Nearly a week had passed, and y/n hadn't spoken to me at all.

She seemed to try her best to avoid me, even in class. 

She had taken a new permanent seat in the back of the class, as far away from me as possible.

Although it bothered me that she seemed to want nothing to do with me, I couldn't help but hold on to that small idea that she might still be in love with me.

Maybe it was a stretch but with what she said and how she acted when I confronted her, I had fully convinced myself that my assumption was right.

It wasn't like I could talk to her about it more since she purposely went out of her way to avoid me.

Come to think of it, I hadn't seen Jimin much either to ask if she had said anything.

I had no facts, just my assumptions.

I sigh as I sit down at the lunch table, keeping my distance from Namjoon who I still hadn't said very much of anything to since that day.

"Where's Jimin and y/n? Skipping lunch again?" I ask, looking around to see him and y/n were nowhere to be found again. 

"You didn't hear? Not that this is much of a shock to anyone given her history, but she broke up with Jimin. Broke his heart just like I knew she would." Namjoon says in a scoff.

My eyes shoot in his direction, that being the last thing I had expected him to say.

"They broke up?" I ask, stunned. My throat suddenly felt extremely dry.

"I told you, she's never going to change. Exactly what I said was going to happen, happened. Now look, another one of our friends has been hurt by her." Namjoon says and without saying anything, I stand up, storming out of the cafeteria.

I look in the one place I knew y/n would be. Just as expected, I find her up on the roof of the school, eating her lunch in the corner.

Although it was more of her aimlessly poking it with her fork then actually eating it.

"You broke up with Jimin?" Is the first thing that comes out of my mouth.

Y/n doesn't even look up and acknowledge me.

"Why? Why did you do it?" I ask, my jaw clenched as I step in front of her, making it very known that I was there.

Y/n merely laughs, weakly. She doesn't raise her eyes to meet mine. In an exhausted voice she speaks. 

"This is what Namjoon wanted. He said it was for the best. To end it before I ruined him too, so I did. I ended it."

I felt a sense of disappointment. For my own selfish reasons, I was hoping she had broken up with him because of our talk.

I was a horrible person to have wished that she had broken up with Jimin because she knew I was right about her still being in love with me.

"Y/n, I..." but I stopped myself, knowing that this wasn't the right time to say what I wanted to say.

"I'm sorry." I say instead as I take a seat beside her with a sigh.

"Maybe I'm just not meant to be happy. I was happy with Jimin, you know. I really do care about him, but Namjoon doesn't seem to think so. I was just so fed up with Namjoon's constant remarks and after the talk I had with him, I knew I had to break things off with Jimin. I don't want to hurt him anymore, so I ended it. I'm horrible. I keep hurting everyone I date. I hurt you and now Jimin. This is exactly what Namjoon kept saying all along." Y/n says, her voice defeated.

"How did Jimin take it?" I ask, trying to be there for her in this moment.

"Not great. I doubt he'll ever talk to me again." She says, slight tears shimmering in her eyes.

"Just give him some time, he'll come around. You're not exactly someone who's easily forgotten." I say, my heart aching with my words.

Y/n is silent for a second before she looks at me, her lips set in a straight line.

"I'm so sorry for all that I've put you through. You didn't deserve that, and I didn't deserve you. You've always been so kind even after I broke your heart. I can't apologize enough."

"It's alright, it's in the past." I say but she shakes her head.

"It's not. You're still in love with me and you have been this whole time. I know that couldn't have been easy and I'm sorry I didn't see that. I hope you can forgive me." Y/n says but follows up with, "but if you can't, I completely understand."

I let out a soft breath as I lean towards her ever so slightly and bump her shoulder with mine.

"Of course, I forgive you, you idiot. I've accepted a long time ago that you'd never love me again like you once did. I've come to terms with that, and I've been able to forgive you. Yeah, it hurts sometimes but I'd rather have you in my life as a friend then not in my life at all." I say honestly.

Y/n smiles as a single tear falls from her eye.

"You don't understand how relieved I am to hear you say that." She says, sniffling as she wipes the fallen tear.

"Well, it's the truth. I care about you y/n and I always will. Even if you had stayed with Jimin, I'd still want you in my life always. I love you. I love you and I know you don't feel the same, but I don't care. I'll still love you for the rest of my life, even if it is just as my best friend." I say, feeling a weight lift off of my shoulders as I'm finally able to let out how I truly feel.

Y/n fights back more tears as she turns her head up to face me fully.

She looks at me with tear filled eyes and bright red cheeks.

The look in her eyes is one I hadn't seen in years. My heart thumped against my chest; my palms began to sweat.

"I didn't break up with Jimin just because of what Namjoon said. Partially that but there's something else..." Y/n says, her eyes never once leaving mine.

Now my heart was beating so hard I thought it would give out at any second.

"What is it?" I ask, a weight on my chest that I hadn't felt in years.

Please, say it. I'm begging you. Say those words I've longed to hear for so many years. Please.

"You're right, Jin...

I'm still in love with you."

My heart sat in my throat, preventing me from speaking.

The room around me was spinning and I felt like I could faint at any given moment.

"What?" I ask, unable to believe that I was hearing her correctly.

"I said I'm still in love with you." Y/n repeats herself, her eyes still on me.

"So, what does this mean? Where do we go from here?" I ask, my mouth dry.

Y/n averts her eyes, falling down to her fingers that's she had been twiddling with the whole time.

When she finally speaks, I wish she hadn't.

"No where, Jin. We can't."

"What do you mean we can't? Why? If I love you and you love me, why can't we be together again?" I ask, my heart aching in my chest.

Y/n looked pained by my words.

"I can't risk hurting you again, Jin. I can't do it and I won't. Plus, now it isn't just your feelings at hand but Jimin's too. I just broke up with him and I still care about him Jin. I'm sorry."

Y/n's words cut deep like a knife. I didn't want to hear it. I didn't want to accept it.

"Please, y/n. We can figure this out. Let's just try, okay? Please."

Y/n let's out a breath, as if she had been holding it in.

"No Jin, I'm sorry." She says as she grabs her bag and starts to walk away from me.

"Y/n!" I say, my voice coming out louder then intended.

"If you walk away right now that's it! That'll be the end." I say, speaking out of pure frustration and hurt.

She stops in her tracks and stands there for a second. She doesn't turn around to face me, but instead, disappears behind the door and away from me for good.