I'm trying to keep up
But you're fifty strides ahead
And the weight of this world is too heavy
It's beginning to feel like lead

You're trying to recognise what these feelings are
But really they're simple to explain
You're the air that's filling my lungs
I'm losing oxygen and you're the one to blame

So when I choke on my tears
I'll shame you for it
And when you've taken my breath away
I'll curse you for it

And when I don't have the strength to go on anymore
I'll look to you for extra support
If I ever feel like I've had enough
I hope you won't cut me short

When I start to wash away
Like how time fades
I'm praying that you don't let me go
I hope next time you're there to stop me from facing the blades

Your smile is like sleep to me
I'm scared that if I don't get enough of it
I'm going to be stuck counting sheep
Because your joy is essential to me, isn't it?

Written: 27/11/15