Abhisek as Shivam

Kanika As Pousani

''Where will you go? (Paused) pousani'' Shivam tried to stop her but there was hesitation in his word. He was searching words to speak. She stopped; He crossed her n stood in front of her. She looked down.

'' Pousani. Please don't go. I mean, '' He was huffing badly. Pousani looked at him devastatingly. She had tear in her eyes.

'' why shouldn't i?'' she questioned him with so much twinge in her voice.

Shivam was speechless. She was right. Why shouldn't she? What should he answer? He looked for courage to answer. He then remembered his mother's word. He ''please give a chance to this relationship.'' He just could utter those words. Pousani looked at him tearfully. Shivam's eyes looked down. They couldn't match her gaze. Her gaze had so much pain, so much intensity.

'' I cannot force you for this. Still, I ..'' his voice couldn't figure further. Tears oozed inside his orb as the feeling of despondency engulfed him. He was too scared from inside.

'' okay, I will come if you would you answer my one question being honest.''

''yes, I will.''

''if I come with you, (paused) do you and your family gonna take revenge..'' her voice chocked. Her innocent question stabbed him. A sudden realization hit him hard. He realized his deed. He remembered their wedding night n the insane behavior he actually had performed that night.

****************************************************************************************************************************************************She was scared n the reason was only he n his family. It was the truth only truth. How badly a young n innocent girl had turned into a scared child. The virtuousness in her eyes could melt a devil's heart. Then why he couldn't melt that day. He was insane. He didn't deserve a pure soul like her. She deserved better. He thought. Coming to the current condition, Shivam looked down. He was guilt. His heart became heavy n he felt suffocated.

'' I just want a last chance. Please trust me'' he almost begged. He knew, he was wrong. He was literally forcing her. When she threw that question on him, it jerked him hard. The realization made him not to trust himself. But he needed to take risk by trusting himself. That time it was the hardest task. Still he needed to do. He needed to risk his trust to make her trust on him. What should she do? The person was standing in front of her was her husband, with whom she was bound for seven birth. He was the same person who turned her life upside n down. The same person, whose breathe she was having right then. How could she refuse him? Yes, she couldn't refuse him. The vermilion on her forehead was marking her as his. The mangalsutra around her neck had snatched her right from herself. Her became his when he gave his breathe to her. Her body became his when he filled her parting with vermilion. He could do anything to her. She even didn't have right to protest. After all he was her husband n she should respect him n his decision. She never had any right on herself now why she should expect extra from her life. The life wasn't her. It belonged from him. But amidst of these turmoil she forgot that his life had became her when she gave her blood to him. His body became her when he tied that black sacred black necklace around her neck. N their destiny had amalgamated when they took those silent vows on their wedding.

She just remembered all his rights on her but forgot her rights on him.

'promise me, you won't ask anything about our wedding or why i did all this'' she again expected something from the owner of her life. She didn't know, it wasn't her expectation, it was her right. She hated herself for expecting this from him but she needed to. She can't break the promise she made before her wedding.'' i wont ever ask you about all this. God promise.'' he pitched his throat. The antic had held innocence. He smiled brightly as he found her forwarding her step. Shivam just followed her. As they reached the main road, Shivam approached for a taxi. Some taxi driver refused to go to their address. Some agreed but their expectation of payment was so high. Shivam sighed. It was so hard to convince them. They were being so fussy. He didn't know how to bargain with them. He even didn't have any idea about their payment. Finally, he had to agree with their demand. He couldn't make her wait for so long

.---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- It took almost 25 minutes to reach their destination. They came out from the taxi. Shivam searched for his wallet when she remained silent. He took out a note of 500. Pousani's eyes winded. Was he going to pay the driver for rent? It was too much indeed. She just waited Shivam to speak. '' but its too much'' Shivam said with a fail face. That's all. It was enough for her to read the situation. She immediately snatched away the note later then his wallet. Shivam looked at her horrified. The action by her was all of sudden. What she was up to. Shivam found her searching something inside his wallet. She took out a note of 100 rupees n forwarded to the driver.

'' but madam, bat humari panch sow ki hui hai. Tabhi hum yahn aye hain.'' the driver said with his rural language.

'' bhaia ji.. E aap bhi jante ho ki hum aapko jo de rahe hai sahi de rahe hai. To jyada ban ne ki zaroorat ni hai.'' she sounded like a teenager.

These girls, they really can make anyone brother at any place in any circumstances. He thought then a smile captured his lip. For first time he found her this much chirpy with anyone. One thing he realized that day that no matter the situation is, women can't tolerate if the wallet of their husband is empting by someone else. The right was only n only belong to them. Finally the taxi driver agreed. He could see his face. Shivam felt pity on him. But he deserved that. He tried to fool him. He couldn't help just smiled. The smile looked like a taunt for the taxi driver n genuine for Pousani. As the taxi driver left, Pousani forwarded his wallet to him breaking his thought world.Now the time was being serious. Shivam opened the gate of their boundary. Her heartbeat ran rapidly. The anxiety covered her whole body. Each scenario of her view, reminded her about the night of their wedding. Her feet stopped automatically. Shivam looked back. She was too scared. He came back to her. He could feel the sensation she was feeling right then. To assure her, he wrapped his hand around her. She got alarmed. Instantly, she freed herself. It hurt Shivam as well Pousani. What should she do? It wasn't her who actually did this. It was her fear that did this. Tear covered her vision.'' don't fear. I am with you.'' he uttered to give her an oath. She nodded at followed him with a shivered heart. The door bell pressed by Shivam. The door took some seconds to be opened.

To be continued...

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