|CHAPTER SEVEN|

~A THOUSAND YEARS WILL PASS
AND THE GUILT OF GERMANY
WILL NOT BE ERASED.
WISE WORDS BY HANS FRANK~

(Song: Popstar by dj Khalid and Drake)

~CHASE~

I parked my Range Rover Jeep in my compound and got down from it. I greeted Dauda, my gate man and entered into my huge lonely mansion. I saw my Nanny Theresa running towards me.

"Good afternoon." I greeted.

"My dear, Good afternoon."She greeted me back as she collected my school bag which was draped on my back and helped me carry it into my room.

I watched my Nanny Theresa as she walked ahead of me to my room even at the age of sixty-seven, my Nanny Theresa still looked young and fresh as ever. Ever since I moved away from my dad's house she had been with me to monitor my every movement, Courtesy of my Dad.

"Junior, should I bring your food for you or would you come eat it downstairs?" She asked as she dropped my bag on my bed.

"My room." She nodded and left while I laid on my bed feeling tired and exhausted. I brought out my iPhone 12 from my drawer and turned on the data. I received lot of notifications most especially from WhatsApp. I clicked on it and saw three thousand unread messages from a group chat that I couldn't even remember joining, so I ignored it. I also got a messages from, Pink, Feyi.

Oh yes Feyi, I was meant to see her today but I totally forgot, so I clicked on her name, and checked her message.

Feyi
Boo you left school early, and I was looking for you...😔
15:38pm

Me
Yeah, talk to you tomorrow.
16:00pm

Feyi
Okay boo ❤️🥰😍😘
16:00pm

I smiled, as her last message came in almost immediately. I clicked on Pinky pink message next.

Pinky pink💗
Bro, I added you to our class group chat oo
15:21pm

Now that explains the three thousand unread messages.

What are they even talking about?

Me
Seen it
16:02pm

I also had tons of other messages from unknown numbers but I ignored it.

"Junior your food is here." Nanny Theresa said and I wondered how she entered without my notice while she placed the food on my reading desk at the corner of my room.

"Thanks!" I told her and she smiled at me and left.

I quickly had my bath and went to eat my lunch which tasted like trash to me, then I did some school assignment, surfed the web and slept off.

(Song: Stop playing Popstar and listen to trauma by NF)

The pain, the pleasure, it's makes me happy and complete. I used the blade to cut my wrist and I smiled at the pleasant pain I felt from the cut.

Euphoria, ecstasy, exhilaration, intoxication and rapture filled me up as the blood spilled out. I looked at my eleven years old self in the mirror at my bathroom standing unclad. I used the blade to cut my stomach and I felt a sharp stingy pain once again. I laughed at my reflection and hit my hand on the mirror continuously, I punched it until blood became present on my knuckles and the mirror shattered it into pieces.

I licked the blood that dropped off my knuckles, savouring the pain, the pleasure and the solace. I picked one of the pieces of the shattered glass and cut another line on my wrist and another batch of blood spilled out from it.

I could see the blood all over my body, the pain which I enjoyed and gained pleasure from, satisfying me as I rubbed my unhealed scar, and licked the blood off it.

"Chase, what are you doing?" I heard her yell as she moved towards me, with the shattered pieces of glass laying on the floor piercing into her feet.

I laughed. "I-this feeling I love it."

She knelt down as she got to me and touched my injury. I looked at her face and I saw that her eyes were glassy.

"Why are you crying? Does your feet hurts." I asked her. She didn't answer me as the tears flowed down from her face.

She stood up from my front and went out of my bathroom and she came back not quite long with a box in her hand, a first aid box. She carried me and kept me inside the bathing tub as she dressed my wounds with the methanol in her hand.

I laughed as she used the methanol to dress my wounds while she cried. And honestly I didn't know why she was crying because as far as I was concerned the methanol added more pain to my injuries giving me more pleasure.

She had my bath for me and used plaster in covering up my injuries before carrying me out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around my waist.

She took me to her room and sat me down on her bed. She later went out of the room and I could hear her ordering one of the maids to clean up the mess in my bathroom, then she walked back to me crying. She knelt in front of me holding my hand in between hers, I raised my hand up, to touch her beautiful face, a face just like that of an angel. . . when I saw the tears where not water.

she was crying, blood.

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I woke up with beads of sweats all over my face, neck and my naked torso. I brushed my hand on the lamp table that was beside my bed and switched the lamp on, I took my phone from the lamp table, and checked the time, it was exactly 03:00am.

The devil's time.

I sat up straight on my bed feeling uneasy about my nightmare. Funny how it wasn't just a nightmare but a story of the past excluding the part where she was crying blood because that part didn't happen.

I stood up completely from my bed and started pacing around. I needed something to cool me down, the heat, I was hot and I felt like I could collapse anytime and if I couldn't have sex to cool me down, I could have the other.

I walked to my wardrobe and searched for my guilty pleasure, my friend, and my companion. I scattered my wardrobe till I found it laying on my set of jeans alongside my lighter.

I grabbed it quickly with the lighter, and walked out to the balcony. The cooling breeze greeted me in the darkness with the moon as the only source of light. I removed a stick from the pack and lit it, I kept it in between my mouth and inhaled it. And I felt at peace instantly.

I stood by the balcony with my thoughts disorganized as I remembered her, the love she showed me even with my problems and how she stood by me even when I pushed her away from me.

I sat on the floor of my balcony smoking on my second round of weed when I remembered what she said on her hospital bed.

"Chase this isn't your fault, don't feel guilty. I love you..."

But it was!

Then I cried, I cried as I remembered her. The way she loved me, how she tried to help me anytime I had an episode. And I cried because I felt guilty for her death.

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I drove myself to school after a exhausting long night all because of my disturbing nightmare, which kept me awake till Dawn.

You can blame it on my INSOMNIA....

I walked in the SS3 school hallway with my thoughts everywhere. When I saw a crowd of students gathered around Lily, and another person, Tayo. I stopped walking, and decided to observe the situation and what the problem could had been because the Lily I'd come to know was very quiet, and reserved. And with the little time that I'd spent in the school, she looked like a loner. So what could she be doing with Tayo, aside that, as the centre of attention.

She looked scared, afraid and intimidated, more like she was a prey to a bigger animal. I couldn't hear what they were saying because their speech were inaudible, maybe because of my distance away from them.

Maybe.

"Hey boo." I heard someone say and even without looking I knew who it was because only one person calls me boo.

I looked back and I wasn't wrong, it was Feyi, standing in front of me beaming or should I say grinning? And looking beautiful as always.

Yes Feyi was indeed beautiful, really beautiful, but Pink was more beautiful, a goddess I must say.

"Hey Feyi." I greeted her and continued watching Lily and Tayo.

"So you are watching the weirdest loner?" Feyi asked.

"What?" I asked turning to her.

"Lily, the weirdo." She said, nudging her head to Lily's direction. "She is in your class and I also don't like her, I mean nobody does even Pinky pink your twinie, the holiest of the holiest who is friendly with everyone, doesn't like her."

"Why?" I asked, or no. . . I mean my subconsciousness asked.

And subconsciousness, who told you to ask?

Feyi looked at Lily and Tayo direction with her brows corked up more like she was thinking.

And why would she be thinking?

I just asked her why they don't like Lily.

Because the law of life states that, to hate someone there must be a reason behind it.

Okay, I came up with that, there's nothing like the law of life.

Or is there?

She looked at me and shrugged her shoulders. "I don't know, people just don't like her and I heard that she stinks."

"Really? She stinks?" I asked, with curiosity pricking me.

"Yeah, since you're in her class you should have perceived it, right?"

I shook my head and placed my attention back on Lily and Tayo and this time she was crying. Yes, Lily was shedding real tears while Tayo had a smirk on his face, probably happy for making her cry. I wanted to walk away but a part of me kept pulling me back, telling me that I shouldn't ignore her.

I kept looking at them until her eyes met mine and I was drawn aback, the look in her eyes, the sadness, the plea for help, made me remember her. And just at that moment my father's word played back, into my ears.

"If you hadn't just stayed back and look, maybe, just maybe, it would have been a different story now..."

"Stop!!!" I yelled, getting everyone's attention. Everywhere was pin drop quiet, making me wonder where the teachers were, also people were looking at me but I didn't mind them as I walked to where Lily stood.

I gripped Lily's right hand while Tayo held on to her left hand. "Release her wrist." I told him calmly because he wouldn't want to see the other side of me.

Tayo still had his smirk on his face making wonder if he was the same Tayo who came into my class the other day begging desperately for Pinky's whereabout.

"And if I shouldn't?" He asked.

Now I had a smirk on my face. "Just release her." I told him again, still calmly.

"No, I won't release her, so you can go, because I don't have any business with you." He said emphasizing on every word he said and he tried to drag Lily's hand away from mine, making her groan.

I looked at Lily face and she still had that sad look in her eyes and her face was wet from tears, she also had catarrh coming out from her nose making her look funny but I resisted the urge to laugh since I was meant to be helping her.

"Why are you still holding her?" Tayo voice brought me back to reality. "Release her hand now."

I shook my head. "No! I can't."

He laughed in a way that seemed abnormal or should I say he laughed abnormally and looked at me in the eyes and I'd say his brown orbs held intense fire a really great intensity of fire but I didn't flinch neither was I scared as I looked him in the eyes also but his ways still surprised me, making me wonder again if this was the guy that really dated my sister.

Or is he not?

And how did he treat her?

"Chase, chase, chase." He called out my name consecutively, in a whisper like tone. "Believe me, when I say you don't want to mess with me, because I have a untamed monster in me."

I laughed and I couldn't believe the way I laughed since it's been long I laughed like that and also because it was more like Tayo's, but mine was maniacal, or should I say evil. And I felt it, my anger brewing, waiting to be served like a hot cup of coffee, but at the same time I knew that I couldn't succumb so I started snapping my fingers together.

"Tayo! let me tell you in case you don't know the monster in me is greater than the monster in you. So mind yourself."

Seriously the dude was really annoying.

Such a bully.

We kept glaring at each other without, breaking eye contact with Lily still in our middle, our grip holding her down and I could also hear murmurs from some of the students gathered around us.

The bell for assembly rung and Tayo released his grip from Lily's hand glared at me and smirked.

"Never try this with me again." With that statement he left. Leaving me, Lily, and the students who were already moving to the assembly hall making the hallway a little bit rowdy.

I could even sight Feyi from the rowdy crowd of students with a frown marring her beautiful face. She made eye contact with me and left. I also sighted Wendell. He was looking at us too and he had an unreadable expression on his face.

I brought my attention back to Lily and she was looking at the floor still crying because I could hear her sniffing. I stopped snapping my fingers and gripped tightly unto her hand and walked away from the hallway to wherever.

I just kept walking holding Lily's hand until I reached an empty class where I entered with Lily. I sat her down on a chair and I took a chair also and sat opposite her. I removed my school bag from my back, opened it and removed a handkerchief from it and stretched it out to her.

She didn't collect it from me as she kept on crying, facing the floor. "Yunno there's catarrh running from your nose, and it making you look ugly." I decided to joke a little and she still didn't respond neither did she collect the handkerchief from me, Instead she used the back of her palm to clean her nose making her face look more messy than it already looked.

"I think you would be needing the handkerchief more now." I told her still stretching the handky to her.

She finally collected it from me, with her face still facing the floor. "Thank you." she muttered but I heard her. I smiled and nodded as I watched her clean her face, then I remembered that assembly was going on but I didn't mind, since I never really liked assembly.

So yes I finally have an excuse for missing the morning assembly.

The class was quiet as neither of us said anything to each other well apart from the sound of her sniffing. "So do you want to talk?" I finally decided to break the chain of silence.

She didn't answer and she kept staring at the floor which by the way was becoming quite annoying, I used my hand to prop her chin up so she would look at me but she still wasn't making eye contact with me, more like she was shy, really, really shy.

"Are you shy?" She shook her head, indicating that she wasn't shy. So why was she avoiding eye contact with me? "Are you not comfortable with me?" I asked her, and she shook her head again. I sighed, "Are you scared?"

She didn't answer that question, she didn't nod also and she tried desperately to avoid my eyes.

Is she really scared of me?

"How long has Tayo been bullying you?" I asked her wanting to change the mood. And she didn't still answer.

God I was loosing it!

I mean she should say something na, it's getting pretty annoying.

"Say something girl." I told her exasperatedly, snapping my fingers to cool myself down and I swear I saw her tremble. She flinched at the magnitude of my voice.

My anger could sometimes bring the...

I stopped snapping when I saw that I had scared her, so I held her hand and tried to breathe in calmly before talking. "Sorry for raising my voice but I'm trying to help here and you ain't talking which is getting pretty annoying. Just say something. How long has Tayo been bullying you?" I asked her again.

She didn't say anything and I was getting really frustrated, clenching my teeth, and my knuckles. Well it wasn't her fault, I was the one who helped her_

"Since JSS1." She answered. Her tiny voice low as ever. At least she was talking now.

I stopped clenching my fist and released my fist, flexing it because I clenched it too hard."And why do you think the whole school hates you?"

She sniffed, using the handky I gave her to clean her nose. "They said. . . They. . ."

"They said what." I was getting impatient, because she was stuttering.

"I stink."

I smiled. "Do you?" I asked her.

"Don't you smell it?"

"I can't smell." I blurted out before I realized that she was the first person that I've ever told that I've lost my sense of smell well apart from my dad and my therapist who knows.

But is she really smelling?

She was still facing the floor. "You have Anosmia?"

"Yeah." I answered her. "How do you know about Anosmia?"

"Did some research on body odor. . . So I stumbled upon it." She told me.

"Oooo, so you know that I can't smell you now?" She hummed.

"Is_Tha_ That_", She stuttered in her words again, making me wonder if she stutters all the time.

"Is that what?" I asked getting impatient.

"Is that why you never eat in class." She asked.

I smiled. "So you noticed. Well yes, I can't taste food, so it's of no use."

She nodded and didn't say anything while I listened to the silence.

Uhmmmm. . . Listen to silence ke? Where did that come from?

Whatever.

"You know you can trust me." I told her, holding her hands in mine, and I felt her shiver as I held unto her hand. "I've noticed that you are always alone, so I can be your friend, if you want." I told her, meaning every words I said.

She looked at me for the first time, with amusement written in her eyes but she broke the eye contact as soon as she looked and she smiled.

First time I'll see her smile.

"Is that a yes?"

"Yes." She said, her voice still tiny as usual.

"Good, now you can talk to me anytime now and if you have problem with Tayo or another person, feel free to tell me, I'll gladly help you and put that person in his or her place." I told her, and she smiled, nodding her head.

At least she's smiling and talking now.

"So do you think you smell." I asked the question, that I'd been wanting to ask her since.

"I do." Came her reply. "People also do not hesitate to rub it in my face."

"Really." I asked looking at her, while she looked everywhere, apart from my face. "Have you seen a doctor. . . I mean to confirm?"

"No."

"So you can't be so sure, people say things to get to people, mean and demeaning things that are not true, so for all I know you might not really be smelling, so why don't you go to a doctor for confirmation, and also if it's really true, ask for a solution." I told her.

She nodded and we remained quiet. "Let's go to class, we've surely missed first period." I stood up stretching my hand to her and she just kept looking at it. "Friends?"

She smiled and took my hand. "Friends."

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A/N

So I gave a sneak peek into chase life.
What do you think about his past?
Do you think there's more to it?

Well I don't know ooo.
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So chase and Lily ba?🤔

Or chase and feyi?🤔

Uhmmmm??????🤔

I use to say this all the time oo that chase is really unpredictable.
And do you guys agree with chase that Lily should go and see a doctor?

Well who do you think has craze the most Chase or Tayo?🤔🤔🤔🤔

Me: I don't know the answer.🤔

Chase: (Sleeping)😴

Tayo: who's chase?😠

Lily: they are the same! 😶

Me: really? Pinky what do you think?🤔

Pinky: I'm confused! 😕

SO my friend said I should write a Tayo POV.

What do you think?

Do you guy's want a Tayo POV?

THANKS SO MUCH WATTPADIS 💗🌺

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