with the 'severe hallucinations, restlessness, and confusion' on the bracelet, maybe then I could get out of this.
Louis had been doing his best to keep me calm and relaxed, until he got the brilliant idea of having me try teleboarding.
"Maybe if you have something to focus on, the hallucinations will stop." He reasoned, which made me shrug. I had figured it was worth a try, what was the worst that could happen?
I figured it out now. I could totally plummet dozens of feet to the ground to my death. That was the worst that could happen.
"Come on, Mira. Who knows, you could end up loving it." Imani suggested from her chair on the roof, a soda in her hand and smile on her face as she tried to make me less nervous.
"O-or I could hate it and break my legs and fall and die and-" I couldn't stop shaking, my mouth spouting nonsense as I looked down at the height I faced again.
"You would fall before you break your legs and die, dummy." Imani laughed, but that didn't help the stress I was going through.
"Mira, if it helps, I didn't see you falling to your death today." Kaguya tried comforting me from her own chair, and it did work a little. At least I knew I wouldn't die.
"Thanks." I said dryly, Louis rolling his eyes.
"Come on." He encouraged me, taking my hands. "Try and levitate the board up."
"How do I do that?" I asked, Minerva butting in her telekinesis expertise.
"The same way you levitate anything else, only you have to focus on the board you're standing on." She explained, making me take a deep breath to try and calm me down. I looked down at the silver metal shaped like a small surfboard before focusing my telekinesis on myself.
The first few tries to get up in the air were shaky and full of wide eyes and encouraging words. Louis had held my hand as I tried levitating the board successfully for the seventh time, a bright smile appearing on his face when I finally managed to fly a few meters without becoming shaky or having the board drop a foot back down to the ground.
"You did it!" He cheered when I could fly safely around the top of the apartments, Imani and several others voicing their excitement as well. I couldn't stop the little smile from appearing on my face afterwards. This was the best thing that had happened to me in a while, and it was amazing to just try something new and use my talents without hurting someone. After flying around the top of the apartment for about a half-hour, I had told Louis I wanted to try to teleboard a bit higher.
"You sure? You don't have to." He had told me when I faced the previously dizzying height I had stared at in fear just a little while ago.
I had to take a deep breath. This wasn't so bad, it wasn't that high. I could maneuver the board just fine, nothing bad would happen.
"Yeah." I said before levitating the board and heading for the edge of the rooftop.
"Whoa, wait!" Louis suddenly seemed frightened for me. "We can start on the ground and then levitate up, you don't need to start all the way up he-"
I had taken the risk and flown off the top of the roof before Louis could finish his sentence.
I'm not sure what I was expecting when I left the safety of the roof. Fear? Anxiety? A crying episode? None of those happened. Rather than look down and start to get shaky like I expected, I felt free. I soared around the building a few times, and then once I got the hang of it, I tried to weave between trees and street lamps. I laughed as I passed a bewildered Louis still stuck on the ground, blowing a kiss to him as I flew higher.
The feeling of flying was amazing, my fear dissipating as I made little circles in the sky. This was unlike anything I had ever experienced before, better than any rollercoaster or amusement park ride. I was in control, I could do spins and turns and just whatever I wanted. I now saw why Mom loved this so much, I could spend hours out here just flying around. I decided to try and challenge myself a bit, commanding the board to ascend just a few more feet higher so I had more room and wouldn't run into anything.
My brows had furrowed when the air suddenly felt colder, goosebumps raising on my arms as I teleboarded. I looked around me in confusion, maybe I had flown right into some kind of wind?
I shivered for a moment, my arms wrapping around me. Maybe I should just land and get warmer, this cold felt terrible. However, just when I was about to turn the board to land, I heard something terrifying.
"Hello, little niece." Allister whispered in my ear, my head turning to find him standing on the board next to me. My blue eyes widened, my hands trembling suddenly. No, he couldn't be here too. I had just gotten out of the healing center, and now he was back?
I didn't say anything, but my teeth gritted as I decided then and there I would put an end to this. Allister had haunted my life for too long. It was time that I got rid of him once and for all.
"Get off!" I yelled before veering the teleboard sharply right, cutting around a tree. My runes stopped the needles from cutting my arms, but hopefully Allister's body was cut a bit.
After passing the trees I took a left turn, the soft breeze combined with my command turning the board and my body sideways. Maybe I could make him fall off. My head turned around to find Allister was still there, the same stupid smirk still there behind me.
"Leave me alone!" I screeched before huffing and commanding the teleboard to climb high into the sky. This ended now, no matter what. We flew high up, the apartment looking smaller and smaller until I finally turned the board around and began to nose dive towards the ground.
I sped downwards, my hair flying out behind me as I raced towards the ground. I tuned everything else out as I only focused on knocking Allister off the board. I was so sick of him ruining my life.
"Trying to get rid of me?" Allister had to raise his voice into a yell over the harsh winds around us. "Little niece, if I go down, you go with me."
Just then, my feet slid backwards a few inches on the board, my eyes immediately looking down to find the restraints Louis had fastened tightly had been unhinged. I gasped as my feet suddenly slipped completely off of the teleboard, my wide eyes looking down at the ground that was now approaching too fast. I screamed as the board flew away from me, the thin metal looking like a piece of paper in the wind as it flimsily twisted and was blown away from me.
"Help!" I screamed as I was now free falling towards hard ground, Allister's maniacal laughter ringing out next to me. My head turned to see him smile at me before vanishing into a cloud of dust and smoke, my wide eyes turning back to the ground that was now only a couple hundred feet away.
I could hear my heartbeat in my ears, feel the tears that were too slow to fall, feel the ice cold fear in my veins. Allister planned this. He wanted me to try and knock him off, just so I could fall to my death. He planned this, and I fell for it perfectly.
"Mira!" I heard Louis scream as the ground raced towards me, a terrified scream being heard from me as I plummeted downwards. Just when I was a few seconds away from impact, I saw a golden tint forming around me. My runes created a protective bubble I prayed would hold as I hit the ground hard, my vision immediately going black as I fell unconscious.
A/N: Sorry for the long wait on this chapter, idk why it took so long to finish. I just had no inspiration and the worst writer's block ever but now I'm pretty sure it's gone!
Dedication goes to @her_ruined_innocence for their lovely comment!
Also, to all of you wondering about a sequel, it's a possibility. If there is a sequel, it will probably be much shorter than Sorcery.
Vote and comment! -Maddie
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