"Things are changing
It seems strange and
I need to figure this out
You've got your life
I got mine
But you're all I cared about
Yesterday we were laughing
Today I'm left here asking
Where has all the time gone now
I'm left alone somehow
Growing up and getting older
I don't want to believe it's over"

Kozik's POV:

Distant. That's all I can use to describe my and Y/N's relationship. I told her that the club life isn't safe nor is it something to be tangled up in. We have many enemies and our families are constantly targeted whenever shit goes south. She works an hour away for a business corporation and I'm constantly on runs with the club and dealing with everything else that comes with it. I do love and care about her, but I don't want her in danger. She doesn't want to leave me though. For some reason she still loves me, but I can also tell that the club life is destroying our relationship. I've had enough time to figure some of this shit out, but not enough. I knew I should've been honest with her from the beginning, even if it was dangerous. That's all she asked of me. 

Y/N's POV: 

Tears filled my eyes as I stared at Kozik. Two amazing years have passed by with my and Kozik's relationship, but now, it's over. We were childhood friends growing up then things changed. We got together and he joined the Tacoma charter. I know this life is dangerous but I still love Kozik. I don't want to do this but it needs done. 

"Kozik I can't do this anymore. You're not always honest with me and between that and the club runs, our relationship is disastrous. I just want you to always be honest with me! I can handle it and protect myself. I love you dammit! And growing up with you and being with you for two years has been the greatest adventure, but I think we should break up." I said to him as tears streamed down my face and the hurt could be felt deep in my chest, literally. I felt like I was dying. 

Kozik's POV:

"Don't say goodbye
Cause I don't wanna hear those words tonight
Cause maybe it's not the end for you and I
And although we knew
This time would come for me and you
Don't say anything tonight
If you're gonna say goodbye"

"No... don't you dare say goodbye to me! I don't believe it." My voice cracked. I refused to hear those words. I didn't want to believe that we were over. I believed that we could figure everything out together after I came clean to her. But deep in our hearts, we both knew this was eventually going to happen. My chest clenched tightly making it hard for me to breathe at her words. 

"I don't want to do this Koz, but we're drifting apart. We live separate lives instead of one together. I go to work and come home and deal with the same exact thing every day and night. You can never open up and be honest with me after I told you I accept whatever it is that you're doing. I don't care if it's dangerous because I love you and I accept the club as well." Y/N told me crying her eyes out and trying to keep herself from collapsing to the ground. 

"Do you remember
In December
How we swore we'd never change
Even though you're leaving
That our feelings
Would always stay the same
I wish we could be laughing
Instead I'm standing here asking
Do we have to end this now
Can we make it last somehow
We both know what we've gotta say, not today
Cause I don't wanna leave this way"

I remember Christmas when we spent it together since her family went to Paris and I usually went home after New Years. We promised each other that we would always be each others support. All of the memories that we made from childhood to now flooded my mind. 

"Even though this is the end, I will always be in love with you Herman Kozik. You've been my best friend, my partner in crime, and my other half. When you asked me out two years ago, you made me the happiest girl in the world. That an amazing and attractive man like you would ever be interested in me is still a mystery. I wanted to marry you and have your kids. I wanted to grow old with you. But I guess life doesn't always work out the way we want it to." Y/N's voice cracks. 

Y/N's POV:

"Don't say goodbye
Cause I don't wanna hear those words tonight
Cause maybe it's not the end for you and I
And although we knew
This time would come for me and you
Don't say anything tonight
If you're gonna say goodbye"

My heart broke as I spilled out my feelings. I never wanted this to happen. I never wanted us to end and I meant every single word I said to him. I didn't want the perfect life but I did want a family life with him. Kozik's eyes filled with tears then he stepped closer to me and pulled me into his arms. We both cried harder clinging onto one another. God, I hated this so much! 

Kozik's POV:

"And if it's over
It hurts but I'm giving you my word
I hope that you're always
Happy like we were
Happy like we were"

"I will never stop loving you Y/N. You've been the best thing that's ever happened to me. We've made a lot of great memories together. Our feelings will remain the same I know that much. I wish we could make this last, but I know this is all on me. I should've been honest from the start. I just wanted to protect you and keep you out of that life, but that's exactly what destroyed us." I looked into her eyes with regret. Her soft hand reached up and gently cupped my face and gave me our last kiss. I closed my eyes and kissed back with as much passion as I could. 

Y/N's POV:

"I will never stop loving you Y/N. You've been the best thing that's ever happened to me. We've made a lot of great memories together. Our feelings will remain the same I know that much. I wish we could make this last, but I know this is all on me. I should've been honest from the start. I just wanted to protect you and keep you out of that life, but that's exactly what destroyed us." Kozik told me. Once he finished I couldn't keep myself from reaching up to cup his face and kiss him. He kissed back with the passion that I loved so much. We pulled away and hugged for the last time. His hand grabbed mine and held onto it before I turned to walk away. Our hands slowly let go. 

"I'll miss you Koz. Maybe we'll get another chance in the future at one point." I whispered to him as I walked away.

"I'll always love you. I will gladly come back for you." He whispered back.

"Don't say goodbye

Cause I don't wanna hear those words tonight
Cause maybe it's not the end for you and I
And although we knew
This time would come for me and you
Don't say anything tonight
If you're gonna say goodbyeYesterday we were laughing (if you're gonna say goodbye)
Today I'm left here asking (if you're gonna say goodbye)And although we knew this time would come for me and you
Don't say anything tonight
If you're gonna say goodbye"

I totally cried while writing this. I'm sorry guys. Not everyone gets happy endings like they want sadly and it's honestly the saddest thing. Everyone deserves happiness but it doesn't always happen with the person they thought it would be with. We have to live and learn even if it's the hardest thing we've ever had to do.