and i must be
the cruelest
lover
of all,

because i don't want you.

i want to understand the intricacies of your mind,
the parts not even you know,
watch the way your chemicals react,
the way they come to life in your eyes.

i want to stare into you soul,
behold the very essence of your being,
fall at the sight of that endless beauty,
be possessed by the oblivion at your very core.

i want to cradle your heart in my hands
and shield it from this wicked world,
mend it,
b e n d  it,
know the weight you carry
and the love you've locked away.

i want to inhabit your body,
feel it tremble and stutter beneath my fingers,
become one with its deepest desires
before i devour it whole.

i want it
more
than
anything.

..but i don't want you.