BreNya

I get dressed in my black pencil shirt and my teal and purple Aztec blouse with my black diamond encrusted Michael Kors wedges. I feel beautiful. The blouse has ruffles and hides my stomach well. I'm not sure what tonight will bring so I hear myself for whatever may come.

I fell anxiety coming full force as I will be in my father's presence and actually talk to him for the first time in almost a month. I grab my black clutch with matching Aztec stripes. It's custom made and I had it made after I found this fly top. I drag my feet as I walk out my room closing the door. I take each step slowly as if I'm taking the last steps to my death. I breath to calm my anxiety that is coming quicker as I get closer to the door.
I was about to walk past the kitten until a gentle tug stop me from proceeding. When I turn to look back it's the handsome Hod I have grown to love. I look up to look into the caring eyes of Kenny.  He is dressed in a black polo button down with black rip true religion jeans and black and blue Jordan's. It's as if we actually spoke about what we were wearing and decided to dress alike. He licked his plump lips before speaking.

"are you OK love? We can leave at any point you don't wanna be there anymore, OK? " Kenny says with the most serious and sincere voice. It calms me
"no and ok" was all I could come up with

Before I could turn around he softly pecked my lips which lead to a deeper kiss, that was until we heard someone clear their throats. We turn to look at. Joy and Jason who had smirks on their face. I wanted to slap them both. Petty asses. I thought to myself as we all walked to the door with me locking up.

We headed tonthw all midnight blue Lexus. The guys opened the back doors for Joy and I as we got in buckling our seatbelts. The guys got in shortly after doing the same. The ride was silent except for the radio playing. I was deep in thought that I didn't notice we had arrived until Joy grabbed my hand giving it a gentle squeeze.

" sis I'm here. At any time we can leave. I love you" Joy said
"thank you and I love you too sis" I say back

We hug before stepping out as I look up to what use to feel like home but now it feels like suffocating walls my parents live in. I see an extra car and my gut tells me the devil himself is inside. I take a deep breath as. We walk up to the door and I take a deep breath before pressing the doorbell. Yes I could have used my key but feeling unwelcome as if I'm a visitor and needed time to get my emotions together I press it and wait. A few moments later my parents live in maid Greta opens the door with a sympathetic smile and steps aside to let us in.

"hey mama Greta." I kiss and hug her. This lady is one of the main reason I didn't finish with the suicide attempt I had planned when I was 14 and got teased really badly for my weight.

It was a horrible day that day. My parents had gone out of town and I didn't know till I came home with a wet face and a hurt heart. The freshman thot decided on the second day of school she would try and get cool points by talking about me like a dog, yes I said try because before she could finish her insults Joy blacked out and beat her so bad they had to get 911 to come rush her to the hospital.

Her parents knew whoy dad was and didn't press charges. After that day I never saw her again, but the damage was already done. I ran in the house in tears and Greta was there. She prayed with me when she walked in and I was about to take every pill I could find in my parents medicine cabinet. I am forever grateful for her.

We walked in the dinner room and all talking ceased catching my attention. I looked up to see my father and Kyle looking at me. Kyle had a look I've never seen before but from one person. He has the look of lust. That boosted my confidence to a million. I smiled as I went to take a seat in the chair Kenny pulled out for me. Kyle's look went from lust to anger as his eyes shifted from me to Kenny.

I wanted to laugh. But I just had a smirk. Seems someone is jealous. Ha too funny to me. I looked over at my mom as she watched the scene playing before her and she had a smile on her face. Seems we will always be alike. Joy and Jason sat across from each other with Joy in between my mother and Kyle. My dad cleared his throat which caused us all to turn our attention to him and me and my mother's smiles to disappear.

"hello daddy. How have you been?" I said being cordial
"I'm fine baby, but we have a lot to discuss" I simply nod my head

They bring out plates of stake broccoli and cheese sauteed shrimp over rice and backed potatoes. All of my favs. Which let's me know here comes the kissing of my ass. I'm focused on the food for now I'll deal with bullshit later. I do a happy dance as we say grace with mama Greta praying. We all say Amen when she's done and I beg her to stay and join us.

My parents know our bond and why and they consider Greta family so no one objected to my request. My parents told her they would buy her a house and car and she didn't have to work anymore to show gratitude she turned down the house because hers was paid for and plus she's always here, but she did agree to the car and said she wanted to keep working it keeps her young and makes her feel useful. When I have kids she coming with me ion care who don't like it, lol.

We eat on some silence only small conversation takes place with everyone else. I'm in food heaven and I'm not talking till I'm done. Everyone knows this so no one says anything that will consist of me joining the conversation. The whole time I'm eating I feel eyes on me I look up to see Kyle looking dead at me as he eats.

Ughhhh this is going to be a long night.

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Hello my beautiful butterflies. How have you been?

Whatcha thinking?

What's going through Kyle's mind?

What do you think will happen next?

Joy has always been a ride or die.

Her and Kenny sure are kissing a lot!

Well y'all know the drill. Enjoy, vote, comment, and share.

I love you all. Part two tomorrow