April stayed the night because we didn't remember the time. I wake up early. My new life is calling. Today is the annual charity ball my family hosts. All the well to do people are there. Even with my mom and dad here it was stressful and it was already planned so I cannot cancel it unfortunely. The day of the feast consist of trying to remember all the guests names, tweaking your speech to perfection, looking if the charity is still good, catering and of course making everything perfect. Oh yeah, you must have a plus one. I'm still pondering on that one. The charity this year is Cancer Research UK. So of course we have a survivor to give a speech and the parents whom I know because my parents knew them (they are a Duke and Duchess) who recently lost a son to cancer decided they felt like it would be good to talk about it. I arranged it for them. I'm busy checking everything when someone rings the bell. I open the door when I see my old elementary teacher standing in front of me. "Missus Brown, I'm suprised to see you here, come in" she comes in "Thank you." "Are you here for a particular reason, oh and sorry about all the fuss, we have a busy day today." I say. "No problem at all mister Cavendish, I can come back if that'd fit better." I shake my head "No, I have time and please, it's still Theo." "So, I actually didn't want to disturb your grieving period but now that your father is dead, can we still use the house for the annual concert of the school orchestra." she hand me a folder. "Of course that wouldn't be a problem. I'd give you this space with pleasure, when will it be?" "Whenever you have time." "I'll get back to you on that okay?" She nods. "Thank you so much Theo, I'm proud of the man you've become." I smile, that's more than either of my parents have said to me.

April stumbles off the stairs. "What's happening here?" He asks. "The annual charity ball." "Oh I should get dressed." "You don't need to rush. it's okay, perhaps you'd like to stay." "Perhaps that's interesting. I'd like to meet people who you grew up with." "Well, than that's arranged, You can borrow one of my suits a let it be amended to your liking by clara." He looks at me. "That is if you wanna wear a suit. It is traditional for the.." I hestitate. "No, I'll wear a suit." he says. I feel bad. Not much later he appears in a crystal white suit. He takes my breath away. My face smiles as a reflex. A smile that could light up a room. "You look so incredibly beautiful." I exclaim and walk towards him. I grab both his hands tightly and look him in his eyes. "You're the most beautiful person I've seen in my whole life." He smiles and kissses me. The world stops for a second and we're the only thing that matter for now, the world can keep turning, the stars can keep exploding, I have all I need and all I am right here with me.

That evening

Everyone is here. The other two speakers have done their part and now it's my turn. April grabs my hand and softly squeezes it. I smile. I stand up. "Dear friends and family, everyone who is here means something to me. It means so much to me that my family enables us to do this. Today we've gathered here to support a cause that's been looming for a long time now. Thankfully today we can do more about it. When I was young I was afraid of the hospital, why, you ask? I could not bear to see the pain and the suffering. Later I saw that it isn't a place of suffering, it's a place of saviours working to keep you alive, a place of hope that you just might make it. And of course there are many that don't make it. My mama, whom you all know, had regretfully a brain tumor we did not know about. She died because of it, but thanks to modern medecine I can say for sure that she died with as little suffering as possible and I hope she and Kieran, lord and lady Anderson's son, both rest in peace. With donating to Cancer research UK we could be the last pound that helped someone like them survive. I wish everyone currently battling with Cancer or any other disease the best in life. And the most important thing I've learned." My voice cracks. "Enjoy the time you have with the ones you love" The applause is immense. I hear someone shouting. "Tell us about your parents, we all miss them." I freeze, a murmur goes through the room. When The current queen says to me "I think that would be absolutely lovely Clement." I swallow the lump in my throat and stand up again.

"Here we are again" I say laughing. I try not to cry. I feel nasaues. "You all know and love the absolutely iconic pair that were my parents. Oh what can I say about them." I sigh. I decide to lie and tell the story I wish it was. "My father was a brilliant man, funny, nice and oh so polite. He was my biggest hero, as all  dads should be. Oh and my mom, never ever have I seen a woman so graceful, kind and smart as my mom. When I ever marry, I want it to be like my parents. I want to be so loving and humble. I want to be as iconic as them. I will be like my father hopefully, my father was a man, so patient and kind. He'd hold doors for mom, and every friday they'd dance in the main hall. They were so beautiful. Their only wish was to grow old together, I want a wife like my mom. I want a family like mine. One who'd never abandon one another" People cheer. i smile but the whole world seems to be fading.

The speaker, his name is ben, needs to go so me and April have a last chat with him. "So how did you know you had lung cancer" April asks. "Well, I didn't really eat, I had a really bad cough with blood, I had black-outs, you can have seizures, some throw up, I lost a ton of weight." I feel myself getting white. "excuse me" I put my glass on the table and stumble to the bathroom. I puke in the toilet, afraid to pass out again. What the fuck does this mean.