Err....another..angst? I just felt like doing all sort of angsts right now, so bear with it....

And this will be in Mafu's POV

A-Anyway, enjoy

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Sometimes I wish....he would look back at me.

To smile to me, to be happy with me.

But I knew...he was unreachable.

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"I like you, you know~"

I said, trying to do a lovely face. While he, who was walking in front of me, just snorted.

"You're gross"

A small chuckle came from his throat, he didn't even look back.

"Don't say that in public, idiot"

I forced out a laugh and put on a fake smile on my face.

It hurts, but I can't show it. Even when another piece of my heart crumble away again

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Sometimes I wish I could be more like Lon-san....or maybe Rib-san.

To be able to talk to him normally. To be able to give him smiles whenever I talk to him. To make him feel comfortable with me.

But, I knew it was impossible. For me at least...

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"...and how should we--"

"Hei!!"

I walked towards him and Lon-san, who was talking on a cafe, fortunately they're outside.

"Ah, Mafu-kun..hello"

Lon-san greeted me with a smile, which made me smiled back, forced.

"What are you doing here? Can't you see we're busy?"

He asked, irritated. I forced out a laugh.

"Am I interupting? Sorry~ I'll go home now, I just pass by"

"Becareful at your way home, Mafu-kun"

I looked at Lon-san and smiled softly. How I wished he's the one who said that. As I walked away, tears falling down my cheeks.

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Sometimes I wish we hang out because he want to.

To walked around happily. No heavy atmosphere around us.

But, I knew it was because I was lonely, and he only pitied me.

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"Isn't the snow pretty? So white and pure"

"Hm.."

Only a small 'hm' came from him, I smiled bitterly.

"Would you mind to go here with me again?"

I looked over him and saw his smile, his forced one.

"Only when I'm not busy"

I laugh bitterly, but he won't noticed. I had become a good liar over these years of lying.

'But you're always busy'

I hold back my words and the tears threatening to fall.

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Sometimes I wish I was a special person to you.

To be able to make you smile and laugh everyday. For you to hug me and whisper sweet things onto my ears.

But, I knew I was never going to be good enough for you.

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"Why are you so clingy?"

I hold back my tears and clenched my fists.

"You're just too annoying to began with"

More pieces of my heart fell down.

"I can't stand you"

It felt like knives stabbing me on my gut.

"I hate you, you know"

I broke. My fragile self, just broke into little pieces.

"Just don't bother me anymore, or maybe you can just dissapear. It'll be easier for me"

Ah...there it is. The words I dreaded, got out from his mind. I saw him walked out and slammed the door of my house. I fell onto my knees and cried. I cried so hard I felt that I can't breath.

If he wish for me to dissapear, I'll gladly grant it for him...

...only for him to be happy.

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Yeah, it's done...I'll probably make Soraru's side of story too.

Is Soraru too cruel? Am I being to sadist? Gosh, I felt bad for Mafu.

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