WARNING: Triggers for self-harm, suicide.

How many times have you cried on the edge of dying
And how many lies have you told to keep yourself at home
After all this time, why does that blade keeping making its way back to your skin
Ripping it apart like your feelings kill you in the dark
And why do you still justify your actions when it's the only alternative you have
So that you don't give in
You don't give in to it

How many times has it slipped your mind that there's somebody out there
You just haven't found them yet but it's not alright cause the support isn't by your side
And you need somewhere to call a real home
One isn't in the comfort of a thousand pills
How often has that blood dripped down your thighs
Like the thousand thoughts that are running through your mind
It's not safe, how can you be safe?

Cause nowadays it feels like sometimes you can't even trust your closest friends
Or the ones that should be there for you until the end, the end
It's times like these that you wonder why there's not somebody else
Not a single person that you feel can suffice as a replacement for the pain
One that won't include you in some stupid game
You're afraid of being in the dark because you don't know what it holds
But you know your demons are waiting there for you

Written: 18/11/15