Description: Jax and his girlfriend finally get to hold Abel now that he's out of the incubator.

I was standing with Gemma talking to Dr. Namead as I kept an eye on Abel through the window. Jax and I have been together for about six months now so I've been helping him and Gemma with everything going on with Abel.

"We're ready whenever you both are," Dr. Namead said.

"Not without Jax," I said softly. Gemma agreed and promised she would go find him.

"I'll stay with Abel then," I said. She agreed and grabbed her purse. She left headed to find Jax, wherever he was. I tried to not ask too many questions about what the club does or why. I knew it wasn't my place yet. One day, if everything worked out with Jax and I, then it would be my place. Right now though, no way.

I returned to Abel's room and sat down in the chair. I just sat for a while and prayed. Abel was doing amazing so I wasn't really praying for him as much as I was for Jax. This would make it real. One day soon this baby would be coming home with him. He'd been staying either with me or at the clubhouse since Wendy was living in his trailer still. With her going off to rehab though, Jax was moving back into his house, and soon Abel would be there too.

About half an hour after Gemma left, she returned with Jax and Tara Knowles came into the room too. I glared at her. I knew she had helped Abel a ton but I didn't trust her within five feet of Jax. She had broken him completely once and I really didn't want her to do it again, especially because it would mean me losing Jax.

"Hey darlin," he said, leaning down to kiss my lips gently.

"Hi baby," I said. I stood up and gave him the seat in the rocker. Dr. Namead came in and with Dr. Knowles help, they finally took Abel out of the incubator. He was still so tiny. They placed him in Jax's arms and Jax smiled down at him.

"Hey little man, I don't know how to break it to you," he said. "But I'm your old man."

I smiled at the two as Gemma and the doctors left.

"And this is your step mom," he said. He looked over at me.

"Is that so?" I asked.

He nodded. "I want you to be part of his life and my life for a long time."

"Well then, I will gladly be Abel's step mom," I said. I stared at him a little and watched him interact with his son, our son.

"Darlin," he said softly. I made eye contact with him. "You can hold him," he said.

"I'll get my time," I said. "You need to bond with him."

"Are you sure about all this?" Jax asked.

"You and him? And the club?" I asked, hoping for some clarification.

Jax nodded. "All of it. I'm ready for you to be part of all of it," he said.

"I'd love that Jackson," I said. I smiled at him and his phone rang. It was one of the prepaid.

He talked briefly with whoever it was calling him.

"Baby, I need you to take him," he said. "I've gotta go handle something, but you take him and hold him for a bit."

I nodded and moved closer to him, taking the small boy. Jax stood up and let me sit down with him. He leaned down and kissed my forehead before running out of the room and down the hallway.

"Hey Abel," I said softly, cooing to the small boy. I talked to him in a soft voice for a bit before his doctor came back in and said it was time for him to go back in his bed for the night. Visiting hours were over.

I nodded and told the doctor to call me if anything happened. I grabbed my purse and left, heading out to my car. I glanced at my phone but had no missed texts or calls. I decided to head to the clubhouse and see if Gemma was there.

The lot was full of bikes, Jax's included. I parked next to Gemma and went to knock on the door of the garage. The light in the office was on.
Tig came out and smiled when he saw me.

"Hey Tigger I was looking for Jax or Gemma," I said.

"Wait here," he said before hollering for Gemma.

"Perfect timing baby," she said as she walked out. "Presidents and VPs from every charter will be here tomorrow. We have to go prep shit."

I nodded and followed her inside, accepting that I would probably be stuck here a few days with her.

"Everything going to be okay Gemma?" I asked. She only nodded and we went inside to start preparing stuff.

About an hour later, Jax came in. He was carrying a bag of something. He took it into the church and then immediately came back out.

"How's Abel?" He asked.

"Good. I held him for a bit then they put him in the regular bed and I came here," I said. "He's doing really good though Jax. He smiled a couple times."

He nodded and kissed my head. He held his arms around me loosely. I leaned against him as I waited for Gemma to make a list of everything we'd need. I'd have to go to the store as soon as they opened.

"How are you doing mama?" He asked lowly. That got Gemma's attention.

"Mama?"

"Well Wendy's not going to be playing mom from rehab," he said.

"You gonna make her your old lady or just let her fuck with your kids head?"

Gemma liked me so her response was weird.

"She basically is already."

"So make it official," Gemma said.

"When we're ready Ma," he said.

She shook her head but someone was yelling at Jax and he had to go.

"So when you gonna be ready to be an old lady?"

"I am now I think. I mean I currently do all the old lady shit anyways. I think he's just got a lot going on mentally," I said. She only nodded in agreement.

"Just take care of him."

"Always Gem."