JIN'S POV~

As soon as Namjoon came inside, I noticed that he was alone with no sign of y/n behind him.

"Where is y/n at?" Jimin asks before I even get the chance to open my mouth.

Namjoon simply shrugs as he sits down, not seeming to be in a good mood now.

Just as Jimin goes to stand, I do, making sure to beat him to it. 

"Let me." I say and Jimin nods without a word. 

I walk to the front door and open it, seeing y/n seated on the front porch step, her head hung low.

Stepping outside, I close the front door behind me and join her on the cold cement.

"Are you okay?" I ask, noticing she still hadn't lifted her head to see who had come out.

She says nothing. "Y/n." I say, putting my hand on her shoulder and pulling her back gently.

My heart sinks as I see tears streaming down her face.

"Woah, what happened? What did he do?" I ask, feeling all types of emotions in that moment.

"Nothing, it's fine. I'm fine." She says, aggressively wiping away her tears.

"You're not. Tell me what happened." I say, feeling angry that he left her out here crying.

He's been so rude to her lately that I'm not surprised their talk ended up this way.

Y/n pulled in her lips, trying to control her tears.

"Talk to me y/n, please." My heart was aching seeing her so upset like this.

"I'm so sorry. I never thought about how me dating Jimin would make you feel, at least not like this. You say you're okay with it, but I know you're not. No one would be okay with having to see their ex kiss their best friend every day. I'm such a shitty person and I'm so sorry. I understand completely if you hate me and want nothing to do with me anymore. Namjoon is right, I don't deserve you in my life." Y/n sniffles, her tears only coming out harder now.

I grit my teeth, feeling anger flowing through me.

"He really said that? Namjoon said you didn't deserve me in your life?"

Y/n doesn't say anything as she continues to cry.

"I'm going to kill him." I say, ready to stand up and march inside when y/n's hand comes out, grabbing onto my arm.

"Please, don't. Don't make it worse than it already is." She sniffles, her eyes pleading with me.

I sigh as I sit back down, even though all I could think about was how badly I wanted to kill Namjoon right now.

"I'm sorry I didn't think about how shitty this situation was. I feel terrible and I'm sorry that I haven't been a good friend. You deserve better." Y/n says, her eyes sad as she looks over at me.

Her hand was still wrapped around my wrist, her grip somewhat tight.

"You're an amazing friend, y/n. Don't listen to what Namjoon says. I don't care if anyone thinks I deserve better. I know what I deserve, and I know I want you in my life. Even if that is just as my best friend, you should know that."  I say.

Y/n sniffles as her tears seem to stop, thankfully.

"I'm so sorry. I know Namjoon is just trying to look out for you and for Jimin. He thinks I'm going to hurt Jimin like I hurt you. I always figured our breakup was mutual but I'm starting to see that I guess it wasn't..." y/n says and I feel my chest tighten.

"You didn't, Y/n-" "No, don't. Don't try to make me feel better by justifying everything. I hurt you, I know I did. I'll never forgive myself for that, I feel terrible. I never realized that by just being friends, it would only hurt you more. I'm so sorry." She says with her voice cracking.

"It's okay." I say but y/n shakes her head. "It isn't okay. It'll never be okay. I should have never started liking your best friend in the first place, but I did. I did and now I'm only making everyone else mad and I'm hurting you again. I'm hurting you and that's the one thing I never wanted to do yet here I am, doing it again." 

"You're not hurting me, y/n. It's okay, stop beating yourself up over it." I say but that seems to upset her more.

"Stop justifying my actions! You have no reason to be okay with this. Why are you so okay with this?!" Y/n says, her voice raising slightly.

My shoulders fall as I avert my eyes. I hear y/n stifle a breath.

"I'm going to ask you this question again and this time, don't lie to me." Y/n says, her voice serious.

I shut my eyes in defeat, already knowing exactly what it was that she was going to ask me.

I was not prepared for this, and I definitely didn't expect this to happen today. To happen so soon...

The last thing I wanted to do was ruin our friendship and her relationship with Jimin.

This was never part of my plan. I didn't want this to happen this way.

"Jin, do you still have feelings for me?"

I pull my lips in, having been punched in the gut by the question I already knew was coming.

I didn't want to look at her. I couldn't bring myself to do it because I knew the moment I opened my mouth everything would change...Or maybe I was afraid because I knew on the other hand, maybe nothing would...

"Jin." Y/n repeats, ushering me to answer her.

I clench my hands at my sides as I find the strength to finally look over at her.

Her e/c eyes bore into mine, waiting for whatever I was going to say.

I open my mouth, my lips quivering slightly.

Finally, I say,

"Yes, I do. I'm still in love with you, y/n." 

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A/N: Look at me, updating two days in row (;;;; Proud of me lol Plus one of you asked, so of course, I must answer. Hope you enjoyed (: