WARNING: Mild triggers for self-harm.

I want to kiss your lips when your eyes go wide and the pain kicks in
I guess I've seen it all but my favourite place is in your arms
I suppose I've witnessed love but nothing as true as yours
Without you, I don't think there'd be a me
And when you're gone it feels like I'm pulling out my fingernails
But I don't suppose you'd know how it feels to have scars like mine
You know how it feels to be loved by someone like me though
It's not pleasant at all yet I guess it's something memorable
Cause I haven't been giving out my heart that easy lately
I don't know why we ever thought it would be a good idea to be apart
If we were meant to be something, I guess we'll never know
And if I ever meant anything to you I hope that you'll tell me
I hope that you'll tell me
You've got me feeling like I live on cloud nine
And you feel more like a dream than a memory
When will your blood stop pumping through my veins?
You're the reason these wrists aren't bleeding
Cause when you aren't here I feel like a lyricist without a song
But don't mind me, I'm just the girl who's dreaming of being the one in your head
Please don't find me, I think I'd just about end up dead
Cause love is just a way to pass the time
It's just a distraction to forget about dying
I dreamt about the night you could've become mine
And if there's just one barricade I'll die trying.

Written: 20/10/15