|CHAPTER SIX|

~I can't take your pain away
But I can make you feel better
If you stay another day
We go fight it together~

(Song: listen to bad boy by Billie eilish)

~CHASE~

The morning assembly was boring, no lies, just praise and worship, accompanied by the most boring speech ever given by the school principal.

Pinky held on to my hand as we both walked to the class, while Rayo, just kept ranting about her mum and how she wanted to run away from home, but couldn't.

"And now that I'm thinking, let's not all go to class now." Pinky said, suddenly.

"And why?" Rayo asked as we all stopped walking, standing by the side of the busy hallway.

"Well, all the teachers are in a meeting organized by the principal, and Rayo, you know if the principal should hold a meeting it will surely last more than an hour, because that man can talk."

"So what you're trying to say is; The book keeping teacher won't be able to teach us today," I noticed Rayo eyes widen in realization, I on the other hand, just listened to the both of them speak without inputting. "We have a free period all to ourselves. . . Yeee."

"Yeah, so let's go to our santuary." Pink requested wiggling her eyebrows playfully as she stared at both I, and Rayo.

I nodded in disagreement and immediately declined. "Nah, I think I will just go to class."

"Same here, I have lots, and lots, and lots, of notes to write."

Pink frowned. "So you guys want me to go alone, abi?"

"Or, you can just stay with me in the class, while I write my note na." Rayo said.

"Well, I don't want to stay in class."

"You can go and meet Nola, he'll probably crack you up, as always." Rayo told her, and pink didn't say anything as she just left to only God knows where.

"Chase, let's go to the class." Rayo said and I nodded.

"Rayo can I ask you some questions?"

"Yes." She answered as we entered into the class.

"Well it's about Pinky." I said, walking towards my seat, with Rayo trailing at my back. "Funny to say, but I don't know much about my sister, so I was thinking. . ."

"I should tell you about her, right?" Rayo asked cutting through my statement, and I nodded in response.

"Okay." She said, sitting down on my desk while I took my seat. "So about Pinky pink, she doesn't really hold grudges, she's nice, fun loving..."

"Are you sure she doesn't hold grudges?" I asked.

"Yeah, she doesn't." Rayo replied back immediately. "Why do you ask?"

"She doesn't like Feyi." I stated.

Rayo laughed. "You really do not know your sister, well about Feyi matter, it's the other way round, because back in junior class, me and Pink tried getting close to Feyi, but she doesn't just seem to like us. And one day she said that we intimidate her and pink acts like her Royal Queen of England."

I chuckled. "Okay then, continue."

"Pink is friendly, she loves people and doesn't discriminate or makes you feel like nothing."

"Really." I said turning my head to notice Lily who wasn't in school yesterday, she seemed to be doing what she knows best, sleeping.

"You are looking at Lily?" Rayo voice brought my attention back to her. "Why?"

"Why?" I questioned back. "You said Pink is friendly right?" She nodded her head in response. "Why doesn't she talk to her? why don't you also talk to her? Or let me ask, why is the whole school ignoring her?" I asked calmly.

Rayo looked at her, before staring back at me. "I guess, she just weird, and wants to be alone." She answered shrugging her shoulders. "Actually, Pink wanted to befriend her, because she seemed pitiful, but after the incident in JSS3, Pink liked her less."

Now that cut my attention. "Which incident?" I asked.

"Well. . . "

"Rayo!" Someone yelled out her name as he moved closer.

"Tayo, what do you want?" Rayo asked sounding uninterested.

He stood in front of my desk staring right at Rayo, oblivious to me being present. "Please where is Pink, I need to talk to her."

"And what makes you think that I would tell you where she is?" Rayo asked raising her brows at him. "She clearly doesn't want to see you."

"Please, just tell me where she is." He pleaded with desperation in his eyes which got me wondering the history him and pink had together while I just sat on my seat, looking disconcerted.

"Tayo, leave me alone. She doesn't want to see you." Rayo insisted. "Just go!"

Tayo didn't say anything but I could see the sadness in his eyes as he left.

"Who is he?" I asked Rayo, once Tayo had left the class.

"Tayo." She answered.

"Uhmm, but why does Pink avoid him?" I asked, a little bit curious.

"Honestly, I don't know the answer to that question either."

"But you said Pink doesn't hold grudges, so what has that dude done for her that she doesn't want to see him." I asked.

"I really don't know, after their break up. . ."

"Break up?" I asked interjecting Rayo.

"Yeah, after that, she doesn't just want to see him." She answered as she got up from the desk. "I should go to my seat now, I've got lots of notes to write."

I nodded in response and she left while I just stayed on my seat. I could see two of my classmates moving towards me, but I could only identify one of them which was Ade.

"Bro, whatsup?" Ade greeted as he got to my seat.

"Hey." I replied, not interested because I just wanted to stay alone at that moment.

"Sup." One of the boys, whom I don't know his name greeted me, but I could recognize him as one of my classmates.

"Hey." I responded, and they both dragged a chair, to sit near me and I didn't complain because in as much as I wanted to be alone I didn't want anyone to see me as a snub.

"So bro, what do you think of our school." the guy whose name I didn't know asked, trying to start a conversation with a question which didn't really make much sense to me.

"K what do you think he will think of our school, when there is literally nothing to hate about the school." Ade answered the guy whose name or should I say nickname I'd learnt to be K, before I could even open my mouth to reply. "So how far na? You don't even use to talk to anybody, I even thought that you were a snub."

I smiled one of my fake smile, because I was trying to be nice. "I just like staying alone." I answered.

"Uhmmmm, okay oo." K said. "So we've seen Feyi around you, do you like her?" He asked in a whisper like tone.

For where, like who?

"This one that you are not answering ehn, it's making me think that you like her." Ade said, hitting my arm playfully. "Well it's obvious she's head over heels for you, and I'm sure you wondering how I know? Well it because she's my cousin, and even though she's annoying she's nice to people she really likes, so shoot your shot na."

I chuckled, not really knowing why, maybe it's because of what Ade said, or the way he said it.

"Talk na, or should we help you talk to her, because you are you shy?" K asked teasingly.

Why would I be shy?

On top girl?

This one's, do not, even know anything.

"I will talk to her myself." I told them having it at the back of my mind to see her later since I'd been looking for a means of distraction lately so maybe having a girlfriend could help cool off some steam also it would be a good distraction from thinking.

"Old boy, wan shoot him shot." Ade said. "I'm sure that she would even accept without thinking."

K laughed, while I just smiled a little.

"Chase, chase, abeg no break her heart ooo, even if she can be annoying she's my cousin oo."

Pele.

"I've heard." I told him and him and K left.

I brought out my notebook to read since I had nothing better to do when I unconsciously met Lily staring at me but immediately I met her eyes she looked away and kept her head on her desk.

The same thing she did on Monday, when I caught her staring at me.

I smiled then I remembered that I was with her mathematics notebook. I brought it out of my bag.

"Lily!" I called her but she didn't answer and I knew she wasn't sleeping, since I just caught her staring at me.

"Lily!" I called again and she raised her head up, but she didn't look at me, which made me smile, wondering what was going on in her head. "Your note." I stretched it out to her since our desk was just five fts apart, she looked at me avoiding eye contact with me and I couldn't help but notice the look on her face, she looked sad, more sad than I've seen her in.

She collected the notebook from me, and muttered a 'thank you', which got me wondering why was she the one saying thank you when she was the one who did me the favor of actually lending me her book.

I kept staring at her because of how sad she looked as if she missed someone, she didn't say anything, as she just kept staring into space.

"What happen?" I asked her.

She looked at me, still avoiding eye contact, as if she was shocked that I was talking to her. "Are-- you, talk-- talking to me?" She was stuttering.

"Yeah," I answered plainly. "So what is wrong with you?" I asked again.

"Nothing." She answered, with her tiny little voice.

"Bullshit," I knew she was lying. Her visage said it all. "You can tell me, I won't bite."

"I just miss my parents." She answered in a really calm tiny voice.

I started to wonder if her parents were dead and how sad she might be feeling at that moment, after all I knew how it felt to lose a mother, not to talk about losing both parents.

"Sorry about your loss." I told her calmly, trying to console her.

"Ah no, they are not dead, they just travelled out of the country." She said, in her usual tiny voice, trying to clear the misconception about her parents being dead.

"Ooo, sorry for the misunderstanding," I scratched my hair, embarrassed a little for jumping into conclusion. "If they just travelled why are you sad?"

She didn't answer for sometime, leaving me with the impression that she wasn't going to answer the question, until she did.

"They will be gone for a year, so I just miss them."

"You were not in school yesterday." I told her, trying to change the topic. "Why?"

"I accompanied my parents to the airport."

"Uhmmm, okay." Then I went back to reading the notebook on my desk, when the bookkeeping teacher Mr Bankole, entered into the class looking bored as usual.

"Good morning class!" He greeted.

"Good morning sir."

"Sir." I heard Rayo call out.

"Yes, Rayo what is it?" He asked her, with a boring tone.

"Pinky, isn't in the class yet, so I want to go and call her."

"And why isn't she in the class this is first period and I expected everyone of you to have been seated on your sits waiting for me," his face was as bored as his tone. "Who else isn't in class?" He asked.

"Ehmmm Pink, ehmmm Nola, and Faree." Immediately Rayo answered, Nola and Faree entered into the class but halted when they saw him — Mr Bankole.

"Good morning sir!" They both greeted simultaneously, as if, they were being programmed together.

"And where were you both coming From?" Mr Bankole who seemed to have been forced to ask the question asked.

"I went to the toilet." Faree quickly answered.

"What about you Nola?"

"Library." He answered but I knew they were lying, they were both together.

Tsk, bad! bad!! children.

It's not my business Sha.

"Go to your seat." Mr Bankole ordered them and they both scampered to their seat before Mr Bankole turned back to Rayo, who was still standing, waiting for him to give her a go ahead to call her best friend. "Rayo, sit down, when pink is ready to learn she would enter into the class." He said to Rayo and she sat down reluctantly and I couldn't help but wonder where Pinky could be.

Few minutes into the class someone entered into the class and it caught everyone's attention. I looked up to see Pink walking to her seat peacefully, oblivious to everything around her. She didn't even greet the teacher, it was as if her mind was far away and her face looked sad. Mr Bankole looked away from the board he was writing on, and just kept stared at her until she sat down on her chair.

"Pinky stand!" He ordered immediately she was seated, nevertheless Pink didn't respond. She was still lost, and Rayo had to tap her out of her own world, bringing her back to reality.

I noticed the look of confusion in her face before she stood and muttered a loud enough greeting to the man in front. "Good morning, Mr Bankole."

"So I was invisible, abi? That's why you didn't see me when you entered into class?" He glared at her as he asked.

"Sorry sir," She apologized. "Pardon me sir, it won't happen again."

"It better not. And where were you by the way?"

Pinky hesitated. She scratched her head, as if she was looking for a lie to tell the man. "I was in the toilet, sir."

Lie! I just knew she was lying because of the uneasiness in her voice.

"And what were you doing there?" He asked and some of the students chuckled at that question.

"Minding my business." Pinky answered, feeling shyly.

"So girls use to poo-poo?" Nola asked making most of the boys – except me – in the class burst into laughter.

"Shut up, NOLA!" Mr Bankole commanded, and the class became quiet. "Pinky sit, but don't come late to my class next time."

"Alright sir, and thank you sir." Then Pink sat down back on her seat.

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(Song: listen to heavy by Linkin Park & kiiara or before you go by Lewis capaldi)

~PINK~

Chase and Rayo deserted me, meaning I had to go to the santuary alone. I entered into the former lab and closed the door behind me and the lab was empty, I was at least expecting to meet Jonathan but he wasn't there.

I sat on one of the stool in the lab and rested my head on the surface as I tried to take a nap. The sleep didn't come no matter how hard I tried so I removed my iPhone from my blazer pocket checked my IG notifications, I also noticed that I had hundred new followers, after surfing and surfing and surfing the net I got tired and played my favorite song, Heavy by Linkin Park & kiiara.

I don't like my mind right now
Stacking up problems
That are so unnecessary
Wish that I could slow things down
I wanna let go
But there's comfort in the panic

And I drive myself crazy
Thinking everything's about me
Yeah i drive myself crazy
'cause I can't escape the gravity

Am holding up up
Why is everything so heavy
Holding up up
So much more than I can carry

I keep dragging around
What's bringing me down
If I just let go I'll be set free. . .

Once the song stopped playing, I started weeping, all because of one person.

Tayo.

He broke me, mentally, physically and emotionally, I thought he was the one, I thought he would be the one. The monster even promised me marriage, he promised to take care of me, to always be there for me, he said he could die for me.

He promised that he would father my children, he promised that he would love me for life, that's why I gave him my everything, I dedicated my love, my time into the relationship. I loved him more than I've ever loved anyone even after what he did I still went back to him thinking we could still make things work.

I felt a tap on my back which brought me back to reality. Quickly, I cleaned the tears on my face, before facing the person with a bored demeanor, trying as much as possible not to give out the factual truth that I was recently crying. And lo' and behold, standing at my front was him. The monster I once loved and maybe still. . .

Tayo.

I didn't say anything neither did he say anything as we kept staring at each other, with Before you go by Lewis capaldi playing in the background. I broke the eye contact, grabbed my phone which was still playing the song as I headed for the door.

Ehhhh, before you go. . .

"Pinky, please." He said holding tightly unto my hand like his life depended on it.

I turned to face him and honestly the expression on his face broke me. it was sad, desperate and sincere.

"Leave my hand!" My voice failing, expectedly, it kept on breaking in as much as I wanted to be strong. In as much as I wanted to be impassive about the fact that his presence around me still affected me and made me feel, uneasy.

"Pinky please, forgive me, please I can't stand it anymore, you are not talking to me," I could feel the sincerity as he spoke, but I knew I couldn't fall for his apologies anymore. Never. I shouldn't. "Please it was a mistake..."

"A mistake?" I whispered–yelled as a drop of tear fell down my eyes. However, I was quick to clean it off with the back of my palm. I didn't want him to think I was still weak, even though I was. "Tayo, if it is once, it is considered a mistake, but six times Tayo. SIX freaking times, Tayo!"

"I'm sorry, I am deeply sorry. I really regret everything that happened." He pleaded, and I saw the pure sadness in his light brown eyes, and the desperation in his voice. And it somehow hurt me, to see him in that state of desperation. It hurt me. "What can I do to make you, come back to me, what can I do to show that... I still love you?"

"Love?" I asked rhetorically, laughing and crying simultaneously. The tears just kept falling in as much as I tried restraining myself in front of him. "Tayo. . . I was the fool who loved you, I was the fool who thought you could change. I was the fool who gave you everything. I was the fool who believed in all your promises. I was the fool. . .tayo, I was a fool for ever falling for you."

He shook his head continuously. "Pink, you were never a fool," he wanted to touch me but I moved back on reflex, scared, at the same time, I desired his touch. "I was the one who couldn't control myself, I couldn't control my anger. I swear, I tried because of the love I have for you, I tried to control my anger issues, I never meant anything I did. . .I never meant anything I said to you pink, please I love you. . ."

"Tayo, you love me?" I asked, looking at him In the face as he ran his hands through his deep black low cut hair, that once upon a time, was one of my favorite things to play with. "Tayo, you hit me, you beat me not once, not twice, not thrice, six times. . . Tayo, 1. . .2. . . 3. . . 4. . . 5. . . 6, six times!"

"I know and I'm sorry." He pleaded. "Please, sorry."

I cried. "Tayo, sorry cannot take away the pain you caused me, physically, the scar on my back, that scar... Because of that scar I can't reveal my back to anyone, Tayo you scarred me, I can't even do a shoot for a cloth that is revealing anymore and you know how much I love showing skin. Tayo I was a fool. . ."

"No pinky, please." He pleaded again, cutting me off, and I could see the tears in his eyes as more desperation dripped in his tone. "Pink please, everyday I spend without you kills me, please I can't do without you. . ."

"Well, you should have thought about that, before you hit me then." I told him, cutting him off also as I looked at him with my teary eyes. "And do you know what the painful thing is? Do you?"

He didn't answer as he finally got a hold of my hand, grabbing onto it tightly, but softly at the Same time. "Tayo?" I called him in a whisper like tone, as my voice broke. "I gave you myself, my virginity. Tayo you were my first in everything but you turned me into your punching bag."

He still didn't say anything as he kept shaking his head vigorously. I released my hand away from his and walked towards the door and as I was about to twist the door knob, he called my name.

"Pinky, please." He begged. I whipped my head to look at him and seeing him with his two kneels on the floor and his countenance, melancholic, made my heart ache for a reason. A reason, being that, I couldn't bare to see Tayo sad or in pain. "Please pinky, don't leave me."

I walked to where he knelt, stood in front of him as I cried and even as he knelt I was only taller than him with a foot or two and that easily gave him access to use his hand in patting my braids, and I let him. It was shameful, but I really desired his touch.

Suddenly, he removed his hand from my hair, held my hand and brought it to his face. I couldn't bare to see him cry like this, I couldn't bare to see him on the floor like that even after everything he had done to me I couldn't bare to see him broken and sad.

"Tayo, you broke me!" I spoke in accordance to how my heart felt.

"I know--- a--and I'm deeply sorry." He apologized, stuttering a bit, and that shocked me even amidst all the tension.

Tayo never stuttered. No matter what the condition was, he'd never stuttered. But he was at that moment, all because he was apologizing to me.

I wanted him back, but I knew it was best for me to leave him. Even though it hurt like hell, with my heart, literally, bleeding from an anguishing heartbreak during the midnights since our final break-up during SS2 last term — when it all happened. So, I  remove my hand from his, and hit him on his chest. "Tayo you broke me, you broke me, you broke me!" I kept on chanting like a maniac as I kept on hitting his chest, continuously, bawling my eyes out. And I saw it. What I saw kept on breaking my heart.

Tayo was also crying. And it was the first time I would see Tayo cry as he just knelt on the floor helplessly.

I stopped hitting him and walked to the door holding unto the door knob tightly, and I also held unto my iPhone tightly with my other hand as I stared at him and he wasn't crying anymore neither did he look sobered. He had a unreadable expression on his face.

Then that's when I saw it.

He was smirking, then it turned into a smile and before I knew it he was laughing, really laughing like a crazy person.

The monster.

I shook my head and left the lab sad and angry at the same time. I was sad because of how I still felt about him and I was angry because he was laughing. I ran to the toilet, crying until I had no more tears left to cry and gasping for air as I ran out of breath due to too much of crying. I went to the basin, opened the faucet and rinsed my face of any tears, I kept my phone into my blazer pocket and went to my class.

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A/N

Emotions!!!!

What do you think about Pinky and Tayo's relationship. No cap it was really a toxic relationship because I experienced everything behind close door, I saw how he treated her. He was nice but he just allowed his monster to be in control sometimes.

How I wish that I could write their love story from when they were in JSS2. The emotion and feelings they shared was raw and interwoven. Pinky crush from jss1 then her boyfriend in JSS2, just imagine how she had felt.

So do you think she should go back to him or move on?

Should she forgive him?

Or most importantly can her feelings for him die?

Please be realistic. Think love.

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That aside.

Chase and Lily?????

Uhmmmm do you think a ship will be built talkless of even sailing and landing?

Just read and find out..

Though you might not get what you are expecting because I'm trying to make this drama realistic and relatable.

So there's a possibility that there's no future for Chase and Lily...

OR IS THERE?

Also like I said before Chase is really unpredictable and he is not someone that you can understand.

So chase and Feyi 🤭??

Who is shipping?

Update: Wednesday and Saturday.

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