four: just a little communication will suffice

Harry picks me up later that night, taking me straight over to his and Liam's place as soon as I got off work. We didn't say a word to each other the entire ride or for the first ten or so minutes while Harry made us both something to eat. I was trying to figure out how to start this conversation, each scenario I came up with ending in Harry being so pissed at me that he breaks up with me. Maybe I was overreacting, but lately our relationship was on such thin ice that it wouldn't surprise me if this was the final nail in the coffin.

"So... how was work?" Harry asks, being the first to break the silence which makes me feel a little better but not by much.

"It was good... slow day. How... how'd your meeting go?"

"Good... we're uh... I'm going to be heading to London next week to go over contracts which might take a few days. You're welcome to come, if you want to..." Harry says, looking at me for just a second to gauge my reaction which I didn't really give him much of one. It was clear he wanted me to go, but I honestly didn't want to. 

"I'll think about it, but more than likely I'll have to work." I say and maybe it's the same excuse I've been using, but it was valid. I had a job, so did Harry. 

"So I uh... I don't want to start anything, but are you going to use the work excuse for every time you don't want to do something?" Harry asks, placing both his hands down on the counter as he looks directly at me now. 

"I do have to work." 

"And I know for a fact that you can get out of it for a few days. In fact, I bet if I call your mother right now, she'd be all for you getting out of town for a few days. So what's the real reason as to why you don't want to go?" He asks, continuing to stare at me as he waits for an answer. I let out a sigh, running both my hands through my hair as I do so. 

"I just don't want to." 

"Why not?" 

"Why is it such a big deal to you?" I ask, growing frustrated now because it was getting clear he wasn't about to just let this go. 

"I just want you to be happy for me and to support me. I feel like you're dragging your heals where everything is concerned and I just wish..." 

"You just wish what? That I'll be over the moon at the fact you'll be leaving me? That I'll be okay with the fact that you're in a band with my fucking ex-boyfriend? Because I'm not, Harry. I'm not happy, but what can I do about it? I can't ask you to stay because of me because that's selfish an-" I start to ramble, the suppressed anger starting to hit me and Harry cuts me off. 

"Ex-boyfriend? What are you talking about?" Harry asks, genuinely confused and I let out yet another sigh that just about rattles my bones. This wasn't how I wanted this conversation to go, but it was happening either way. 

"Your friend Jamie.... We uh... We dated last year, and we broke up right before I met you." I whisper, biting on my lip as Harry continues to stare at me in complete confusion. 

"That... That doesn't make any sense Niall. He's been married for three years, I was the best man at his wedding... He's got a kid, he wouldn't... He wouldn't do something like that..." Harry says, trailing off as I feel like I'm about to cry. Harry's looking at me in a way I never wanted, a look I thought he only reserved for Rose but here I was on the receiving end of it. 

"I know... I know he's married and I knew that he was back then... but he told me he was getting divorced and I was... I was just stupid enough to believe him." I continue to whisper, looking down at my shoes because I can't bring myself to look at Harry any longer. I'm blinking back tears, sniffling and just wishing more than anything that I could go back in time and erase the past. 

"Either way, I believed him... I fell in love with him, despite everything telling me it was a bad idea... It was perfect until I decided to surprise him one night at his flat in Manchester... I did the whole cliche, flower petals leading to the bed, champagne sitting on the bed, you know... the usual... and I... He wasn't alone when he came home. He brought his wife there and I realized that... He had no intention of divorce and I ended it."  

"Why... Why didn't you tell me?" Harry asks, his voice steady and I let out a teary laugh as I continue to stare at the ground. 

"It's not exactly something I can bring up over Sunday dinner, Harry." 

"I'm not saying it is, but it is something... something that you shouldn't have kept from me. I told you everything that happened with Rose, I showed that I trusted you when I did that... So by not telling me, I feel like you do-" Harry says and I'm quick to cut him off, looking at him once again as I shake my head furiously. 

"I trust you, Harry. It's just... Jamie is a door I want closed, I want it closed up and locked with the key thrown into the ocean. It's my biggest mistake and it's in my past now... I've moved past it, I found you, and I'm sorry that I haven't been supportive... I'll be better about it, just don't break up with me... I can't lo-" I start to ramble and it's Harry interrupting me this time. He's kissing me softly, which I took as a good sign but I wasn't about to get hopeful just yet. 

"I understand why you didn't tell me and I understand that this is hard for you... but Ni... if our relationship is going to work, we can't keep secrets. We need to communicate and be on the same page about everything" Harry whispers, wiping a stray tear off my cheek as I nod. 

"I'm sorry." 

"I'm sorry too... and it's all gonna be okay. We'll figure it out." Harry says, trying his best to be reassuring but I still felt that sick feeling in my stomach. 

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welp, harry didn't lose his shit. 

but i'm sure it's not the end of it....

ummmmmmmm i update this too often. 

qotc: weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelp, it's only chapter four and connie doesn't have a question already. so uh.... give me a minute and i'll think of one.... HOW WELL DO YOU GUYS THINK HARRY HANDLED THE WHOLE NIALL TELLING JAMIE THING? DO YOU THINK IT'S THE END OF IT? 

dedication goes to NarryNut1211

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