Requested by hardywoman99

Description: Jax's old lady cheats on him and has to decide whether to tell him or not.

Fuck. My mind raced and pounded simultaneously. I sat on the edge of my bed for a second. I ran to the bathroom and puked, thankful for having thrown my hair up. I brushed my teeth before going to the kitchen and getting a Gatorade. I smiled at the fact that my boyfriend insists on having the shit around all the time. I hate it but it's good for hangovers.

Oh fuck, my boyfriend.

"Jesus fucking Christ," I yelled. I couldn't believe I'd done that. Sleeping with someone other than Jax was quite possibly the worst decision I could've made. We got into a fight yesterday on the phone. He's in Ireland looking for Abel and I was stuck in Charming.

I got pissed and went out drinking with some friends. I hooked up with some guy last night, taking the risk of bringing him here. I did kick him out though.

I took my Gatorade and some toast to the couch and sat in silence and I cried and ate. I needed to tell Jax. I couldn't keep it a secret. We knew each other too well.

I spent the day cleaning up and trying to recover from drinking so much last night. I vowed not to do that again. My body wouldn't survive it, well at least it didn't feel like it would.

When I went to bed, I curled up and fell asleep instantly, exhausted from the day I'd had.

The next day, Jax walked through the door about nine am with Abel in his arms.

"Is he okay?" I asked softly. Jax handed him to me and headed to the laundry room with his bag. I bounced the boy a little and kissed his head.

Jax returned and pulled me into his arms, trapping Abel between us.

"We need to talk baby," Jax said. I nodded and my eyes started watering.

"Yeah," I said. We sat down on the couch and I laid Abel between us.

"Can I go first?" I asked. He stared at me.

"What's going on?"

"After we got into that fight," I said and my eyes were watering instantly. "I went out and got drunk. I didn't mean for anything to happen but I hooked up with someone."

"I did too," he said. "And I've got ya beat cause mine was my half sister."

I stared at him as my hand flew to my mouth and I started laughing. "You almost slept with your half sister?"

He nodded as we both laughed.

"Thanks for bringing Abel home," I said after a while.

"I almost didn't," he said. I stared up at him.

"What?"

He went on to tell me that Abel had been put up for adoption. The family seemed like a better option at the time but Gemma screamed at him and he and Opie finally got Abel back.

He told me everything about the trip. Abel started crying and Jax took him into his arms and he relaxed.

"He just needs his Daddy," I said softly. Jax moved closer to me and pulled me into his side.

"I love you Jax," I said. "I'm so sorry."

"Me too baby. I love you more."