Decades of war

Too young to leave this world, too much through to stay alone.
Two ways to see all this, never getting rid of all this shit.
All my hopes burnt down in orange and red flames, everything is just an unfair game.
What will remain, did I go insane, is this everything which stays?
„Decades of war, I fought on my own, is there someone who'll save me from being destroyed by myself?
The pain spreads like disease, there's no sign of peace.
How long will it stay, is there an end, do you see a safe camp, where I can stay, when I've finished this exhausting war."
The fog of war lies thick among my thoughts, when will they'll be clear again, when will I reach my biggest goal?
The goal to live in peace, to get rid of this disease.
Decades of war I fought alone, no army by my side, the battlefield's so cold.
Long way from home, lifetime at war, this drives me insane, I feel like a beast.
Decades of war, I fought on my own, is there someone who'll save me from being destroyed by myself?
The pain spreads like disease, there's no sign of peace.
How long will it stay, is there an end, do you see a safe camp, where I can stay, when I've finished this exhausting war."

Der Text behandelt meine Depression und das Leben damit