BreNya
I wake up to a smile. No I didn't give away my precious, but hey he did taste it. Even though it's been two days I can still feel his touches and his tongue. His mouth game is life and I'm living. Nope let me quit. I honestly don't understand whats going on with us. Today Joy and I will be planning for my birthday this weekend. It's bitter sweet. I'll be turning 21, ready to enjoy my life, but at the same time my life will be going away.

What the hell was I thinking agreeing to my terms. I've been kind if distant from everyone, well except Joy. I don't know how to feel or even how to process how my life is about to crumble. I get out of bed with thoughts still roaming through my head. I let the water get as hot as I can stand it and step in after dropping my robe. I just stood there letting the water glide down my body from head to toe. When my body turn reddish from the water I grabbed my "thousand wishes" from bath and body works and got my loofah gloves and wash my body clean.

After repeating this process three times I then washed my hair so it could be curly today. Today I just an to be me. Bre. I don't want to be Kyle's fiancé, I don't want to be common(streetname( (bre dad/kingpin) daughter. I just wanted to be around Joy, Jason, and Kenny with no problems. After rinsing I finally got out lotioning down with my matching "thousand wishes " lotion. After that I stood in the mirror, naked. Looking at my curves, my flaws, and my assests. I saw things I hated but also things I love.

The way my hair hits my shoulders when wet and curly but go past my shoulders when straight and dry, how my boob's are huge, well in my eyes. I mean size G is not small. I don't waste time today to focus on the flaws. I brush my teeth and wash my face then walk into my room, into my walk in closet and grab purple lace boy shorts and a strapless bra that matches. I then pick out a red haulter top sun dress that stops at my knees and then add red and black Jordan's. I place my silver Rolex and diamond and silver studs in. I put on my silver rings, one of which has a Ruby jewel. In it and headed downstairs.

I grab a water and a apple and grab my purse and turn to call Joy but was met with the softest lips on God's earth. I wish my life was different and Kenny and I weren't so afraid to speak how we felt ahead of time.  He licked my lips for entrance and I gladly obliged. He finally pulled away smiling while I lowered my head blushing. I can't have him for life but for now I'll definitely enjoy our moments. Then my mind drifted off to Kyle's lips and I wondered could he do what Kenny does? Oh hell no, I'm tripping. My thoughts were cut off by Joy silky ass.

"stop with y'all nasty asses, ugh. Birch you gone be pregnant next watch" Joy said laughing
"NO THE FUCK SHE WONT!! " Jason screamed coming down the stairs

He must have forgot me only months apart but ima grown ass woman. Who he think he talking to?. I must have had a look on my face and he responded even though I hadn't said anything words out loud.

"yeah, we months apart, don't mean yo Lil ass grown. You my. Baby sister. Live with it" Jason said looking in the fridge. I just rolled my eyes and headed to the car. When I finally looked at Joy she was dressed just like me except her dress was pink and she had pink and black Jordan's and Jason dumbass made her put on a jean jacket. I swear he slow as hell. She with you dummy and she shoot better than you so trust nobody will mess with her. But I love their love. I wish I could have that but it seems my dad has snatched that from my grasp. I sigh as we exit the house. Kenny grabs me as Joy and Jason walk ahead to the my all white G-wagon and turns me to look in his eyes before he speaks.

"I may never get the chance to say this so I'm saying it now. I love you, I'm inlove with you. I always have been and always will be. This marriage doesn't change my feelings or my heart because I know your heart is not in it. And as long you don't love him I'll always have your heart too." he let's his heart bleed before pecking my lips and walking off.

Now I'm more confused than ever. And I know I need to talk to my dad. This is unfair and Kyle doesn't even like me. Or so I thought, the reason I say I "thought" is because as I was standing there my phone rung and guess who it was, if you said Kyle you were correct. I exhaled before answering.

"hello" I said but with more attitude than intended, lol
"cut the tude beautiful, date tonight at 9pm. My limo will pick you up be ready" and with that he hung up.

I just looked at my phone and then looked at the sky, I swear God be testing me. I walked and got in the back with Joy while Ken  drove and Jason sat in the passenger seat. Joy looked over troubled me and I just have her a look like "bish chill, ima tell yo ass" she nodded her head and looked out the window and I did the same. Feeling overwhelmed beyond overwhelmed.

This gone be a very long day, ugh.

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Hello my beautiful butterflies, I'm slowly but surely updateing all my books. Don't be mad at me sick kids and school, trust it's no joke.

Whatcha thinking?

Kenny words?

Kyle called her beautiful?

More into theind. Of. Kyle later

BreNya got the sauce, Kmsl.

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