It will be time.
Maybe in some other morning
Some days, months, or years from now
It will be time again.
When I'll think I have sobered up,
I'll not be thinking about an idea which somewhere involved you.

From being obsessed over an idea,
To being head over heels over a school crush.
From an effort called self love,
To tears called pathetic.

Endless cycles of moon
And it's glory and it's downfall,
Might someday make me realize
That you were not all I should have wasted my time upon.
I was only wishing for something to call affection.

If to love a single person could turn toxic,
Then imagine my queer heart being crumpled by part reality and part friendship.

And finally if a star falls tonight,
I have finally made my mind
As to what I want.
I would choose to live
Than roam dead from inside.

Upon reaching a finale of an episode of my dreary life,
I'll have nothing but gratitude.
I'll be thankful to have been taught how to live,
To smile, and maybe even accept my multicolored skin.

To die upon glances,
And put efforts in trying to make you laugh
Will all go nowhere but in ruins.
When I know it yields no good to me but perhaps ever so slightly and temporarily to you.
And foolishly enough I'll live by that.

There's nothing more now,
Than to find false solace
In the arms of my school crush or a friend.
All that remains now is a hoax,
Leading us nowhere but to our graves.

The candles and wills are dying.
But there is a motive before burning out,
Before dying down, before passing away.
Similar to a candle, to create light in gloom,
A path in doom,
I'll try my best to leave a trace
But to be forgotten is inevitable.

I do not care now to be called atrocities I have already heard before.
To behave how I was ashamed of.
If oblivion is my fate,
Then I suppose it won't matter now
How I sway and pose and pretend.

Because it is all bound to end.

I'd like to take this moment to thank all of you to help me create such an imperfectly perfect book of poems, there have been encouragerments by a ton load of people.

I'd like to thank TamashaWrites for being a major constant online supprt. Go check her poetry too!!

And saanjh1107 for being the #1 fan of my poetry

And also abhishikthaauthor for being the evergreen support I needed, thank you for supporting me since the start

I'm onto something more. Beautiful now and i believe I have enough energy tu have it finished and i can't wait to put it out there, until then, see ya guys!!